EVERY STEP EVERY BREATH -------- ©2009 Lawrence A. McFadden all rights reserved

thirty more years
give me thirty more
years and don't tamper
with time this time
if i can create a sense
of wonder then i've
done my job
like how does a word
make a sound like
why does a word feel
right like where do all
the words go
in one ear and out
the other
taking the shape
of a conversation
or just rambling on
inside
i follow the words and
sometimes i leave the
words behind to walk
the walk i talk
for you to see within
me every once in
awhile for the next
thirty years

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i know the glow
there's no need
to impose your
halo this is the song
of the effortless calm
thank you mom
for this pause
this awe
i ask what more
can i do after i poem
you is this the calm
before the storm or
before the dawn
i'm so used to being
wrong wronged and
afraid for so long
and now calm
for assurance you say
rest assured and now
you right my wrongs
with an effortless
calm

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you hold me
in your gnarled
palm i become your
roots your branches
the sky
if this is not real
then why do i feel
so alive
i have wept in sorrow
darkest of nights
i weep now with joy
brightest of light
i feel now once more
the hum has again
begun
like seeing a rainbow
like falling in love
like the song of the
dove like the sound
of a drum that reaches
and knows the depths
the glow of your
soul

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i'll read this poem
to you this is my path
my task this spoke
of the wheel i turn
with you
i know you don't
see me unless you're
looking for love
i know i miss you
i know i need your touch
if i am a shadow
then you are the light
right here in my heart
with all my might
my roar my chore
listen let my words
work through this hub
of our love turning
churning yearning
always returning
this blessing
i love you

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lets see
the degree of insanity
emptying me
of the lower frequencies
rise high my vibe
time to fly the skies
inside
i was not saved from
this path of pathos
you gave me two hands
to hold two feet to go
and a hundred eyes
to show me why
you stir me you cure
me you pure me
with every step every
breath i journey with
all my being to love
you hug you kiss you
maybe i'm crazy call
me a fool but i'd be
crazy not to

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i want to be love
i want to be larry
of clarity i want to be
the sound of our laughter
the light through the
window a cup of hope
i want to be a tree
with all your leaves
perhaps in your dream
tonite
i want to open the door
to my world choose
if you need to go
in or out
choose the way
to my heart
choose what you are
to me i want to be
intimacy
i want to do what takes
two kiss me
before you choose
not to

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the smaller the seed
the greater the earth
i feel these fields
the pull of the plow
dirt and birth
what the weather
allows
corn row gold
i'm going to see
once again an old
friend and share
our worth
lets leave this world
of words and stream
into our dreams
soar with a roar and
drink from her cup
our luck
as we sing hail to the
leaf let the spirit
speak speech speech
speech

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all i ever was
is a poet
of my beloved
you give my passion
breath my words
strength and i know
we will love together
forever
may i borrow a cup
of kisses perhaps
your name perhaps
your wings
hear my heart sing
in you wink to you
i am touched by you
through your eyes
i seek and i find
the pull of the words
the feel of your feel
healing the hurt
love at work
this is my worth
my search the need
of we

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if you would of allowed
our kiss i would not be
alone writing this
there is no insanity
on my lips i needed to
touch tongues to share
my gift i need you now
i wish there was a kiss
to remember
i do not want you weak
and vunerable i want
to wait till you are strong
and willing for i am strong
and willing and alone
in love with this thought
of you
lets finish loving
lets kiss

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i love you in silence
in love i listen
for the beat of a heart
ache for the beat of a
wounded wing for the
beat of your spirit drum
your wisdom
i listen to the voice
of your words to hear
what is broken in the
unspoken
i taste your tears
whisper in my ear
your wish what may i
fix lets find the reason
i heard your call the why
i love you

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like the moon
when i think of you
i sense
this time a loss empty
thoughts
you smiled and say
this is the start of
unwoven cloth
find the threads
in the dark with
all your heart
and sew in the
glow of you'll know
weave to be with
spirit peacefully
knit the gifts
of a new dream
you can do it
and wear these
seams like light
with all
your might

