I WOULD LOVE TO -------- ©2017 Lawrence A. McFadden all rights reserved
 
 
I WOULD LOVE TO
 

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god spoke
you are my son
i was called
but not chosen
i was given the choice
between learning the
bible or
experience life
i did not choose
religion yet the spirit
chose me
blessed be
i was taught to see
i was taught to touch
it took thirty years
of tears but we healed
me
now the medicine
is in me
the madness the grace
every place
please don't be afraid
god made me this
way
i am given visions
my power is i make love
poem
my gift is giving
my blessing is i love
you
my prayer is i would
love to
truth is my muse
every one of
you
my glee is making
you giggle with
me
its all a divine
comedy
 
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the art
some call dark
but like a black cat
its only a cat
its you that gives it
power
through the art
some call dark
i have been put to
death for two thousand
years
its true you buried us
you did not know we
were seeds
the only ones burned
by the flames are the
ones who try to put
out the fire
yes there is a shadow
to every light
all you want is the holy
heart you know not
that black art is
sacred too
i giggle one big ghostly
boooooooooo
yes you had better run
from me like a fool
or i'll love you
i'll love you
too
 
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the wind sighed
and a leaf lands at
my feet
the thought of you
comes to mind and
this time the shadow
of a hawk flashes
across my
path
i was told you would
leave i am told you
will return
i am told i must
trust
i keep seeing warriors
and chiefs now i see
monks and priests
deep in belief deep
in peace
its not that i remember
your vision its just that
i can't forget
i still look for you in
every sunset i still see
us as a duet
i've gone beyond right
from wrong
i look life straight in
the eye and say
bring it on
my words for you are
do what you have
to do
either or
say no more
 
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i'm just another face
in the mirror
until you recognize
the reflection of the
love wise
i'm just the last drop
in the bucket until
you realize you can
drown in just a sip
of a kiss
can you be just be
not me
i must become
there is too much
love too much bliss
too much i
must
the lust for life
the sacred touch
the holy smoke
the tear of
joy
maybe i am crazy
but i did not build
castles in the
air
i built a palace in
my heart i heard
the temple bell
every where in my
soul
my rhyme will never
grow old
i know how to love
a heart of
gold
i know how to live
alone
i know why there
is no one at my
side
i'm just a tree
reaching reaching
for peace for love
reaching for all
of the above
 
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blackbirds
deserve my words
i sigh when they
fly directly over
head
nothing is spoken
yet i know what
is said
have hope
i am told you'll see
i am told you'll know
let the mystery flow
and unfold
have hope
i hear the calling
be a have a hope
pope
in fact that that
is my task my
path
i'll be a pope of hope
a have a hope pope
and blessed be we
are given sweet sacred
weed
our holy smoke
our gift of
hope
 
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i was always taught
it was always my
fault
i'm as crazy as can
be but i've realized
theres nothing been
wrong with
me
i've never had a
problem with
me
i went deep deeper
than most
i've been diagnosed
seven times seven
different ways
i was wounded in life
for life yet we healed
me
and you can see clear
through me
what you find wrong
with me is my mirror
of you
i'm not joking when
i say do you really
want to know
but lets leave behind
our behinds and just
be kind
you see i know me
honestly
theres still nothing
wrong with
me
 
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its your cruel
world not mine
mine is
kind
its your kiss to give
not mine i give
mine all the
time
its your want to
want not mine
i feel
fine
its your heart
that knows
not mine i listen
to mine every
time
ha!
its your crave i
crave all the
time
your touch and
mine
i thank god i can't
get enough
i thank god
i must
lust
 
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i don't think
of death i think
of glory
i am given two years
to do what i want
done
it'll be the end
it'll be the beginning
the world called my
name a long long
time ago
since then i've been
waiting on the
fame
don't you know its
just another blessing
its just another
curse
my friends now are
honest and real
at least thats how
i feel
it'll all turn into
a game with
fame
how do i say i don't
want to play
i'm well known now
so hopefully the only
change i'll see is the
wow in the eyes
on me
perhaps if i grow old
i'm gonna sit down
and write the book
about everything
i did not
do
that my dear
will shock and rock
you
 
