A POCKETFUL OF POETRY -------- ©2009 Lawrence A. McFadden all rights reserved

draw me near
and draw me
out sing me
shout sister shout
please remember
i am a member
of the embers
of december
i surrender
like a old flame
you know more
than my name
you have touched
me deeply kissed
me sweetly heal
me completely
draw me closer
and draw me in
the warmth of
skin on skin
the touch of
tongues
waiting for winter
to come

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down deep within
reason
i felt a twinge
of country twang
nose to the sky
who can say
stop
i cherish my sanity
my sobriety your will
true believer
the path i walk with you
is the path you walk
with me my lovely
i sense you all over
every nook and
cranny
watchfull eye granny
moon i love you
she echos
all men are holy
all women are sacred
in the naked night
and divine might
of the soul

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some day
you'll hear it
when you fill a poet
with spirit a song
thousands of years
long a night just like
tonight a cupfull
a bowlfull a soulfull
many many moonfulls
some say all will dissolve
the healed say all shall be
revealed the spirit
the mystery
please lift me light
me unite me
to hold her hand
and touch the face
of god soft as a kiss
on the lips
and i promise
another sacred kiss
is yours
i keep telling myself
to stay out of my way
the sky is only as wide
as your mind inside
and your roots are
only as strong as your
love your spirit
and i know you'll feel it
from the tip of your
toes to the tip of your
nose the beauty
of your song your light
perhaps a kiss
tonight

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walking the ward
a crazy once said
to me venus has a
moon in the shape
of a teardrop
and i thought and
thought how the words
still touch me still
ramble on inside
i have to remind
myself its only
a metaphor its only
a metaphor because i
just soar in every
direction
the perfection of
grace through madness
now i know when i need
her then she needs me
as strong as hell can
be there is always
a greater good
just you wait
you'll see

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sunset
through the bare trees
the longest shadow
is me
evening
of a cloudless sky
the shine of those
stars there is
mine
midnight blue
is my love for you
deep and true
the dawn
has all along been
my song
you'll find me
on the tip of your
nose in your heart
of gold in the bowl
of your soul
there i'll be
grinning

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i'm at the end
of my road back
to the path at last
gathering my goods
i ask what shall be
the task what may
i bring to the table
why am i able to
walk the light and
know the darkness
to fight the fear
for all i hold dear
then i remember
the threshold of
winter is near
a frost is in the air
so i must prepare
a place for all the
snowflakes to make
kites of all the bits
of sunlight to name
every candle flame
i wish i wish i wish
i could do more
for the nights are long
and many and empty
without you i am alone
and unsure

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take a step up
to the right right
left
a wider verticle
a deeper drop
to get to the top
call me sir
iflopalot
your hippiness
becomes you
hows your vision
have you heard
i am the frozen
this time again
this year below
zero i step up
front and center
popsicle dreams
may your breath
be the wind may
your hands be the
trees may your
tongue melt
me

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to keep the mirror
clean of any
mentality
what becomes becomes
undone
zeros and ones
those who have bared
their souls know
the thunder calls
i am
totally scared and
totally prepared
the crush of time
the touch of mind
the us of shine
famous last words
leaving this world
of words
holy shit!
mirror of the sky
mirror of the soul
unfold
to wait and not
speculate
amen

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dot the i
i've been scared once
too often hurt
one too many
times
how often must
my heart be
reminded
of love
i'll be the first
to admit i'm
the village
idiot
you can hear my
soul cry you can
hear our hearts
laugh
yes you can
here i am
hold me closer
than most touch
me deeper than
sin heal me
again

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i don't mind
being brain broke
how truthfully said
i'm nuts
as a twit i'm lit
like a likable light
like a soul a feather
in flight like the songs
the dance of the
night
i got caught looking
now i see i found
your frown in the
lost and found in a
handfull of giggles
and riddles next
to the take and
break
i say lets have a
wake and bake
this time i'm sure
i don't know

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the leaves are falling
like tears of belief
my world is at my
feet deep within
winters reach
how many empty
days away i hunger
for a chill i want to
taste the ice and snow
tumble me rumble me
let my soul go
across the black october
night back down to this
hallowed ground my love
keeps me here without
a sound without time
or place my love keeps
me in the slumber of
winter awake to help
celebrate the fallen leaf
the fallen flake the snow
in the to and fro of
the soul