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as said
the smaller the sparrow
the bigger the sky
i've felt the flutter
of your wings inside
i've caught your fallen
feather the one singing
in my heart
what makes you real
is the way i feel
healed
some say the brighter
the light the darker
the mystery of life
she will give you the
night the midnight
blue too and soon
the moon
she is every vibration
you choose
soar with her
lets find her feathers
together share with
me the night this is
my delight

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secretly you rule
very cool bless you
i love you
can't you see
my assurance
the urge to continue
through the black
and blue
alone
be in doubt
always be in wonder
i went insane
finally thankfully
obviously
because of you
i can do it
gently
i want to kiss
every leaf and feather
i'm no different
than you
you can do it
kindly

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i caught her again
singing in my heart
she belongs in song
her spark is where
eternity starts
her verse comes
from the hum of
the universe
her church honors
earth her love
the worth of my
constant search
so if you see her
light in my eyes
ask me why
she is the true
expression of
your self
blessed be
please continue
to use me my muse
for your lyrical
miracles

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some folks are jokes
yet even a dolt can be
a lightning bolt
to fool is your tool
in a world of sacred
clowns and holy whores
you tore me up
for laughter
you call my name
from the other side
of forever after
you wore me out
in the rain
i had a mouthful
of shit and didn't
complain
i did not ask to
work through you
this path this task
the journey through
the black and blue
then you say i'll show
you when i soared and
roared i think back
oh my god i did that
i just laugh and
laugh

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you teach me
time and time anew
not to want from you
i have not broken
my promise
tear drop
today i may fail
all day to stay sane
tonight without
you
i have learned to love
again and again i can
learn to mend again
this maddness
to end the sorrow
i feel wanting
you

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i go
where we cannot
lead or follow
which way is up
says she filling
my cup i nod
more than enough
i always find myself
thinking of you
a view a focus
through the hocus
pocus
you give me a sigh
of phallus and chalice
like a light
to guide and flex
my text through
the hex of sex
past the blame and
shame to where
love begins from
the bottom of your
heart in the dark
which way is up
i drink from your
cup

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my hats talk to people
i keep launching these
thoughts off the top
of my head
peace love laughter
and light is what
i've said
and if you have not
heard then listen to
these words
learn to speak with all
your heart
this is where the journey
starts this is spirit this
is art
and you'll know your soul
when your ego lets go
of control
and one more tip of my
hat is that true love
is like the rains with
no personal wants
or gains
now that's the yak yak
of my hat as my feet seek
to walk the talk perhaps
someday i'll hear the news
from your shoes

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the cloud people
are talking to me
who creates all i see
frees me with feathers
to fly the skies inside
on the wings of my
forever
she gives me a hundred
eyes and i return
a thousand times
your kindness
in a single why
i love you
i've been upside down
and backwards i've been
sideways and fractured
i've been miss taken
and miss guided i've
been afraid and i've
been brave i've been
wise and i've been
crazed
i could tell you this
with one touch
you would know this
with one kiss
now if you wish
look for me through
your skies ask around
i am called crazy cloud
and i will share with
you a helping handfull
of feathers and eyes
just try

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yummy me
like a handfull
of snow peas
stir up my life
season my soul
hot and cold
cook me in kindness
taste me in your
spice
tie me to your
string
put me
in your pot
cup and bowl
and yummy me
i will follow the recipe
of your heart
to nurture your
nature too
your menu
just serve me up
this banquet of our
many wishes
and i will do all
the dishes

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if i could not find
a feather i would not
fly away
if i would not leave
you a leaf i should not
have any
in my give away
the art of my heart
have you not ever
sought the pure
have you not ever
thought the truth
have you not ever
been caught
i am nothing but
honest
you may dismiss
what i say but why
is what i said in my
head
if not to tell you
teach you bless you
with her words her
love this earth this
worth this peace
here in our hearts
where the spirit soars
in all of us

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where is your temple
where are the words
to keep the dream
alive
hear the song
of my hum
fix my fault
i don't care what
you do or say
i'm going to love
you anyway
face your life
don't paint your
rainbow black
realize
you're miss guided
hear her
sigh

