ONE MORE POEM PLEASE -------- ©2012 Lawrence A. McFadden all rights reserved

please
guide me
my love
hold me
up to the light
touch me
with all your
might
thank you
for the sorrow
thank you
for the sacrifice
thank you
for the deep
deep night
thank you
for the intuition
thank you
for the ambition
this poem
your tuition
this bliss
your gift

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its a house
when i live
alone
with family
its called
home
i feel it i hear
it i see it
hush
i love the way
we gently know
it gently show it
gently close it
gently melt into
it
and i ask on bended
knee a prayer one
please and a thousand
thank yous
to no longer have
to roam a far cry
from this place
we call home

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i love you
silly i touch you
and glow i feel
you and i know
i'm still on
fire i still burn
i still yearn
for the way you
ooze and ooze
you do
i am soothed
with this thought
of you

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a daunting task
the difference between
love and sex the difference
between sex and love
what is your pathos
letting the light in or
letting the light out
no doubt
i hear your giggle
in my heart and i must
face the darkness to find
you in the night
i must learn to taste the
burn of you in my arms
unharmed
i must wait selflessly in
the flames to find you
and know your name
if this is love then why
do i know hate why must
i take why must the
thunder quake i ask why
have the best left why
does anger still bang on
my door
and if i had a wife
i know she would say hush
be nice its only
life

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i've been letting go
of control a little more
everyday
i figure before its time
to die i'll just float
away

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love looks
in my eyes
i occupy
the black october
sky
i love to know the
knowing i love to
enter the mystic
i love to go beyond
this world of words
where did i start
i followed my heart
where will we meet
follow your feet
may these words
we verb with your
love we live with
your light and we
turn us home

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so far are i
so far as doves
fly
sacred scar
a jar full of stars
i'm shown every
woman's gift
your kind is kind
and wise and
touched
i see through
your eyes the
gypsy soul
i hear in your
heart your art
my love
close your eyes
and be kissed
with vision

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faithful brother buzzard
at my door father thankful
hawk flies through my
thoughts
something is needed
that perhaps i can
provide
when they show
i have a need to know
why
the whole wide world
around me starts to
converse with me
as they say with words
that have no words
in every nook and
cranny moon mother
granny
if i stay true to my path
all will clearly pass
i find the might to work
through my fright for
the sight the awareness
to be shown a new way
to see another lesson
please
blessed be
through the spirit of love
my beloved one more
poem to show them
one more rhyme down
the line one more time
grateful
witness of the divine

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if
truth
be told
the littlest leaf
of them all said it
all
i wouldn't have it
any other way
i'm listening my child
poem me
muse me amuse me
enthuse me infuse me
i cry
the kind of tears
that gives the soul
wings
that makes the heart
sing
the kind of tears
love brings
more than a play on
words a truth spoken
to be heard
a truth i give you my
word with every leaf
that speaks with every
tear that appears my
word with every step
kept along my way

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i am your lost
keepsake perhaps your
lucky penny your favorite
hat
i know you don't see me
unless you're looking
for love
i find you on the tip of my
tongue on the tip of my
nose on the tips of my toes
my life is not plural
because i am one
with you
i carry your torch
i will know you all my
life i am here making
love happen

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i hope you don't mind
my purr when i feel
the power of your touch
the medicine of your
hands the love at your
command
likewise i'm sure
with touch i explore
the many ways i adore
you implore you restore
you
likewise i'm sure
i keenly feel the wound
of the world i keenly
feel the drool of the
healed
the touch of us
i'm sure

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i look at you closely
and see you look
at things closely
the less i judge
the more i see
the more i see
the better my purpose
the truer my words
the stronger my faith
and fate
i can't speculate yet
i can't wait for the
wisdom to come
tell everyone with
poem with drum
the sum of all
worth peace on
earth

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i took your advice
twice and twice
you were right
in the wonder of it
all i ask have you
been called i ask
perhaps what may
be the task to share
this path of ray and
key to share this path
of touch and spirituality
to share this path of
peace and poetry
call the call love call
the call light call the
call just right call the
call our might