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i am blessed
in my nakedness
i have worked hard
all my life to be
just me
to be truely true
to be simply a jewel
of a man sparkling
for you
it would be great
for you to receive
this gift
but it would be far
greater if you too
could give this bliss
the gift of simply
you
yes we all need love
and blessed are those
who give
and blessed are those
who take
its just that to give
your greatest love
is the greatest
love
our love makes our
lives better and better
forever
 
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when i touch you
i've learned your
whole body
yearns
when i touch you
i feel you release
you know when
peace is within
reach
when i touch you
i feel you feel me
your moans say
don't ever leave
me alone
when i touch you
your body drinks
we are in sync we
are linked
when i touch you
you close your eyes
to see we have the
deepest intimacy
and when you touch
me
our ecstasy
 
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to say
the same things
twice
does it only rain
once does love end
where the words
end
what in life can you
only say once
what in life can you
only say
twice
when everything i say
says i love you
says i would love
to
do you only want to
be touched
once
and when i'm not
saying i love you
and you and you
and you
i'll tell you thank
you thank you thank
you
 
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you keep me down
you have never
looked
up
you keep me lost
at all costs
you cannot fly
so you broke
my wings
you throw rocks
of chaos at every
thing
you impose your
will
ill will indeed
i can heal but damn
you got the
disease
 
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i know how to be
a hollow reed
when the spirit
overwhelms
me
a task filled with
fear with dread
with darkness
and when i'm done
with my lesson
here it comes
the flood of
love
here it comes
the gifts of
bliss
here it comes
the ecstasy
as powerfull as the
sun as powerfull
as the tongue
the ecstasy
good god god
i'm high for
days
when you
turn your love
my way
 
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you're not going
to stop me
now
my heart is the
sound of thunder
my thoughts are
the sounds of
wonder
i know how now
not to blunder
it is the grip of
my love
it is the hand
i hold
years ago i was
asked what the
future looks
like
and like today
all i can say is
the future looks
bright
a bright white
sight
i'm not allowed
to see into the
future
yet i'm told 'i'll
know' i hear
'you'll see'
how many times
have i heard these
two words
rest assured
just help me out
with the doubt
remind me
not to hurry not
to worry not to
scurry
remind me
i'll have help
remind me
how i felt
remind me
of my wings
tell me the joy
of joy is what the
future brings
tell me i will
touch
tell me
i must
 
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thank you for
your purity
thank you for
being genuine
thank you for
being loving
thank you for
your intimacy
thank you for
your nudity
thank you for
bringing me to
ecstasy
thank you for
seeing the mirror
in me
thank you for
our loves
thank you for
the giggles
my life is forever
better
 
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i was
an emotional
cripple
every time i opened
my eyes i cried
i smoked from the
bowl of crushed
souls
it was gut
glass
yet i chose love
and soon found
those sent from
above
it took 30 years
to heal it took a
million tries it
took a million
tears
and when you took
my hand i became
a medicine
man
i was the frozen
i some how knew
i was the
chosen
and now every
moment of my life
is a gift i give
from trajic to majick
i love it
call me a lunatic
give me a kiss
call me
spirit
 
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i'll see
what you said
i'll know
what you don't
say dear
i have a hundred
eyes and a thousand
ears
making my life
simple and
clear
with much love
lust and respect
a little kindness
and my life
is perfect
 
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took so many years
to realize the truth
of so many questions
i could not answer
in my youth
i fell in love with you
because you were an
artist
and i've loved every
artist i've ever met
since
i am totally in awe
totally amazed the way
my love for you was my
saving grace through
all that craze
my love for you was
my strength my hope
my reason
my love for you was
why i was
alive
and i ain't dead
yet
they call you an old
flame
my heart is smiling
just the same
what ever happened to
you what ever happened
to me
lets see
i want to know
what life told
you
i'm happy to say
i'm only a little bit
crazy these
days
don't worry
just know that god
made me this
way
 