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our father may be in
heaven
my mother is in
my heart
she reminds me
of mercy
you'll see
says she
life
is not a tragedy
when we know
in our hearts
forgiveness
is the greatest
strength
of all

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listen
i want to paint you
the color of your eyes
i've seen
what you could do
to me
the power of love
to mend bend
and awaken
taught to give i've kept
the mirror clean
and i am what remains
of fifty two years
i can't complain
if you are crazy
then you know why
i am insane
i hear in your voice
in your words my love
my love may i touch
your wet paint
will you wonder
what becomes
of my tongue

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i cannot hide our love
when i look for love
i always find you
i wear your awareness
i share your eyes
your touch is mine
everytime i love
your love i lose
my mind and ramble
on inside a path past
the ego a path past
the insanity a path
past the past
to the hum where all
dissolves into one
where your wisdom
comes from the light
of the spirit
drum

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i walked down to the pond
to gather feathers
and found one
so the next time i went
to the pond to find
a feather
i found many
i question my connection
my inspiration and a leaf
falls at my feet
then i heard a dove call
and woo the who
in my heart
i give to you my words
my love in return
you occupy me with wonder
sometimes thunder
like the water that burns
would you want to leave
heaven or stay sane in
hell
to mend with the spirit
to tend the sacred flame
to send light into the night
this tree that lives within
me shares with you
a leaf of peace
this pond of poetry i seek
has feathers of belief
like the geese and moon
you guide and give me sight
through my maddness
the darkness and into
the light

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these days i'm starting to find
nose hair fascinating and today
i have a friend stirring up in my
coffee cup
last i looked there was a tornado
that swirled into a naked lady
i'm glad i don't drink
my coffee black
i'll call her my twister sister
is she reflecting the past a wow
of now or some future design
this time your guess is as good
as mine either that or my ex-
girlfriend is back in town
typical blessed curse
not everything i do is brilliant
don't think my altar is a
chessboard of buddhas
dumb dumb dumb i'm only
human
i'm just trying to follow
my heart and feet
and i like my coffee sweet
i hope you come around
again i don't want to lose
a friend

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i sip from the rim of your cup
and remember what a good friend
hafiz had said
i hope everytime god thinks
of you you could smile
you would have such a
wonderous day
may ten thousand dandylions
sprout in my backyard
in honor of you
i've learned to let go and let
the spirit carry the load
this world ain't about me
my love is all
about you
i hold you in the light
in the comfort of the night
where earth and sky
provides
why dusk always wakes
me up for another
cup

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i'll brave the thunder
the crack of wonder
the birth of you
my queen of hearts
in the dark
your touch is my light
to feel our might
as the lightning
strikes our cry in
the moment we all
have sight is
this storm too shall
pass
i will write you like
every word is the
past every finish
a start at last
my queen of hearts
its not the horror
the horror its the
simplicity the truth
of our pain that we
learn to run
from and live our
lives returning
in the storms
of our sorrows
to your love
your light

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pardon the delay
i'm under construction
to return to the process
of essence
a hum
the thing i love most
about you is you
always want to
improve
somehow i knew
through the midnight
blue i could come back
from smoke and ash
your perfection of faith
and fate my mistake
and there you are again
up in the sky
perfectly timed
thank you too for the
rescue
to return to
this poetry this love
this light my piece
of the puzzle
of life

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you caught my eye
so i focus i find
she now occupies
my mind each time
i seek to combine
with you all the things
i do to make my life
plural
i fall in love at least
once a day and i've
begun a love hum
a spirit drum a soul
full tongue thinking
of you
i'm lucky because
beautifull wonders
happen to crazies
through love
and if you need to be
schooled in i love you
then look clear through
me look clear through
what appears to be
reality look clear through
you to the mirror of
your truthfull soul
for there is the peace
you seek
and like rising waters
this moonchild of a man
this lunatic that i am
will always find a way
to reach you new ways
to touch you kind rays
to show you i love you
my beloved
with the art of my hands
and heart