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when i find a miracle
in my coffee cup i know
its going to be a good
day
most of the time i find
a question sometimes
a who then again the
most i can ask is perhaps
a nod
i make my day when i
make my coffee
when i stir my coffee
it stirs my soul
i like it ground fresh
a tad sweet with a dollop
of cream
my bridge of last night
and today my morning
bean my morning beam
of today's dream

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i know i don't
talk much
there are no words
i keep for you
except thank you
there are no words
to teach you
except you're welcome
i know you speak
the same
if you hold my hand
i will open my heart
look into my eyes
your smile fills the
sky
are there words in
my soul
only life can teach
you wisdom
buddha was thirty five
when he became
enlightened he then
spent the rest of his
life doing something
he knew he could
never do- teach another
person how to become
enlightened
perhaps silence is a word
a better word perhaps the
only word we need to hear
no wonder god keeps
quiet no wonder i hear
hush

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a falling star
asking me do you
know where you
are
yes i said i am
home
the more i let go
the deeper my roots
grow
i'm thinking if i stay
long enough in one
spot everything i need
will come round to me
like a tree
you found me here
that's all the proof
i need

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some of me has
a castle in the sky
me myself and i have
a temple inside
this vision of the soul
i'm told is just around
the rivers bend just
around the rainbows
end just around the
bend of reality or so
it seems
perhaps its only buddha
verse found in a poets
dream perhaps its only
the universe found in
a beam of eternity
i'm glad my soul feels
like home when i roam
feels like forever feels
like a wish and feather
feels like church feels
like a temple of dreams
and beams of verse in
rhyme through time

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its the duty of a great
heart the duty of the
wise the duty of the
blessed the duty of an
old soul the duty of the
poet the duty of the
shaman the duty of the
priest to invoke the spirit
of every belly button to
tell beyond the deepest
hells there is always a
greater good to feel
you will always find the
strength to find the
truth to know the
future is not our
destruction the future
is our glory

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i've seen it all
fall i have the strength
of many
broken dreams the most
painfull truths are
my own
i can see clear through
you you can see clear
through me may we all
see clear through what
appears to be
reality
with a thousand ears
and a hundred eyes
i search inside
mr soulfull and miss
bowlfull my spirit
guides and all i find

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when i walk
i always find a
leaf or feather
to keep me company
and together we
think of you my love
we think of you in
love we think of you
and rise above as
doves
i think of you and
realize whys
beyond this land
of the haves and the
have nots there is
a joy i will meet
you there

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some are driven
by lust others would
rather die than rust
what do i do
to turn you into us
where do i touch
so say the scheming
wizards and demons
right and wrong are
hungry wolves you
must decide every day
which to feed
love and hate share
the same fate same
with fear and dread
i hear said
ain't got no time to
hate i'd rather be
crazy than afraid
with your love i roam
in the wonder of the
circle of life
with your love i'm home
in the thunder of the
circle of might
with your love i am
shown my blunders
within the circle of
light
sacred hoops and holy
oops my beloved
i do not come to you
to judge i come to
you to love

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i wish i knew
how i know
i can tell in the wink
of an eye in the clouds
of the sky in the way the
shadows go on parade
in the hush of dusk
in the flicker of the
flame in the flicker
of the stars the twinkle
ahhh yes there there
it is the twinkle
the sparkle the joy
of your smile

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do you know
you showed me
your soul
and i applaud
and shine up
mine

i need to touch
to know i need
to kiss to tell
how deeply in love
i fell

you are my evening
poem my feel
my knowing
to honor your
showing

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a heart that sings
has a soul with wings
you teach me
perfect harmony
a few will nod a few
will applaud all that
are close to god
those with the voice
of thunder those that
see with a sense of
wonder those that know
the spirit never blunders
the beauty of singing
along is we'll sing your
song like a higher choir
and please sing sing
till you earn your
wings

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you remind me
of my love of snow
on a full moon winters
night deep in the woods
of my soul
you remind me
of my love of feathers
of my love of the leaf
of my love of geese of
my love of hawks in
my thoughts
you remind me
of my love of trees
of the mountains
of the sea of spirit
of you and me
you remind me
of your love of me
with this cupfull
your creation of
my place of my
space of my grace
for all to see