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so i walk out to
the patio at the rail
and i was asked if
i had a bowl
i did so i joined
a circle to
puff
we get done and this
older short mexican
guy comes up and
he doesn't speak
english but he pleads
with us to let him
smoke
i said we were done
but the guy with the
weed refills my bowl
and hands it to him
the little guy holds
the bowl in both
hands and holds it
out like an offering
bowing his head
to thank us and says
in spanish
family
family
family
so please everybody
share your bowl
one day you just might
find yourself a long way
from home
 
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i am told
when the spirit
comes and
goes
told in ways that
cannot be told
shown in ways that
cannot be shown
taught in ways that
cannot be
taught
the only thing i need
is to be a hollow
reed
it can get really ugly
it feels really
awful
there is no peace
its like waiting
to pull teeth
goddamn
i still cringe
when its coming
i know its going to
be holy hell for
a spell
its a task that takes
guts to man
up
i know i'll find the
path through the
pathos
i know it ain't me
but good god god
i still can't believe
it
how every time there
is always a greater
good always a greater
beauty always a greater
love always a greater
joy
its always more fun
when done
there is always a happy
ending and yes its
true
we will live happily
ever after
no matter what
seems to be a
disaster
 
 
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yes
life gives you
struggles and struggles
gives you
life
 
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i'm a
mystical
minnimalist
a spiritual
lunatic
a love able hug
able snug able
twit
i know you can't
get enough of my
touch
i know you can't
stop wondering
i know you can't
see me unless you're
looking for
love
i know how you feel
i know what you
want
there is no me
without
you
and yes i do have
the whole world
at my command
when you take
my hand
 
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the bond
of the beyond
this art we make
with our hearts
may i give you
a bouquet of
i love you's
my i bless you
caress you crown
you princess
too
your kiss makes
my life better
forever
you are my pearl
spun from around
the world
the best thing about
me is i'll give you
wings
i will keep you
free
so lets go beyond
the beyond
and may you sing
sing the songs of
our lives
as we strive with
love together now
until forever
 
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i look back
and i get zapped
with remorse
i feel worst now
than i did
then
amen
sometimes i think
about you as i wander
through the here
and now for
now
i wonder
thats how i know
thats how i see
i wonder
thats how the spirit
reaches me teaches
me preaches to
me
in wonder
i see
i close my eyes
and look with my
heart
in wonder
i hear my heart
speak and i make love
poem
this feeling
of belonging this
feeling of longing
this feeling of
i would love
to
this feeling of you
this time in real
time this time
its true
 
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i'm a bold
old soul who just
happens to know
how to love a
heart of
gold
have you met
my kindness
do you feel
my caress
yes your yes
blesses
me
my love to touch
your want
your want
to be touched
by love
have we found
god's gift of
bliss
in the sacredness
of our kiss
in the touch of
our tongues
our love is one
of the holy
ones
 
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when i die
my fame will keep
me alive
i've known all along
the world will hear
my song
i've heard the stadium
cheers right between
my ears
i have fun wondering
if god knows whats
been done
why i am in love
with every
one
i feel your impression
i see your appreciation
when i touch and touch
and touch
close your eyes and see
with your heart
how to be open
and free
you can do it
there is a simple
wisdom
you can do it
there is a deep deep
peace
you can do it
i too bumbled and
stumbled through
it
just know now you
can just know now
you will
when your heart
sees it then is when
you will believe
it
when your heart
sees it then is when
you will be
able
 
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i'm told not
to connect the
dots
yet in a wink
we are linked
are we on the brink
of gladness or
madness
do you want bliss
or do you want
bliss
perhaps just a sip
i could drown in
a drop
i could never
stop
i'm happy we can't
get enough of this
love this stuff god
is made
of
i know now how
you feel how i
feel
your whole body
yearns for my
touch
you answer me
with a kiss
our gift is our
pleasure a treasure
beyond measure
together
our lives are forever
better
this is my preach
may you always be
within reach
may my fingers
linger
may you find
peace
do you need me for
my courage
do you need me for
my crazy
its ok to say
maybe
i'm sure when you
are sure we will rest
assured
i see taste touch and
feel at ease knowing
you will be greatly
pleased
 
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you are my
coffee my might
roasted just
right
sweet and a little
creamed my
delight
a cup of joe dontcha
know my jojo my
goodie goodie
my want
we are just human
beans searching
searching for
a cup
a loving cup
god's cup
and all i can say
drinking you all
day
is
giddy up!
 