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i follow my feet
walking sideways on the
sidewalks down this road
this row through her garden
this new crop of thought
i don't know what to say
i write better that way
but i know we are kindred
and share a sacred path
this journey is the steepest
when we are the weakest
egad this time when i
opened my heart hundreds
of doves flew off
ask me
where can i find long
conversations with a kiss
know me
i crave to be touched as
much as i love to touch
hear me
i walk between hallucinations
and halloweens
i'm just following my feet
your turn to speak
what you seek
at the beep

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there is a dove
in our hug
and i thought i was
the only one who was
having all the fun
above
grandfather the clouds
stopped in the stream
of stars and the wind
rushed
can i have faith
in your faith
people pride them
selves with what they
take what they take
will be taken from
them
there is no honor
greater than giving
from our hearts
there is no blessing
greater than i love
you
these words reach
for you each of you
for all of you
i'll leave you a leaf
i'll find you a feather
so far are i so far
as doves fly

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my beloved
you are not bound
by my love for love
knows no bounds
she says the ladies
will come and go
the women remain
true
i find the divine the
kind in you
you cannot see this
beauty with your eyes
only in your heart
and i know you don't
see me unless you're
looking for love
the heart is no longer
a mystery when i
opened mine
each piece of a broken
heart is a gift that
cannot be bought
a strength that cannot
be taught
and beats greater
than any drum
sought
my heart was big
enough to hold the
whole wide world
and now the moon
too
of course of course
there is room
for you

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i get this knot in my head
a gift of my beloved
i secretly untie
to give freedom
to others
everything i think about
you is an illusion
until the mirror is clean
to help you realize
the call of the doves
a life of love
the threads of these
frayed knots of my
life she braids
into oneness
into light

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i wonder
how can i tell you
how much i love you
without touching
tongues
the strength of love
is to hold the strength
of love is to let
go
my beloved
you have blessed this
love of poet and moon
thousands of years
ago
and not a moment
too soon
every time i crush
into ash you give me
wings anew to continue
through our love
moonlove
and if i weren't a
lunatic i would not be
telling you this
with my slow pace
i found you today
in a leaf that had
turned to lace
and i am a moonstone
of a man this little rock
i keep in my pocket
and hold in my hand
a pebble
to remind me
when held with love
we feel the charms
of love
a pebble
to remind me
when held with love
we are the charms
of love
a pebble
to remind me
when held with love
we charm the lives
we love
thank you
little moonstone


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Insight

i close my eyes
to see you with my
hands and heart
i close my eyes
and see your
biggest grin light
up my world from
within
with this sight
i sing to you
your gift of love
the moon
and coax you from
your womb where
you must hide
to heal your wound
my love i sing to you
with my hands and
heart
your gift of love
is the truth the
proof you need
to bring your
wings
the spirit hears your
cry and will teach you
to fly
soar with me
my love
your sacred kiss is
in every tomorrow
your soft touch is
the very marrow of
the moon of the love
of the light within
us


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the divine is in the mud
on your shoes the wrinkle
in your skin the doubt the
mistakes
we come from the other
side of forever
and we are exactly
where god wants us
have you not ever
known this in your soul
have you not ever
sensed this in your touch
have you not ever
heard this in your heart
when you say i love you
and felt the strength of
god the face of god the
hands of god within you
in a kiss of your beloved
the one that brings you
light gives you sight
shares with you the
night
and takes you to the
other side of forever

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You Don't Say

listen for the unspoken
the words of silence
are a majick potion
in a lovers voice
chains can be broken
with a lovers tongue
literally poken
you know of no glory
till you have spoken
a cry of passion
you know of no love
till your words rise
from the ashes
you know of no light
like the might of the
right word
hear the art of my
heart may i touch
you may i heal you
may i love you may
i bless you with
these words
help me give breath
be my guest help me
my love become the
best lover yet
unspoken

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after all these years
i'm still in love still in
search and still i wonder
still i verse
choose not to suffer
my beloved not to run
not to be too shy not to
lie have no despair
no regrets
i choose to soar with your
desire this fire of a million
suns
and i will rise from the
ashes of each
one
the strength of love
these flames this blaze
i braid into loving you
and like the moon
you pull me deep
within your hug
like the moon
you stir me deep
within your love
i say may the suns rays
light our way and may
the moon beam together
our souls

