ART OF THE HEART -------- ©2010 Lawrence A. McFadden all rights reserved

i bring to you
my deepest blue
to share this light
within
i see you see
the darkness too
i see you see
the sickness too
i see you see
the proper point
of view
the crazies all know
who all the crazies
are
pure and true
i try to math the
path inside
and i can't help but
to believe some
day i'll see
a healing light
shining down
on me

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to start
i have the strength
of many
broken hearts
through my darkest
hours love has been
my greatest power
love the eternal
flower
when i journey past
the past only love
lasts
you're touched
i know i understand
i hold the proof
of love right here
in my hands

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ft wayne
i live in the heart
of the heart of the
heartland
love the lala love
the coo love the yum
yum love you my blue
love the joy love the
shadow love the dew
i love you moon
me too
love the grace of this
space this sacred place
you give my tongue
a taste you touch me
like a feather i see in
your eyes forever
i live alone
she is not by my side
she is in my heart
in my art in the heart
of the artland

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fly your colors
crack open the concrete
sky inside
allow the light in
allow the light out
shine with no doubt
sparkle and shout
be my lover
i pout
with you i am without
the voice of solitude
you give me the
power of two
your grace my
gratitude
i seek three my muse
my lover and me
all one word
spirit all one light
love all one dream
beams

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i feel you
in this forest
watching these woods
of my soul
here you heal me
with your oneness
your light the blaze
of the moon a poem
a sacred night
you started in my
heart a spark a flame
a ember a ache
the flutter of doves
our love this flower
a wisdom give or
take a wisdom create
or break a wisdom
closer or more space
a wisdom our naked
embrace
here in these woods
the spirit soars your
wisdom cures your
love pure

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my time of year
when you can't take
a step without stepping
on a leaf
when i soar to new
heights with the sights
of the flight of a flock
of geese
when the wind begins
to rush within and
whispers hello again
i'm winter
i bring you my gifts
of the fluffiest of snows
the longest of shadows
the constant night
if you sleep just
right
like all loves
there is a dread
of solitude in my head
i reach for you like i
reach for a warm summer's
day on a hard winter's
night
i reach for you my ray
of ways my light through
the blackest ice of a
frozen plight
help me slumber perhaps
make me fat your love
my guide my map

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this morning
i'm not an eagle
yet the world
is at my door
step
i'm not a lion
yet i've conquered
the fears i've
met
i've been kept
in darkness yet
i journey the light
every night
i found your drum
here here in my
heart
a dance flickering
in flight
i found your glow
here here in my
soul
a dance of no words
no shadows
i've been told a dance
here here upon the
morning light
is wiser than the
night
i wonder why slumber
guides us through
blunders
perhaps to dream
right before the light
lights up what's
right

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my bare knees my
bare trees my bare
needs a sense
of dread a sense of
sunset
are you ready soul
to bare the snows
there is the first
snowflake here
is the last laugh
the fall of leaf
the lift of feather
the hurry the scurry
the dew
black october sky
wings open far and
wide i cry let fly
my soul
whisper lets go lets
go lets go
i know every frost
every sorrow i kiss
the lips of tomorrow
i lick the stillness
of today away like
a wound the gloom
of yet another cold
and gray day

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a million steps
up a million miles
deep i fall into your
keep asleep
my heart beams
the beams stream
the streams are my
dreams my god
the night
is always just
a day away
perhaps you are
my daydream
too perhaps one
day a kiss perhaps
with you a night
of bliss
are you going to
stay or are you
going to stay
away
come with me in
flight come with
your wisdom come
tonight
fall into my keep
a million times
strong a million
lives long
heaven could not
be as sweet

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i followed the frown
and finally found
its time
i've come down
to choose the one
word for all my
prose and poetry
what to call my life's
work
one word the seed
the why of what
it was meant
to be
this is my word
my beloved dear
reader

enjoy

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she broke all my hearts
broken opened the pure
and the true
god knows how i've cried
the strength inside
to try and try
and try
with a thud i used to
fall in love
now when i care
i can soar anywhere
i make light of a broken
night
the pain and rage
that might twist me
insane turns me into
a sage to keep open
my heart to stay pure
and true
my virture on this path
of love with you

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your an itch i can't
reach you remind me
of all i don't know
i'm always at a loss
then again into
maddness i am
tossed
a bouquet of praise
you are my song shine
my touch when i am
blind the lessons
of being kind
can you tell when
the spell is divine
time after time
our table awaits
your grace