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you send me deep
deeper than nakedness
deeper than bliss
deeper you insist
deeper than must
deeper than all of us
deeper where you
have to bring the light
deeper deeper than
might deeper than
maddness deeper than
the deepest night
here is where our
togetherness is our
touch of foreverness
in all we are and all we
do my beloved
for you

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i face it embrace it
then let it go
i've been gratefull
for the sacrifice
all my life
sometimes i forget
how beautifull women
can get
i'm back there now
where everything
is possible is possible
i've always felt those
with bellybuttons were
chosen to help
there is more to this
bliss ask to be shown
your gifts ask your
thoughts to hear
your heart
ask for the courage
to be yourself to love
yourself to heal
yourself
and face it embrace it
then let it go
and grow

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may the wind
chime you home
may you give your
worth to the earth
may you learn to be
the water that burns
and have the desire
to be the fire that
quenches
may you know no
fear for the spirit
is here
i see you my beloved
way up high in the
sky i see your creation
way down low below
my soul is tugged
my body is hugged
my heart is loved
from every direction
this is me in the
middle of your
constant riddle
all i ask is please
one more day like
today one more
way to see one more
poem please

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you are the song
of my heart
i feel you i hear you
i find you in my art
i know you in my soul
millions of moons
ago
some say miracle some
say majick i say thank
you my beloved
you are the church
of my constant search
my constant birth
my love my worth
to stay pure and true
to say this blessing
i love you
perhaps from a distant
star perhaps out loud
with the thunder of
the clouds perhaps
a whisper only you
can hear to say i love
you perhaps when
you must have my
touch

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i swear the clouds
went behind the moon
you are a woman
of sand in no man's
land
i give you my love
but you want control
you want my soul
one touch and i hate
the way you make
me lonely
nothing has ever
prepared me for this
insanity this maddness
of want and fear
at my fingertips
i know now what makes
me crazy and if i could
stop there would be
no more teardrops
if i could stop there
would be no more
rage if i could stop
all i'd need to do
is turn the page
and if i could stop
i would not
fly into the flame

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maybe one day
my path will lead
back to you
might be some times
you'll find yourself
in a line or two in a
poem or two
for this is love
beginning and ending
the choice must be
made every day
like the rains with no
personal wants or gains
love is never the same
and rarely sane
there is a wisdom
when you get your ego
out of the way
a knowing
i'll see you again
some day

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roll soul
rock and roll
soul roll right along
i heard through the herb
the soul is a verb a word
with wings a word
that sings
the body is a templefull
the heart is a chalicefull
the soul is a bowlfull
of light
glowing flowing into flight
into song thousands of years
long
blessed be
every soul has a song
let yours sing
right along

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my beloved
i am moonstone in sunlight
i am the flicker of the flame
i am might
the cross that i bare is a
square
all men are holy
all women are sacred
i hold my square in the
air
we become what we love
we become what we hate
see the view clear
through
we are all blessed
none the wiser
none the less
and my own point of
view
sanity is just a
shuffle of papers
though i may not know
may i see
though i may not see
may i know
thats what i'm talking
about
the strength of love
is to hold
the strength of love
is to let go
this world of words
where language makes
everything possible
i am like the words
the bridge the tree
between earth and
sky the bridge of heart
and soul the bridge
soul to soul
to soul

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you lift my eyes
to the sky
a buzzard or two
brought your thank
yous
i've yet to hear
the hawks talk
they visit me often
sitting in the trees
above me
everytime i search
for their reason
i'm told time and
time again one
word trust my son
and when i ask
through my intuition
what is to become
i only find one word
on the tip of my
tongue hush my son
this poem
my deepest respects
to all the many
wordless birds i've
met
in retrospect
you remind me of
the many times in
my life i've heard
your words
rest assured