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my weed
gives me what
i need
i care enough
to share and there
are giggles every
where
tell me to touch
tell me i must
my candy is dandy
my lust is righteous
the sacredness of
nakedness
yes your highness
yes my highness
ring that temple bell
lets get high as
hell
may we dance in the
dark may our hearts
be spirit sparked
may our only wish
be bliss
a peck on the cheek
or deep deep in
release
i welcome you to
lala land where my
hands are at your
command
a safe place of grace
and gladness
we puff to enhance
our touch and yes
we are sexless
yet we can achieve
the greatest
intimacy
deeper deeper than
you've ever seen ever
felt ever dreamed
may you be in awe
of my lala
you reached out
to me now close your
eyes and see
i want to bring you
ecstasy
 
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if there is no way
i will find a
way
i have bent
time i can see clear
through what appears
to be reality
i can do it
in simple little rhymes
of mine some
times
i can guide you through
the hell of being
you
i can give you the
giggles
perhaps a little nibble
nibble
if there is a wall
give me a call
if there is a block
lets rock
at last we will math
the path through
the pathos
i've been told my
greatest givings
is showing what
makes life worth
living
 
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i must adjust
my slip
my words were
clumsy they did not
fit
only a poet would
know this
there is a sense there
is a order there is a
story there is a
glory
to see it to know it
to feel it to tell do tell
to tell the
truth
another gift i am
given to give
you
if its not given
freely its not
a gift
i give you all
i want and yes
i'll say it again
the greatest gift is
giving the greatest
gift
all i ask of you is to
give a little
kindness
to pass along this
timeless song
to give what you
want to be
given
 
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i like the way
the moon
bounces
can you dunk
the sun
i saw your light
the only star in
the sky last
night
my hands are
your biggest
fans
my cheer between
your ears is why i
am right now right
here
yes i know you are
a wordless
kiss
you are the
mysterious
you want my touch
i want your lips
thats why we don't
conflict
may your tongue
be sweet and always
skin deep
may you feel my
love my loving my
pride
when you wonder
why when you feel
a drop of rain from
a cloudless
sky
 
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my treat
may i rub your
needy little
feets
warm the oil
spread the skin
tight grins
i little butt love
and i'll have you
giggling
i want you tickled
pink
to fill my world
with laughter with
glee
your eyes see
your eyes say please
please please me
so vividly
i say yes yes and yes
indeed a pleasure
to give a pleasure
to receive
share your bowl
and i'll let you
touch my
soul
 
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hello
mrs misuries
hello mr antagonize
magnified my
preach
bring your own
god seek peace
and follow your
feet
meet mr struggles
call me sir
iflopalot
the path is always
the steepest when
we are the
weakest
take my hand and
lets navigate fate
after fate after
fate
my faith is long
hard and strong
my faith is my heart
is never wrong
my faith radiates
all i can say is god
made me this
way
all i can say is come
and enjoy me
some day
may you be the one
with a poem for me
on the tip of your
tongue
 
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yes indeed
they chained me
but i got free
i went crazy
they buried me
but i was a
seed
they tried to destroy
me with my own
wrath
but i did not fight
back
they wanted a tug
of war to tear apart
my heart my hope
but i let go of the
rope
the greatest thing
i ever did was what
i did not
do
they have no clue
if you won't battle
back
they have no idea
when you have no
fear
they insist you resist
so then they can use
violence
but see clear through
they hate you because
they fear you
its as simple as this
they hate you for
what they
are
 
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i need to give
again freely love
again dearly i need
to take heart
you need to understand
my hands
close your eyes
and be blessed with
my caress
i know why you cry
i can hear your tears
pouring out pouring
out pouring out
of here
but you take heart
thats how the healing
starts
the sun the moon the
earth the whole fucking
universe will help
you
me too
i will guide you through
the hell of being the hell
of being you
why?
because thats what
i do because i would
love to because i
would love
you
 