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i look into your soul
and applaud
i hear your heart
and love every
beat
i touch you and
remember when
you tremble
you send me your
scent and i can't
wait for another
taste
i feel the strength
of being the wisdom
of knowing the light
the flight of spirit
is love

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circle of the moon
what are you saving
your love for
you are where
i've always been
we've got the rest
of our lives the quest
of our lives the best
of our lives to love
each other
black october sky
when do you begin
i've never stopped
are you my tomorrow
or just another empty
yesterday
share my fire hold
my hope make my
life plural
you are a breath
of fresh air to care
please be the tree
next to me

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i think of your kiss
and my lips
pulse
i want your touch
so much my hands
throb
i hate the way
you make me
lonely
i want you here
in the bowl of
my soul
have you ever
been there
before
i know i will
always rhyme you
still

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i see you
in the eyes
i have
in the bed
of my head
your tongue
i want touching
kiss every word
of this from my
lips
i will do all
you wish
i wait for you
to fall
in love with me
then you'll see
the majic the bed
of your head
can be

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i feel
the sorrow
of your soul
because
i have touched
mine
may you have
the most glorious
cry of all
time
and may your
tears melt
with the divine
and shine
with mine

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you can tell
from my walk
of life
i needed one the size
of the sun as hard
as the rain
made strong with ache
each and every piece
now peacefull
i let go of everything
that is not love
and my heart becomes
a chalice becomes
a palace becomes
as light as a feather
you tether my tongue
to the sacred
a few simple words
and i'm done
it has to be true
this walk i walk
with you the way i
feel for you this bliss
when i kneel to you
my mother
i am a man
in the moon

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i search
for the shape
of your shadow
here in the darkness
of my heart
i know you're in
here somewhere
your giggle gives
you away
other times i'm too
afraid to play
yes i too have smoked
from the bowl of
crushed souls the
deepest sorrow insane
and alone long ago
these days we can go
to lala land the way
i touch with my hands
lets bring this kindness
in the bowl of my
soul a love in our hearts
and peace to start

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show me
a picture of yourself
give me a thousand
words make it
perfect
this is what i can
do with the thought
of you
my mirror my only
shield my love
healed
when i feel i see
when i see i feel
intuitively
touched
i rise with the wind
the breath of your
love i reach the sky
the love in your
eyes
on the edge of a cloud
i pledge out loud
a promise a vow
to keep
the peace i seek
the visions of your
wisdom
the words for your
truth the root
of my love up above
i hear the moon
cheer
show your
worth to the earth
i'm going to go roam
now don't wait
up

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love
teaches
me
to fly
into the
eternal
flame
and soar

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i guess going through life
without a woman is like
going through china with
only one chopstick
some say to think this way
i must have a hole in my
head
good i guess then i can
call it holy
at first a want and desire
a knowing a fire a love
as sister as brother as lover
for each other
opening my heart i heard
a calling to open my heart
to the world a longing
perhaps to be heard
calling you
i laugh oh my god this path
leads to love
through my deaths in hell
through the depths through
the breath of up above
i guess i'll be on my way
this time i'll bring a spoon
for starlit dinners on the
moon and together we'll
return to the other side
of forever

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the best advice
i was given
about the strife
in my life
is this too shall
pass
i needed to be told
ooops! another
episode
i hated life so
much i know
i'm going to live
a long long
time
i'm just an old fat
lazy hippie and i
still believe in the
power of the
flowers
i found my mind
it was hiding
behind the sofa
the whole time
you keep calling
and i'll keep
falling in love
at least once
a day
i try my best to
turn these words
into your caress
there is a tug
from above in
your hug
yes you are
blessed you just
don't know it
yet

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in praise
you've played with
the tip of my nose
for days
i wish i had a nickle
for every tickle
your money is well
spent your karma
is well sent your love
is well meant
i am well well
i did not know this
then i may not know
why now i must wait
and not speculate
you are my clock
my beloved i am
your hands time
and time again
you teach me how
to stay in the wow of
the eternal now
the big blue buddha
in my head laughs
it takes a village to
raise an idiot
i've been told in
praise i did the hard
part
done healed the
reckless spark done
healed the darkness
of my heart done
healed others when
your love takes part
i hear you i see you
i feel you the greatest
blessing i love you

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i want to hear
the ancient ones
through your drum
the sound pound
for pound the wisdom
please come and beat
your drum in unison
i will see you in the
trance of our dance
i will hear your voice
in song with mine
be with me you are
the monument the
memory the moment
our brave hearts
beat as one with
the grace of no
more ache