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my lover awaits me
these words are my
shoes
that cloud there
my hat this coat
the night
i knew the truth
of our love with
one kiss
my how minds fly
to you
through the flame
a bridge i often
cross
with surrender
and braids of
passion
your quest a grin
the want of you
is beauty's fuel
given not taken
stirred
and awakened
open me again
lunacy
my lover awaits


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what do you say
when you live to love
another day
i ask
how long love
lasts
within your heart
is there a poem
of laughter a beam
of pure joy a dove
above
have you sacred space
a safe place to keep
a dream a keepsake
will you always
remember
i will
and all i ask
is to keep me
free
all i give is given
to me all i did
you would do for me
hold me
one last time
like we did the very
first time and love
love me softly
thoughtfully
touch me
from afar

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i find your hug
where love takes hold
and i ask why let go
my hands are full
of love when my hands
are full of you
i open to your touch
and you reach deeper
than skin deeper
within your gift
and found my need
blessed be your hands
heal me
we give and give and
give to receive
to embrace our grace
to love endlessly
healing you healing me
blessed be our reality

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Daisey May
at the Kraftbrau Brew Pub
Kalamazoo, Michigan
2/25/07

mother moon
zoom zoom zoom
to kalamazoom
a bunch of folks
going to hear a bunch
of folks singing a bunch
of folk
we cross the state line
this time in the dream
time of my mind
and the shades of gray
of the road matches
my beard and sky
close enough to make
me wish you were here
you were near close
enough to touch
seems like sometimes
the further away i go
the closer i am to you
and if you ever need
to go ever need to be
told ever need to know
i love you
and the question i got
stirred up in my coffee
cup is am i too fat
to (yukyukyuk)
southern michigan is
snow white tonight
half a moon bright
my eyes fly over the
fields and trees with
your love in sight
and if you find me
in your heart in your
light join me in flight
come with me come
with me kalamazoo
me and come

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come see a tree with me
take my hand and i will read
to you every word on each
leaf of poetry
when i become a tree
climb me and we'll dance
on the wind of my beloved
this bridge of earth and
sky inside
wisdom says the tree
grows in all directions
wisdom tells the tree
to grow where planted
wisdom shows us the view
through the stillness through
the madness inside our
lives
and you can see with love
within me in my eyes
in my heart in my mind
in the woods of my soul
i am a tree and you
are free

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i longed so long i can
say so long to the ache
give and take i have
tried so hard to do
something so simple
i giggle
and i've been told so
many times that i'm not
right
i have to keep reminding
myself i'm not wrong
either
i have suffered the almighty
no got my awe kicked and
clawed and walked in
pathos a couple pages
back on this path
just to be
here with you now
and if you knew the
incredible might in our
hearts you would
giggle too
at all we need to do
is love

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lets touch a moment
more our lips
my beloved
and kiss each and
every second
of our love
lets not forget to
hold our dreams
of long ago
and tomorrow
close to the fire
in our hearts
and if we're lucky
we'll see your wisdom
in our lives
why we sacrifice why
we endure why
we love till we are
ash once more


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i know you see
me you say she
found you reached
out and touched
you hugged you
i love you
and she knew i
knew you knew
we are made from
the same clay shaped
by the same rays felt
the same kiss
and i am hard
at work hours deep
miles long these poems
a prayer for peace
a prayer for love
your welcome
our hands
full of lovefull full
of lightfull full of
hopefull to pour
her gifts this bliss
from heart and soul
to mend ourselves
to mend our friends
to mend this world
without end


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tonight
as a snowflake kissed
my lips i watched the snow
like a hawk and saw all
my thoughts twirl fall
and drop
without a sound
without a wind
without a sin
she comes to me and tells
me my life is not a tragedy
this night this sight
and every flake was meant
to be
her love fills my beard
melts on the tip of my nose
and flows down my cheeks
thanking me for my years
of tears
and my eyes gleam beams
through this verse and into
the universe
and i don't mind being
reminded tonight she is
always with me
as i watch the snow
spellbound