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i wonder
who are you
going to bless
next
sometimes you
giggle me with
bliss when i see
the karma of a
sacred twist
sip by sip by sip
you tremble me
tremendously with
thunder how you
fixed me with
joy
the rains pour your
love my cure
sip and sip and sip
everything i do
belongs to you as
i step into the day
after tomorrow
after i sing these
songs to lift you
from sorrow after
i fill your cups
with the best of
luck
sip after sip after
sip i'll do fine now
with just a little
at a time

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i've waited as long
as you have
i ache alone
the numbness a dull
sword weak empty
words a lost lonely
world
i step out of and into
you my blue my love
once my wound
so far a sacred scar
the pain the blame
the insane a life
long task i ask
to heal to touch
to hug with love
a blessing
she takes my time
gives me rhyme
and if i'm lucky
a glimpse into the
divine

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ten fingers two
hands my eyes i am
told in ways that
can't be told
big momma power
good god almighty
in every flower
i'd endure a life
time for just one
second of how i've
felt for years in
communion with
you my blue
i am your tree
bridge of earth
and sky
rooted to fly
always wondering
my third eye
yet i don't see
the future i mean
i'm taught to wait
and not speculate
all i ask for me
is to be a better
poet maybe a taller
tree and don'tcha
know it perhaps
you can see in the
end everybody
wants to know how
only god knows
why

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there were times
i shook my fist
at god
i guess he heard me
many times now
i've been in awe
answered with her
call
i will find my way
lit with love to find
a way to love
you
i will see the day
this way and feel
the night in the
delight of us
anew
i'll kiss you
with all my might
touch you deeply
dip you in moonlight
our awe
i saw we'll always
be welcomed
thankfull
for all

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my words
are your windows
you teach me kindness
little lessons of timeless
love
i touch with your
gentleness
no small task
mindfullness a whisper
to share the night
with a kindred sister
i opened my heart
and kissed her
when i'm not deep
within your hug
i miss her
you color the silence
with the sounds
of spirit
i pray may i be brave
these fears i feel
today
without you without
love without her i am
empty words


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when i love i feel
the strength
of a thousand brave
hearts beating as
one
when my ego lets go
of control the whole
wide world unfolds
in my soul
i raise the white flag
banner high
witness to the divine
call me crazy
if it weren't for my
delusions of grandeur
my life would really
suck
yet my heart blooms
a thousand petals
more
i find your feather
and i soar
and if i'm lucky
i'll fall in love
at least once
a day

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what do you do
when you say
i love you
what words do you
choose for the
language of love
or do the words
choose you
what you do with
love defines you
how you touch
will touch you
what you seek
through love
finds you
your love will become
you become a love
without personal wants
or gains
become a love pure
and true become
a love and do what
you do when you say
i love you

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listen
i'll stay behind
and sparkle in the sky
where the moon shares
her secrets out loud
with the clouds
where the wanderers
cross my path where
i cannot lead
or follow
i'll tend the fire
chop wood and carry
water in this place
in this space in this
grace through
this gate
the threshold of prose
this world of words
a speck of universe
a letter of buddha
verse perhaps
a poem
go i'll wait for you
here in candlelite
go i'll wait for you
here in lovelight
go i'll wait for you
here in starlite
i'll wait for you
to return
i'll wait for you
to call


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i grow stronger
all day knowing
you will touch
me tonight
i am at ease
and hard knowing
when i see you
we will kiss
i taste grace
and soar knowing
you open my
heart
i am deep in
dream knowing
you'll be asleep
in my arms

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like romance
my path is the
steepest when i
am the weakest
other times
i am deep in dream
carried like a sail
upon the sea
my god the ecstasy
this gift you have
given me given
to give to receive
like a romance
the higher i soar
the farther i have
to fall and again
i float like a feather
downwind down
stream down to
earth my church
of constant search
this bliss
rooted together
like lovers
forever

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sun throwers
catch me
in the blaze
of the moon
toss me
in my ash of
time
stir me
like the spark
in your heart
light me
like the flames
of desire
braid me
with the strength
of your love
touch me