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may i water
you
give you some
sun
help you
blossom
when you need
me i need
you
your eyes love
your heart
sees
yes you are
crazy
just like
me
the cure is
through your
hands through
your heart
i am only the
spark
may i give you
courage
be brave
god made you
this way
 
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i'm amazed
at the strength
of lust
the strength of
i must
my crave lasts
all day i seek
delight all
night
i know you won't
sleep with me
we would be too
busy
i am old and bold
i want body and
soul
may i give you
the giggles and
softly feel this
dream is
real
a sprinkle of star
dust a pinch of
moon dust and
a ton of lust
dust
from our god
who wants us
to have
fun
 
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that tree
is me that
mountain is me
that sea is
me
naked and
free
i want the moon
to teach me how
to make love to
the clouds
i want the night
to burn bright
i know the stars
know exactly who
you are
in fact all i want
to do now takes
two
i want loving more
than words more than
just thoughts
i want loving to be
taught the oughts and
the ought nots
where do i find you
you who gives a damn
you who knows how
to love a man
you who knows how
to love a heart of
gold
i know its a life long
task but all i ask
is are you
kind
the kind to be
mine
do you want the
power of being
true
the power of me
and you
do you want
the power
of two
 
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i am
your secret
admirer
i love to feel
your impression
from across the
room
i can't stop
my eyes from
learning
i can't stop my
heart from
yearning
i wish to see
your face in
ecstasy
i don't know
your name but
i must stay away
or fly forever
in your
flame
i just want to say
thank you for me
finding you
i will not pick
you like a flower
but i will keep
you like a jewel
safe in my
heart
 
***************
 
i feel you
with my eyes
i touch you
with my heart
my hands throb
and get hot
a lot
with just this
thought
may i take away
your ache
may i give your
body my gift
my kiss
i can't say it
any better than
this
the best thing
about your body
your gift is
you're in
it
 
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a sliver of light
is a delight at
night
but why just a
sliver of life
when the pie
is the whole
fucking
sky
good god god
tell them why
tell them there
is no hell
break them
free
you broke the
silence in
me
you cracked
the prose and
gave me
poetry
and there there
use me my muse
it all starts with
a broken
heart
its all about the
strength of many
broken dreams
its all about being
broke free
goddamn it hurts
but you find a life
long worth of
living
when gods says
here here is a gift
worth giving
in the meantime
may you find who
is seeking you
may you find
peace
may find
release
 
**************
 
how many lives
do we carry inside
our hearts our
minds
all the others are
our brothers
every sis brings
bliss my
gift
i don't want to
miss any
one
god makes sure
i love every
one
in my heart
all is
one
you can read
my mind you can
light my
way
our love is the
stuff god is made
of
i don't care about
yesterday i don't
care about
tomorrow
be here now
and join the crowd
join the proud
join us
now
we made it
here some
how
 
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what more
can i do after
i poem
you
i'm twice as
nice at
night
i want you
in my
sight
you know
i will share
my bowl
i will give
you the
giggles
your eyes say
please make
me happy
and my hands
say all i need
to do is touch
you
and please
i would love
to
 
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back under
the sky
my my my
i'm looking for
a snuggle looking
for a cuddle
you always giggle
when i struggle
with why why
why
it was awful
you just don't
get used to the
shit
if you knew
you would feel
god awful
too
but it is my task
yes fancy
that
its what i do
i want to kiss
kiss kiss
but i have to
navigate through
all this shit shit
shit
i call it holy
holy shit because
shit too is a
gift
most people think
healing is all golden
lights and wings
that sing
when healers know
the ugliness the
awfulness the crazy
things that true
love brings
 
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i can make
happiness happen
i can feel and enjoy
joy
when i touch
my eyes are in my
palms
my hands go deep
deep in release
but you knew this
all along
to sense see
your heart is
never wrong
yes we can make
love poem
but tell me to
touch tell me
i must
tell me my words
are never
enough
 
***********
 
keep close
to the fire i keep
close to my
heart
after dusk
i long for the gusts
the gusts of
lust
i don't ask for
much just to
touch
but i cannot give
a little i must
give it
all
feel it all
do it
all
to love me all
of you
its my pleasure
to pleasure
you
when your heart
says i would
love
to
 