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temple of the goddessey
i wonder if she will let me
go i have come from beyond
beyond and i wonder if
i should go
travelling lightly to where
all souls go with her
in my heart
to wander in wonder
with another
reason
i should find the words
to say goodbye
and return to my journey
hand in hand with you
i'll ask the trees please
the leaves might applaud
i'll see if the geese
will agree to guide me
perhaps a hawk maybe
a crow would know
where she wants me to go
i'll just tag along like
a tag along vagabond
if i have to go beyond
my own backyard

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love is empty
without a touch
of madness
the fool knows
this world
of words is a hell
unspoken
in my craze
love can fix
the broken
you too
would smile
if you knew
these words
were true
you too
would scheme
if you knew
these words
were untrue
you could not find
love if love was not
blind
you could not find
love if love was not
divine

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i ain't rooted
to the ground
i'm rooted
to the earth
my head ain't
in the clouds
i'm in heaven
and hell
no if's no ain'ts
no sinners no saints
touched paint
i feel you here i know
you here i hear you
here i am here
for you
home
in god's hands
knock on the door
and open your heart
to the world
brighten this globe
with your love your soul
your worth
as the spirit unfolds
here on earth

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it's snowing
and i'm snoring
i hear old man time
roaring with laughter
as i chase faster and
faster after your love
till i soar into the moment
that moves me through
my thoughts and into
my dream
to be with you
in my heart
and i hear the spirit
cheer each time i awake
in love each time i
reach within for love
each time i show
you and tell you
i love you

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did you hear the swish
when her wings
brought you
bliss
did you feel the beat
catch your heart
and flutter
free
she remembers
ask her
again
do you want to touch
to prove its true
everyone has a craft
some of all
feel her hands
all of some
are her hands
help lift this veil
and again
light the world
with love

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i seek your love
hidden here in my heart
everyday
and i'm finding
wisdom
what isn't true
is not my path
to you
my sophia
please bring me
joy when i learn
to stop suffering
every lover
my love
her medicine
heals me too
my sophia
please help me
show others what
you can do
with pure love
the light
we always knew

thank you
my sophia

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feel
god's hands a child's
hands her hands
in your hands
we
are lucky to have bodies
lite the candle
warm the oil
rub
my needy feet
bless my luck with
your touch
sooth
these body blues
you heal
as i feel
the greatest of all
strengths
a gentle touch
you heal
as i feel
the whole world glow
from head to toes
you heal
as i feel
this temple of flesh
crumble into a puddle
you feel
as i heal

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i live in you
my love
love needs me
i feel your words
through your eyes
i sip
the shapes of your
songs i sense
the way you feel
i feel
the way you sense
love must love
my love
this is her cup
my life
today i live
in love


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where do you hear
the spirit cheer
here in the silence
of a thousand interpretations
here in the sweat
of great sex
here in the deep
soft glow of moonlit
snow
here in the peace
and bliss of selflessness
here in praise raise
your cup your song
with endless love
stirringly earnestly
as light
as a feather
i request the quest
of this question
where do you hear
the spirit cheer

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i am the same age as you
little sister
i am your grandfather
your brother your son
i look up to god and she
looks up to me
i applaud her daughters
are my teachers i hear
call
they are the strength
of my heart this song
of my spirit a gift
of my touch i give
with each hug and kiss
the youth in me went
to sea like your life
in your dreams time
will take you where
you need to be
call me crazy young lady
you always broke
my heart till i learned
to see
the love i need
is within and hidden
in our curiosity

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moonrise blue deep and true
this evening this view
a prayer for you
i've watched this blue
at sunrise seen this
blue in my mind's eye
i know this blue is your
thank you this is the blue
i feel when i love you now
i need you with this blue
i touch you
my god is the sky
somewhere
on the other side
this mystery of why
this color gives me strength
gives me faith takes from me
my strife
do you have a blue in your life
too or a river the wind
a mountain the sea
the incredible beauty
of how deep this blue
is in me