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i've been shown
rainbows i've been
told quietly i am
the imperfection
to teach me picture
perfect peace
i stand corrected
yes voices and visions
and what ever mess
is left after thirty odd
years of insanity now
the deepest serenity
if this is not real then
why do i feel healed
i send you a billion
thank you's for the
mend seems like a
billion tears ago
seems like a billion
miles i know and
another billion or
so years to go

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you touch alot
of hearts
and have soared
with mine
in your timeless
kindness shines
a healing light
a might some call
majically those
closer to the truth
call wisdom those
who have healed
call love
i listen to your
touch and can
see with mine
in dialog with the
day the narrative
of the night
what more can i
do after i poem
you
i give thanks
and gratitude
like the trees i reach
the sky to be one
with spirit as time
flys by

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this is where
i once eternally
cried
these were god's
tears
if you have not
loved for an eternity
then you have not
loved
this is divine bliss
this is the soul's
sacred wish
to love forever
this is god's
gift the eternal
kiss

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who dares to ponder
the pond
who demands the
thunder
who has trembled with
joy and not trembled
in fear
back in time the
times when i cracked
open the tears just
flowed from my soul
the sorrow
now when i crack
open prose the flow
of sorrow turns
to gold
i would not wish
my maddness on my
worst enemy
i can preach though
it ain't no sin
all you see in me
you see in yourself
we become what we
love we become what
we hate
all men are holy
all women are sacred
to wait and not
speculate
just to name a few
i know i'm in the
right church but i
must be in the wrong
pew
i hear say i should
celebrate the bliss
of my ignorance
easier said then done
it ain't no fun to
be dumb
school me my friend
i ponder
why the song the kiss
the dance the dream
must end

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to every thought
i hear i say
let love guide your ways
seems like everyday
i hear the dove coo
the who in my heart
the you in my heart
who talks through
hawks
the you in my heart
living in peace with
the geese
the you in my heart
who wants to wander
in wonder hand in
hand beyond
yonder

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so real so close
with candle like might
a guiding light clarity
so close you can
almost touch it
taste it feel it
coming like a train
the rain the wisdom
come
so close to the shore
so close once more
now too close
to tell

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alone with us
be a we
a weness
i can tell from your
silent groan you're
on your own far far
from home unknown
and alone
yet if you're following
your bliss just
remember i got my
wish to write like
this
i keep talking my
thoughts into the
thought and talk
of you my blue
with you always
with me i am
a we

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you already are
all you need to keep
is true
i work i slave i pray
for the proper point
of view
in my heart's deepest
longing where i can
no longer be sure
i remember the words
rest assured
on those darkest paths
through pathos full of
dread and constant
struggle i hear it
like a whisper
trust the spirit

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i can tell
you are touched
the way you clutch
the moon the way
you spoke too soon
i followed the foot
prints and found her
kiss on your soul
and there's her finger
print on the tip of
your nose
i can see clear through
you you can see clear
through me
our eyes may only
meet for a moment
yet i just know you
can happily grow old
alone for you are hers
if love be told

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you've touched me
deeply sweetly you've
touched my soul
rocked and rolled
quaked
i had to swallow
the whole wide world
whole i had to heal
a gutfull of broken
glass i've had many
monsters desire to
destroy my path
with wrath
i've tasted the snow
braided the flame
i work all day to stay
sane and now and then
all the sorrow turns
to gold and at last
i get a blast of bliss
from these tasks
these gifts this metaphor
is not mine they are
yours this is me
touching you do you
want some more
i do

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she is here
to open my heart
my healing hands
knock my innermost
desire knocks my
sweetest surrender
knocks
i believe in everyone
of you who dream
and awaken each
inspiration every
manifestation
given not taken
spirit rain sacred
flame wise skies
are you infinite
yet
we all are
she opens the heart
to the world

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are you within
reach
are you far
from my heart
beat
are your finger
tips a treat
are your lips
deep truthfull
and tongue
sweet
this is what i
seek as i follow
my feet
let me take
a peek

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i bow to thee
taller tree
i bow to thee
dandylion weed
i don't think
you know
how beautiful
you make my
world
i feel the hymn
of the hum i bang
the drum with all
my heart all my
wits all my tongue
with you i am in
unison
i don't think
you know
how lucky i am
when you rub
my belly
tell me your wish
charm me with
a kiss
hear my hum
with you i am
again in unison