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i'm alone
and i don't mind
i'm just looking for
what i've yet to
find
i've watched jerry
play and ever since
then i've been able
to grin everyday
what ain't sacred
ain't naked in the
of course of the of
courses in the
universes of voices
step into the mystic
if you can say
i don't know then
you're half way there
if i'd a stopped at
perfection i would
never of gotten this
far
if you can say
i care then you're
already there
i try to ease on down
the road but i feel
i should of turned
left awhile ago
and i don't mind dyin'
cause i'll keep on tryin'
to return to my love
to return to my earth
to return all my worth
i got my teeth fixed
i'm good for another sip
i'll take another hit and
i'm square enough to
be hip
my stain may have set
but i've cleaned up
my mess
i'm refillable kissable
and capable
never the less
i don't want to be lonely
swing me hug me remind
me when you're ready
and we'll spirit
together

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i say
open me up
to the moment
i love you
see through my
reflection
have a second
helping
catch me like
fire
come wander
with me in wonder
i know the ways
i touch you touches
me too
pure and true
lets have another
i love you a cup
full a mouthfull
a heartfull of
kisses this bliss
that connects me
to you
that opens the sky
as wide as your
mind that cracks
open time
peacefull and kind
i say open me up
inside and fly

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within my vision
you said
i'm going to marry you
i hope so
we've got alot of work
to do
will you remember
in the morning
the way you touched
me
the way you believed
me
the kiss the way
it seemed to be
perfect
the night you were
velvet i was
feather
all i wanted
and more you said
more
you were soul and
i was gold
chalice and phallus
today everything
reminds me of
how i felt
everything old and
new tells me not to
loose you
when i think of you
i wonder
will this poem
come true


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turn off the dark
skim the water for
a new face
you would not have
survived the storm
without the rain with
out the pain without
the flame
don't paint your rainbow
black
if you have a bellybutton
let the moon touch you
she is a thousand poems
deep a love song thousands
of years long
her guests are truely
blessed her children
never the less
my mind may have broke
my soul may have quaked
i may be chipped for life
yet i didn't feel the
strength of my love till
i was humbled by you
i was not there till i
wandered away and
found the sum of her
love is the freedom
to become


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do you want to be
left alone
are you angry
you were awakened
were you afraid
of the thunder
of course
you were lost and
found touched and
then unbound
taught to stay true
to your path taught
to stay close to the
fire taught that you
are only human
i feel my heartbeats
in my hands
sometimes
when i touch you
you give me things like
wings when you touch
me
over around and
through the craze
through the crave
through your lips
of bliss my love
poems me blooms
in me gives me
roots
simple and true
to grow the tree
in me roots to
grow the tree
in you

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my last name should be
dolittle larry dolittle
you cannot see the work
i do unless you're looking
for love
when you are crazy then
you'll know how hard
i work to stay sane
my chores are a balance
of medication dedication
simplification inspiration
determination every nation
by god sometimes nothing
is the hardest thing in the
world to do
my job is to write
to write to bridge earth
and sky with my being
with my love with my
beloved
in this world of words
what more can i do
after i poem you
when you want to touch
the face of god then you'll
know how difficult my
nights can be
when you feel healed
then you'll know how
real i feel
when you find peace
then you'll know my
greatest victory then
you'll know my search
then you'll know
my worth


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to build a shrine
in honor of saint
antagonize
her sour ways
makes perfect
lemonade
something has to
break the silence
the quiet of my
soul
nothing like a good
cringe to start shit
all over again
a frequent nag that
preoccupies the
compulsion of "don't
do that, my god!"
and that's exactly why
she's a saint the many
times she's made me
say "my god!"
i see her shrine shine
in my heart with both
a perseverance and an
annoyance to remind
us how faith and fate
creates how love
conquers hate
a shrine to help find
the divine within the
strife of our life

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me and the glee
i hear you smile
everytime i witness
a twinkle of majick
a nibble of love
an appearance of spirit
everyone is waiting
for the greatest
revelation
i see you in the
tinyest situations
quick as a wink
caught in a thought
on the brink
of guess not
you create what i
see you create me
you create we
what i would like to
see more of is love
to hold you in the
light to hold you
through the night
to hold you with
all my might
you and me
in the glee

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i untie
the knot of dread
in my head
more for less
lucky or blessed
there's a thread in
what you've said
how well do you weave
the pain the laughter
the rain the story of
your love the story
of your glory
my beloved said
make it so
and again the needle
and thread back inside
my head back into the
dread back to find
the courage the cheer
of no more fear

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close your eyes
for a kiss
and try to find me
in your heart
i'm the one
whose tongue is
searching for
you
i will share my touch
my love my courage
to heal the strength
to forgive share
these words and lets
ramble on inside
hand in hand in
kindness the path
to the woods of
the soul
a kiss here and we
are there