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do the snows know
where the snowflakes go
god knows i don't know
i wonder
where do the winds
begin is the breeze
free i am in awe
of you tall tree
i sigh in the silence
in the emptiness
within me inside
winter like a mumble
bundled in slumber
i am one with wonder
i have been in love
most of my life
and most of my life
i have been alone
god knows i don't know
i wonder my heart
will one day die
my life of love
is the best is the
nest is the rest
of forever

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snuggle up
drink from my cup
on a soft winters night
these words are a purple
moon a chattering leaf
a fallen feather
they are few and you
won't hear them from
a pew
what we love of love
loves us too the mirror
in me is the mirror in you
all in all
keep these heartsongs
as deep as the snow
as high above as below
to know me as we
body and soul
i'm the man in the moon
a tear of joy the flicker
of the flame
let's go there where
true love grows here
where we embrace the
light and cross the darkness
of life truth to truth
to truth
and when our work is done
i'll warm your hands
caress your feet and
show you the many ways
touch is sweet
snuggle up
drink from my cup

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soon there will be
the honesty of winter
each day a different shade
of gray the agony
of fields and trees
barren like the soul
draped in snow
are you the frozen
me too
we are lucky to survive
more than a moment
in time
we are lucky to feel
more than a breath
of ecstasy
yet the winter brings
the spirit of fire the flame
that melts us free
and if we're lucky we see
our tracks in the snow
become a path become
a rural road to show us
the way home

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how long has it been
since i've kissed you
touched you said i loved
you
how long has it been
since i've seen the
universe in you found
a feather for you
reflected from the
mirror in you
how long has it been
since you've needed
something felt nothing
got lost or hungerd for
something new since
i've met you
it takes two for this
to be true to come true
do you believe in me
as i
believe in you

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she beams
through my dreams
this time in a state of mind
willing and seeking to find
this time tomorrow
today i awaken from my
slumber and i wonder
does the spirit blunder
the want of the day
the gifts of the night
each time i know
i must let go
i'm taught not to connect
the dots
to wait and not speculate
there's a thread of the spirit
in the mundane there's a
thread of the mundane
with the spirit like yin
and yang the imperfection
makes it perfect makes it real
gives it life
i've grown old fat and lazy
my burden is being crazy
its a chore to stay sane
madness is a monster
that guards a door
to the treasures
of the soul
like peace and kindness
the kind have always
inherited the earth
those that don't know
peace don't know
its worth
there is no need to argue
or fight these words are true
are light only to me
there's no need to impose
your halo
my life is blessed blessed
with strife my heaven is here
on the road when i return
home

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i come stumblin'
out of the past and fall
into my dreams
back through the black
october night
where the drum awakens
me back beyond
judgement
where the light does not
divide us where the song
does not exclude us
where hate can not
penetrate
i do not rise to do this
i do not go below
i can only show you
through love through touch
through my life
our being healing
i come stumblin'
along this path back
to the woods of the soul
where we are truely free
because there is no need
to control no want
to manipulate
where communion with
the spirit is our purest
desire
i come stumblin'
look for power and it
will be gone look for
love and love endlessly
there comes a time
when a poet walks the talk
when a healer is healed
when a prayer
is heard
and we take the time
to find our answer
i come stumblin'
my heart tugged by your
hug and i wish to love
you simple and true
i wish to love you the old
and the new i wish to love
you kiss me before you
choose not to
i come stumblin'
from within

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i pour these words
from this page
into her cup of kindness
her smile overflows
sip says she
are you without thirst
i stir you from within
this is madness
this is bliss
this is every wish
with her hands within
her prayers
you birth me with worth
with mirth
i am a tear of joy
rolling flowing
with kindness her cup
sip says she
drink from divinity

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come sit by the fire
and keep me company
spin me a spell tell me
a tale let me hear
the glory of your life
stories to tend the fire
and share the view
through my life too
i can feel you're on the road
of troubled souls
i say may we unite tonight
with the sacred flame
and burn away the shadows
that grow with i don't know
i say may we unite tonight
with the sacred earth
and turn around any hurt
back down into this hallowed
ground
i say may we unite tonight
with the sacred sky
to change pain to gain
and bless the rains
that washed us here
my friend i can tell
by your hat you have
nine lives like a cat
my friend i can tell
by your boots you can
soar because of your
roots
my friend i can tell
by your lack of babble
you've had many travels
tell me what guides you
through the madness
of being you
does the spirit rise
within us or descend
upon us
i am a child of the moon
she awakens me this very
night to make a fire bright
might you stay or walk away