***************
 
take a toke
take a holy smoke
i've turned my turn
with all you
folks
my high makes me
alive my high makes
my struggles
a joke
my high makes my
life better and better
and better with
each toke
and i've always been
told its not the drug
its the love
i love
its not the drug
i feel its the kindness
that is real
its not the drug
its our hearts dancing
prancing enhancing
romancing
its our
art
taking a toke
taking a holy smoke
its not the medication
its the dedication
to puff freely
to take a toke
to share a holy smoke
to puff freely
 
************
 
i know
your feel
i softly touch
your softness
i tangle your
hair
i love your
jiggle jiggle
when you
giggle giggle
i say
put it there
do you want
bliss or do you
want bliss
we all have a
sacred wish
i just want to
share my
gift
i just want to
share my
kiss
 
************
 
my breath
is at rest
the night was
yours the day
is mine
there is a wrinkle
in time
hold my hand
if you are
mine
i will keep you
free
i want to build
a monument to
the moment of
ecstasy
to the faces
i see
to what we were
and what we are
and what we will
be
can you do that
for me
can you let me
be me
can you let me
be free
 
*************
 
she wilted
beautifully
the winds above
sends her
love
who planted you
who planted me
perfectly
i reach for the
sky
i want to hold
the hand
of god
i want peace
for all
the world calls
larry larry loves
do you know
what your words
have done
you have helped
everyone
 
************
 
i'm sixty three
and i still want
to grow up to be
the worlds tallest
tree
to part the worlds
deepest seas
i want to be the
worlds greatest
heart
and thats just
the start
its called
art
this is my paper
path my talking
trail
this is my word
to the wise
this is why i am
alive
to lead the way
with a poem
a day
to spread the
cheer that love
lives here
 
**************
 
you giggle
and giggle and
giggle
and say i sure
want some
more
your whole body
yearns as you learn
how my touch turns
sweetly completely
into intimacy
your eyes roll
and close
the strength of a
man with gentle
hands
a skin tight night
a love from above
delight
there are no thoughts
yet our hearts talk
and talk
our souls
know
the oil becomes
glue nude with every
i love you
this bliss is gods
gift this bliss is the
power of two
this bliss is pure
and true
just my hands
and you
 
***********
 
the older i get
the less i say no
the more i stay
home
the older i get
the more i am
blessed
the older i get
the better the
sex
the older i get
the more i know
i'm going to get
really really
old
i hated life so much
i'm going to live
a long long
time
my life is not my
destruction
my life is my
glory
i'm given thanks
for doing my
best
i am told to now
let the spirit do
the rest
and everytime
i think is this as
good as it gets
i hear the words
you ain't seen
nothing
yet
 
**********
 
you say why don't
i have a wife
and i say why aren't
you my wife
and theres your
answer
being alone all my
life has been my
sacrifice
going through life
without a woman
is like going through
china with only one
chopstick only one
hand clapping only
one hand laughing
i want to feel your
body because i want
to touch
you
nude with a bouquet
of i love yous
nude with what more
can i do
nude and you kiss
my cheek and say
i would love
to
 
****************
 
i insist
you visit
my lips
tell me
to touch
tell me
i must
tell me
when
tell me
again
my hands can
feel what you
want from
me
my heart can
see what will
be will
be
if only for
our pleasure
if only for a
moment of
forever
if only for
our vision
together
 
***********
 
i have the world
at my command
and every rock
every tree every
hawk says let it
be let it be let
it be
its not up to me
it took a million
tries it took a
million tears
it took
life
then i touched
you and everything
i ever knew came
true
i have proof
life is a hoot
who the hell knows
who the hell cares
who the hell loves
you
i do
i am a
who
 
************
 
my mind
just a pool of
time
a cuddle puddle
i ponder this
pond
when i wander off
in wonder of the
wonderful
when i am in awe
of the awesome
and again
when when when
i am only given
the word
soon
so soon so real
so true
 