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i see mountains
in you
the many times
you've been hit
with fear i hear
the raging sea
or is that
in me
have you ever
slipped through
the white and
blue of the sky
inside
beyond the clouds
beyond now
or heard a voice
a verse of universe
in the tears of the
night the wound
of darkness
that lets in
the light

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where the words
fall away
where a kiss
stops you
from going astray
where the night
caresses you
all day long
i work for this
place this space
of grace
this love this dove
this light above
my chore to touch
with words those
i adore to find
a path through the
pathos once more
to be a feather
on the wings of
forever
a leaf on the tree
of peace poetry
on the breath
of the mystery

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don't forget my hug
don't lose my love
stretch me as far
as you can see
the mirror in me
touch me as deep
as you can feel
the healer in me
start right
hold me in the
light open me
in your heart
coax me my love
i am your love
forever tonight

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you light the candle
in me i'll light
the candle
in you
our flame
you spread your
wing i'll spread
my wing
we'll soar
you open my heart
i'll open you
kindred
take my hand
in hand let's go
word for word
soul to soul
your lips tell
me we have kissed
in lives of long
ago
naked now
skin on skin
i remember
your grin

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absolutely
you are a sight
to see please wise
my eyes my heart
speak to all
of me
i don't know
but i've been told
i went so far in i
came out the other
side of forever
so far in i have
been given
vision
so far in i wouldn't
do it again without
you
to become again
without
end

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looks like i've lost
my luster a little
road grime in my
mind a sputter in
time kinda low on
stash the ash a ache
perhaps a mistake
to give what the night
takes lick the wound
put me under your
wing show me my
blunder return me to
wonder return me
please to my glee

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chilled
i have chai'd and chai'd
and chai'd and i will
chai again
i taste you thick
and thin i can tell
where you've
been
the coffee gods are
angry no good cup
of coffee ever goes
unpunished
such is the fate
of all things great
and i hear please
please god is in the
teas you tease
don't deny the chai
don't deny the chai
this wiff of a caffiene
day dream all stirred
up naked here in my
coffee cup not a sip
but a gulp

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you know i would
no questions asked
you are well
worth it i'm well
used to it we are
well welcomed
in a heart beat
where our souls
meet in the sky
in the woods in
the temple within
how do i begin
to tell you how
do i end as a
lover as a brother
as a friend
little do i know
what i have done
as these words
spun from my
beloved's tongue
circle and twirl
around the sun

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i have the love
of a poem and
the guidence of
your laughter
can you still see
the why in my
eyes
let me feel where
your tongue has
touched
what possibility
do you sense in
me
i have a gift for
you a kiss for
you i am true
to you

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my thoughts don't stop
at the end of a sentence
at the end of a poem at
the end of my day i begin
the night with a thousand
ears each hears a little
differently and with a
hundred eyes each spies
a little differently
i never wanted to touch
the sun i always wanted
to kiss the moon
of you
you wake me during the day
you awaken me during the
night the daily roar the
nightly hush where the words
end streaming around the
bend of reality these thoughts
do not end in silence these
thoughts do not end in
darkness these thoughts stop
where the light within
begins

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remind me
to hum
to reach a higher
vibe to hum
to dissolve all
into one to hum
some when the veil
comes undone
hold me and hum
hum when we touch
tongues
hum with a mouthfull
hum with your
heartfull hum
till you're done
there's a hymm to the
hum a wisdom being
sung through the hum
like a drum
hum i say hum
feel the fun from
a hum

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you touch
the need in me
with the want
of you
i keep seeing your
face above me
in ecstasy
maybe i'll overcome
my shyness with
lusty kindness
perhaps i'll overcome
any affliction with
affection
to wait and not
speculate
please is still a
majic word love
is still a soaring
bird your want of
me still rules my
world
i see my thoughts
are blessed with you
and i love the
view

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this thought of you
gives my heart wings
this thought of you
is so soft i go aloft
one hand flapping
and one hand
laughing
may these words sing
may these wings bring
me closer to the wish
upon your lips closer
to nakedness closer
to bliss
love is empty without
a touch of maddness
without a touch of
lust empty without
a blush
if you love what my
words can do if you
love what my hands
can do you'll love
what my tongue can
do one more way
to say i love
you