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desert view
new moon midnight
blue valley below
starbright fire
glow
my mind opens
and turquoise
if this is an illusion
then why do i see it
so clearly
a gift of the guardian
crow
dreamlight
her sight her love
is wonder and i know
it ain't about me
i'm just trying to keep
clean the mirror
of any mentality
seems certain seems
simple seems to
be
helpfully hopefull
and hopefully helpfull
with love
i love you like i love
the silence of a thought
in love i love you like
i love the whispering
dove within love
i love you like i love
the our of your touch
your dreamscape
your turquoise
your reflection
this view
i can speak no greater
praise than love

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today the other day
was calling
today the other day
was a distant thunder
the bird i saw above
in the sky
was the same bird
i saw in my mind
the other night
before i fell
asleep
i know this because
of stillness
i know this because
of the found feather
i carry this day
within my heart
and wait to see
the blessings of what
this storm of thunder
brings
the creation of what
this bird of thunder
awakens

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i am all in awe
my life a clock
with her hands
keeping time
i am half a hundred
and four so far
as doves fly
a rhyme in time
flies
a song so long
here where you
belong
within her life
long hug within
your heart
the timeless
kindness
of the tick and tock
of her flock

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drizzly day
and i'm so far away
from where i hide
i stepped outside my gray
beard full of sky my heart
opened wide my breath
a sigh i carry hope
in my eyes
the wind is full of mists
and sacred twists as i saw
the falling leaves twirl
and turn into sparrows
i felt kissed to the marrow
for many years i have found
feathers everywhere
and i've wonderd
where i step
does each leaf find peace
a leaf in the wind
is my delight
feathers are blessed
blessed with light
god i'm thankfull
thankfull for this sight

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all day i ping pong
right and wrong
i have my suspicions
this is the human condition
what would it take not to think
of my mistakes
long ago beneath the sea
the simplest of error
could have been the death of we
this gloom doesn't belong
with every wrong yet i worry
all day long ping and pong
i struggle in the constant
correction of no perfection
this doom is a wound that feeds
and bleeds my doubts today
i feel there is no shore

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love
my muse
knows the hum
harm none

i feel you within
charming my heart
calling my spirit
soars falling
in love

you give my words
your voice and teach
my voice your words

i ask in your service
to fill my empty days
with purpose

i am in blind time
the age old blindfold
to choose what is true
to see through
this darkness

your love

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blessed be

as a poet
i work with a handfull
half a roomfull
a moonfull

i work these words
with a mindfull this
timefull cup of
kindfull

a heart will speak
of the thunder
within a heart
will speak of the
love without a heart
will speak

a heart will burst

this is the bowl
of the soul this
is the name of
the flame

this is i

we all fall we all
fell we all call
out to god

why

my beloved replies
why does my love
sustain you why
does the world
stain you

my call to all
the poets calling
me may your words
be the windows
through which
to see

must i touch must
i know must i
become

i will

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too late

i had that thought
before i thought

this tree stump
is me this wilted
flower my gift

i limp with no blame

i sense the doom
like a raven brings
your creation

the thunder to awaken

my path leads to
your door i don't know
if i want to go

in or out

i'm sure it's been
said before

these questions i got
stirred up in my coffee
cup

is why ain't freedom
free

indeed

why in the hell
would a christain kill

for christ's sake
i had another cup

when are we going
to turn to light

looks like
no sleep tonight

chipped for life

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somethings up
looks like the buzzards
are going to pick
my bones
again

and i heard in my head
what a friend had said

i guess i'm just search'in
for what i don't see

to believe
the watermelon troll
gotta leave what you
can't carry

wise enough to know
i don't know
wise enough to go
beyond what i've been
told

scroll on down
scroll on down
scroll on down
the road

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see ya on down the road