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you give my heart glee
my eyes gleam my thoughts
stream my love beams
i break fast i heal slow
and sometimes i forget
to say i just don't know
i have heard blessed
are those who give
and blessed are those
who take
my mistake i fear the loss
of all i hold dear and the
anger like a flame licks
me clean
everything is broken till
love is spoken love like
a flame licks me clean
the moon pulls me to her
side and smiles you were
taught to be the water that
burns and have survived
my inner most desire
time to braid the fire time
to stop being afraid time
to mend time to touch
you splash me laughing
this path of fear ends
right here right now
i bow to thee
taller tree

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you teach when i seek
to repair despair
touch my sacred scar
wise my eyes
as i find my way through
the maddening maddness
your gladdness my guide
my words a sigh
i am always at a loss
then i see you and i just
soar i'm not sure then
i feel you and i just
roar i seek to cure and
you make me pure
i choose the medicine
in you not the power
in me i choose the course
of love not the curse
of love i choose you
my flower
i surrendered my sword
because of the strength
you give my words
i can be a rock a tree
the freckle on your knee
a poem you can see
talk to me ask me task
me i want to turn my
words into your caress
i too want to be touched
as much as i love to
touch
none the less
we are all blessed all i
can say is i do my best
you taught me selflessness
to teach me spirit
you taught me peace
is within reach i am a lover
of the lessons of your love
you teach when i seek

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i sense a sense
fullfilling my senses
easy to see in the past
tense following my feet
with my heart my intent
speaks my love seeks
you heal my sorrow
my weep
if this is not real then
why am i at peace
in that world of rage
greed and deceit
you may call me weak
or meek when you see
me on the street yet i
know the strength of
my sense her love
has no defeat

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i lose and again
i fall all over you
do you have the info
on how high i should
go or how low
is the cost being lost
how did i find my way
those days under the
waves
how did you find my
lips with your sweetest
sip bliss
why do i see you every
where i look another
page of poems to fill
this book
do you loom with dread
or bloom instead
sometimes all i have
is questions in my
head

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there is a vibe
of knowing what's
true to you
does this light shine
down on you or rise up
from within you
is your touch the truth
the sweetest fruit
no one can tell the truth
with words one must see
feel or believe the gold
of what's been told
all i can do is manifest
the intensity the emergency
the urgency of the mystery
patiently
i am a member of her
embers the coals
of letting go
the rest of me has been
set free
i wait for you to build
this fire anew
the sacred flame that
lights our view

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may your cries be heard
she reached deep
within me
and set me free
with a bouquet of praise
i no longer need
insanity
i can love and love
endlessly
maybe not perfectly
without expectation
yet satisfaction
guaranteed i believe
beyond the love of being
in love i believe in
being love
yes i believe in you
my love
because i believe in
her love for you
perfectly

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i'm back
from the other side
of forever
i've gone beyond the
insanity gone beyond
the knowing gone beyond
beyond going beyond
yonder
to crack open time
i find you inside
lets touch lips on lips
then sip her cup of eternity
sip her cup of divinity sip
the radiant cup of your
love
lets touch tongues my
beloved till morning
comes
and let our kiss be a
monument to forever
together

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no small task
to see the clarity
at last its so simple
to keep the mirror free
of any mentality
this is where words
cannot lie this is where
we open our minds
this is where we step
through time to clean
the beams of our dreams
i detect i inspect i reflect
the light indeed
for in my deepest sense
in my bouts of doubts
i hear you say
you'll see
the mirror i see in you
is the mirror you see
in me a window
of the soul

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how soft the sight
of your touch
you nudge me
with these words
my paper path
i call me yours
coax me with a
hug show me with
a kiss we will be
one when i'm done
with this
how much love can
two hands hold how
many tongues can
speak as one
alone
the ten thousand
ways every day i'm
shown your love
unfolds this song
of longing and
belonging

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oh my god
the ducks call rang
like your cell phone
the snow a light saber
white like the mother
i see in me as i caught
a glimpse through
the eyes of the geese
through the flight
i seek and felt the
flap felt their yak yak
as they landed right
between my mind
i become one with the
dusk cold and gray
i say this ain't the last
of the light as i follow
my feet into the twilight
my path through
the trees and around
the bend of reality

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we bang the drum
in unison one
of many the sum
of all these vibes
from her tribes
if you cannot drum
sing if you cannot
sing dance
honor earth with
your worth
i have heard the soul
is a verb and her
tongue sung like a
drum in spirit in
beat with the spark
i seek within her
songs to open my
heart and hold the
world in my arms
with love like a
drum