************
 
i think she
hates me for
not having anything
to hate me
for
put that in your
potatoes
she said yes yes
yes to everything
and then did
nothing
stir that in your
coffee
i'll give you all
you want but all
you want is to
want
dear me
not another
me me me
i have worked
hard all my life
not to be like
you
you think you
can do it all
yet you have
done
nothing
 
************
 
you are
the swan on
my pond
you wore black
now you are
light
your grace gives
this place
grace
i can again
adore
i know what
our love above
is for
you bring beauty
to my life
i give you my word
once more
its our love
that bonds
us
its our love
that heals
us
its our love
that touches
us
its our love
i'm sure
its our love
that wants
more
 
**************
 
she has
your eyes
she gave you
thunder she makes
me wonder
some say its a spell
some say its hell
i say ring that
temple
bell
some built steeples
in the sky i built a
palace of chalice
and phallus in
my heart
where i will keep
you safe where i
will keep you
free
just touch me
and see
just ask for
a dream
just let me
be me
just say
please
 
*************
 
you have
the lightest
touch
you take away
crave you bring
peace
you are the beauty
and the release
you have her hands
you have my heart
my life is better
forever
its not all i want
its not all i need
we are simply
seeds
as far down
as up
i hope you grow
next to me
i love to wait
and see
lets show them
how its done
exactly
 
***************
 
i'm trying
to say its god sent
to give me your
consent
how can you say
its not
how can you not
love
how can you say
its not beautiful
how can you say
you're not blessed
with my caress
in case you haven't
noticed god made
it that way
our sexuality is
squarely rooted
in our spirituality
so i ask for god's
nod when i ask
you
and if you want
to you'll see
all i can say is
i would love
to
 
**************
 
i've been alone
too long
theres nothing
you can take
from me
i can't live
without
thats how hard
i am how hard
i love how hard
i cry
it took life
now god has me
right where i
need
be
the thought of
living twenty more
years scares me
worst than
death
i wonder when
you'll realize i am
the best
as a wise man once
said 'so what'
the very first question
i was asked on my
medicine path was
did i remember why
i went to sea
and yes i knew my
reason i wanted the
experience
i asked to see
and goddamn was
i shown
it took life
i battled and battled
and battled to make
peace
peacefully
now i can only giggle
and giggle and
giggle
thoughtfully
i crossed my bridge
to that part of my
heart where god
lives
i made it to the
other side of
forever
now i want to
do it with you
together
 
*************
 
again
when then
is now some
how
the crystal ball
call
my life through
the eyes of my
mind
and poof
its gone yet it
rambles on and
on
i relive every inch
of my life
every time gone
by
by gones being
by gone
its more than a
memory its a
destiny
of now and then
to live it again
to be shown in
my mind one
more time
everything you do
comes back to
you
i'm old enough
to know if there is
no happy ending
then there is more
story to be
told
 
**************
 
i was good
at it
ain't no call
for it no
more
its hard for
me to think
it all ends
when i am in
the here
when i am in
the now
when i am in
the know
my prayer is
thank you thank
you thank
you
one and all
my life is better
forever
i have not found
the end of
love
 
*************
 
i'm looking
for a way to
make my
way
the miles of
smiles the road
trippy hippie
the vanishing
gypsy
just where to
step into
tomorrow
i hear the greatest
feats are praying
for peace and
following your
feet
you don't have
to know where
you're going
until you get
there
theres no need
to know just
go
you'll find your
self along the
way
your saving grace
is you'll always find
your place
just follow your
feet a path so
sweet
 
**************
 
i can't fix you
in a text
words don't work
unless you're willing
to do the
work
i don't have to heal
you its not up
to me
i'm not responsible
for what you
assume
you are not me
i know its love
that part is
true
but its not between
me and you
its between you
and you
you fell as far
as you can
fly
all i can say is
we all
do
 
*************
 
may your heart
be true when you
say i love
you
may your must
be strong enough
to say i would
love to
may you be given
visions
i know you'll know
i see you'll see
i'm told you'll be
told
did i mention
the ascension
there is work
to do
did i mention
the ascension
with every breath
with every step
god gives
you
did i mention
the ascension
to touch a life
just right
 
************
 
thank you