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thank you
for this leaf
of blue thank
you for this day
thank you for the
hawk that flew
over me over the
pond over the river
over the woods of
my soul
have you felt a
heartfelt welcome
already in your
heart for your part
of this mystery
i am here which is
of course there
maybe i'm a little
too sane to pen my
name maybe i'm a
little too clever
to find forever in
a leaf and feather
maybe i'm a little
too weak for talon
or beak
talk to my soul
whisper in my heart
know why i give
thanks know why
my words are true
its because i love
you

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i hear you're listening
my tears are glistening
with words i will hug
your heart tug at your
smarts and kiss you
with all my art
we never grow old
on the path of the
soul towards my love
i grow rock and roll
to you i flow
let me give you my
best with every
caress none the less
with my hands and
art i welcome you
to the lala land
of my heart

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thank god
for hippy love
hippy hugs
she is a true sister
and i miss her
she is a true sister
i give her my all
she is a true sister
let everyone know
she is a true sister
i should know
i miss her
she is a true sister
and i know within
i'll always touch
you always love you
always hug you
on down the road
again

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i close my eyes
to touch your memory
perhaps your scent
will lead me there
perhaps your eyes
will see me there
perhaps your words
will find me there
i want your touch
and i open my heart
perhaps you voice
will call me there
perhaps your joy
will know i'm there
perhaps your heart
will want me there
perhaps perhaps
this kindred love
will always be
fresh and free
perhaps more than
a memory perhaps
deeper than a mystery
perhaps you'll come
to dance perhaps in
my dreams perhaps
with me

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her love reaches down
her hands reach up
she turns me upside
down into you
to slip between your
can'ts and won'ts
between your do's and
don'ts between your
heartbeats to hear your
love speak to one and
all the whole wide world
listens for your call
i'm told she wants you
to know the songs of
your soul every ear hears
every song sung listen
to your silence roar
let your spirit
soar

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i rejoice in you
i rejoice in you
i rejoice in you
too as i walk through
the gloom of the day
zoom zoom zoom
those words are my
broom i'll sweep up
these fears and scrub
down this doom
when the darkness
comes to you shine
bright with your
greatest power love
shine bright with
your greatest strength
forgiveness
rise up sister rise up
rise up brother rise up
go beyond wrong and
right go beyond want
go beyond control go
to where sorrow turns
to gold go to the bowl
of your soul where you
too can rejoice

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i do not live in a world
of physical strength
you might not see
my might might not
know my darkest nights
might not know how
hard i've fought
within
battles you cannot win
battles you know you'll
battle again
to stop this tug of war
i let go of the rope
check and see i have
no more enemies
as a warrior i recall
love conquers all
the destroyers are
always destroyed
in the end you can
heal again like i've
been to forgive and
likewise be forgiven
and blessed when peace
is your quest

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please
encourage me
in a healing light
reach in and turn
the key open the door
to your destiny
cross the threshold
and seek the visions
of your soul watch as
the spirit unfolds
the way you healed
your heart is the way
to heal the world
i root like a tree like
a poet i will root
for you my love
please root for me
i piece together these
words to peace together
our world

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a dove calls
the who of my heart
who do i coo in my
thoughts i choose you
you are my who
coo
who will you choose
to coo am i a who
to you too
half the world
is behind you
for every two who
won't there are
three who will
who do i want
to coo i want to
coo you and you
and you and
you
i can tell there's
not much more
to tell
you will say so
long when the
curiousity is gone
i feel the flutter
of my heart and
know i am still in
love still in awe
love is still the most
wonderous wonder
of all

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i am rising waters
she is my daughter
no borders can contain
this inner murmur
keep me honest keep
me true keep me open
keep me
free
to rise with her
she will teach me
joy teach me heaven
teach me your
gentleness teach me
the moon
take from me this
empty afternoon
with a smile fill
this heart with
giggles take from me
this silence of my
life slip your hand
in mine and slip
through time
rise with the waters
of the divine

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lets find the love
between us
i lay next to you
and i'm a million
miles away
till you touch
my lips
then my whole
body grins
must i speak
into your eyes
close them
and be kissed
may i seek
with my tongue
the fire of your
sun
come with me
under the shade
of the moon
come with me
in the glow
come with me
and lets go
slip off those
clothes
to where our
touch is the love
between us


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lame brain
i baked a couple
of snowflake
cupcakes
where do i love
you
there you'll find
me under my
hat
whats the matter
the mystery is not
through with me
just my luck
you keep me in
flux
you have made
my nights a life
long song
you fill my days
with light laughter
and praise
i have achieved
sanity

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hopefully