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the geese were in flight
tonight i could hear them
up in the sky passing by
talking out loud but i could
not see not even the clouds
the way they fly the geese
are a guide and hearing
them honk while i stared
into the darkness of the
sky told me why
they do not preach yet
geese reach deep and
stir into my soul hope faith
and peace when we meet
if my head is full of dread
geese are my release and
when my heart is full of
strife geese light up my
life
seek the spirit walk in
peace and see if her wings
brings you geese

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lets make love
appear draw me
near to your heart
i ascend with your love
i soar
i lose the night lost
in thoughts of you
and you answer me
through the mystery
i seek
the next step of our
dance no more words
lets explore
our touch

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in the dead of winter
you are the grain of sand
that turns my inner world
into a pearl
you are my mother
my sister my wife
my strife my spirit
all rolled into one
our union
growing unfolding
showing what is meant
in the night in the light
of your enlightenment
guiding my heart with
what becomes of your
wisdom this bliss of
how you teach me this
god when i think of all
i've been through
i know this is my path
to you and then again
i see this is your path
to me
if i say thank you to
each and every snow
flake each and every
grain of sand then
you'll know the
gratitude i have for
you more than words
my love for you your
thank you in all
i do

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i think a kiss
is a perfect question
how high how low
how deep may i
go how free
i've felt the swells
of your seas
i don't mind the way
you tease
your eyes say
please
my answer becomes
a hunger for your
tongue
lets slip into the
groove i'm in the
mood to kiss
all over you

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i've been aboard
i've walked the wards
forged by fire i explore
desire my passion
is yours i want some
more
i don't need to use
my penis to make love
to a woman on my
path of ecstasy
i soar through you
i soar through me
at last i only want
to please
see true love lasts
clear through you
clear through me
the spirit the fire
this light is my
purity

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have you survived
your innermost desire
have you felt the thunder
quake in your soul
has your lava flowed
and turned to gold
a quench a sweet sorrow
do you have a lifelong
grief a trouble that
perhaps only you can
speak
are you afraid of my
darkness
do you have a quest
was the last time you
were touched the last
time you touched
do you have the courage
to heal yourself
do you have the strength
to ask for help
can you forgive
do you believe in the moon
whose bright idea this was
do you hear the spirit
cheer?

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please open the heart
of me with your kiss
key
hear my songs bond
the love band hand
in hand
this ring sings ringing
across the skies inside
me
in verse with the universe
first a falling then
calling
your name a touch word
heard in trust of spirit
love and lust

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raven
she is saving the best
for last some say
some seeds bloom best
late
i've hated life so much
i knew i am going to
live a long long time
and its about time
to fate me faith
me path me
further
through these winter
solstice nights
years ago i was told
and now i know
i seek
the companion of my soul
she is my love shadow
burning bright to light
her deep sacred
nights

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its like its the ruins
of a lost art the shards
of a broken heart
a remarkable remark
like coax me coax me
closer feel this bliss
i'm going to super
glue my love to you
bonding me in a instant
to eternity with a touch
of insanity i hear my
voice echo echo what
more can i do what
more can i do i will
always love i will always
love i will always love
you just you wait and
see just you wait and
see coax me coax me
please let me hear the
echo echo through your
heart your part of this
mystery

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may i place this prayer
on your lips
take these words
to heart
with your kindness
lead us with our wants
guide us with your touch
heal us with your wisdom
bless us
you are my choice my voice
my beloved
give these words breath
with your kindness
lead us with our wants
guide us with your touch
heal us with your wisdom
bless us
i hear your call
to embrace us all

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may i press this page
to your lips
i love what i love
about love
and i'm really glad
there's no law against
finding myself
in awe
rave on rave on
rave on raven
as i wander in wonder
down the path to the
woods of my soul to
ponder the pond i go
deep i focus and seek
any little peep
a treasure
you give me this
gift i give you
my word
like it was written
upon my soul

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i live inside
the hope inside
the heart inside
the light inside
the soul
i'm knocking on
your door to open
my life to the
world
i will live without
greed without rage
without deciet
for i know with
our love there is
no defeat
for i know what
i take will be taken
from me
i want to give and
give and give to
receive for i've felt
your ecstasy as you
empty me of the
words i speak
with spirit

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calling