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after her massage
i felt like a greek
god i felt like my
body became the
sod i knew why the
hawk had given me
the nod
to touch once is never
enough twice is like
another puff and the
third is when words
can't say as much
to feel you feel me
yes i see yes i feel
yes i touch deeper
than desire i feel
to heal
she can nourish your
soul through these
hands and when you
are ready to stand
i'll teach you to see
through your hands
how to be told the
thousands of years old
ways to touch to heal
body and soul

 

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what a beautiful
beautiful day
the sun melts me
not into a puddle
but into the sky
velvet sunshine through
my mind love budding
on my mind a ease
a simplicity enters my
mind and all i said
was please
the colors the glory
before and after
noon squints my eyes
i feel so alive finally
winter has died inside
as hard as yesterday
the softness of today
for some reason i am
sad i don't sprout
leaves
i'm going to shed
most of these clothes
and come to you
naked on the breeze
and all i can say
is please

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honor high
my cross of the midnight
sky i cross over and fly
inside
i am called to listen
i am called to prayer
i am called to poem
to take the talking trail
the paper path
you touch the tip of my
nose and i know i am
home
i sit by the stream
of my dreams the brook
of books the pond of
poems
as the moon takes her
turn to watch over me
the crescent the biggest
smile i have ever seen
look into my eyes and
i will mirror your soul
read my poetry and
look at life sacredly
find the many ways
to touch your love
and love will find the
many ways to touch
you too

 

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i had a memory melt
extra onion
no sense in keeping
alive what keeps us
from being alive
if you sense my pain
then you've known
sorrow
i no longer roam
the past i no longer
escape into the
emptiness of
tomorrow
i stay into today this
moment the eternal
now and wow and
how
i'm told life is not
a tragedy life teaches
us forgiveness
and if you ever want
to feel the power of
god
then find the strength
to forgive
then the healing can
begin
there is no deeper
pain there is no greater
power than love

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no way
i can't say
no
to you
in my heart
i can't say
no to you
when we're apart
if you want more
don't come back
call
i will find my way
to you
you know i can't
say no to you
in my arms
i am the petals
at your feet
i am the rock
you are atop
you are the words
purest and true
that i speak
a poem
my love's release

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an eagle soars
above the woods
of my soul
a hawk hunts my
fields
though i know
i'm not told where
i go though i know
you won't see me
unless you're looking
for love though i
know i cannot lead
or follow
with no hocus pocus
i feel its real when
my focus is in
focus
i always find the
strength to find
the truth
it takes roots up
through your boots
it takes a beloved
my muse
it takes what the
wings bring
to put my life
in use

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when i see a hawk
i know when god
talks don't expect
words
i feel my soul goes
where the geese fly
as god guides
the love of my heart
this dove unites me
nightly
and the hawks take
me farther farther
then thoughts
taught the buzzards
are my brothers
and i learned
to duck
these words those
words this word
i first soared when
i stopped keeping
score
i know the glory of
your gifts to me as
i give them away
freely
beyond this world
of words soar god
help us seek once
more

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i am a light
in the night
i am a shadow
on the snow
you'll know where
i go when you get
there
you can't say it with
words yet language
makes it possible
gives it a sense truth
or consequence as
words can be bent
swirled and twirled
heaven sent
written on every leaf
on every tree heard
in every crack in
every rock
there is no lack of
source no lack of
light i am the day
i am the night

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i will only do
what your guiding
hand commands
to cuddle
i offer my touch
to turn you into
a puddle
i offer this tongue
so sweet and
subtle
please reply with
closed eyes please
respond to my endless
caress please answer
a soft kiss
come with me
be one with me
through all your highs
inside through the
love in your eyes
let fly our soul

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let me out to play
let me play out on
upon the sea let me
feel deep deeper than
bottom deeply deeply
where you have to bring
the light deeply within
in sight
let me in to soar
let me soar the skies
inside
more and more
the hawk talk soars
and soars with no
words as silent as
these wings of love
above
the eye and mind
one through time
one with might one
in sight

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the strength of love
is to hold on
the strength of love
is to let go
once you felt the bliss
this becomes some
serious shit
miles deep through
clenched teeth
selflessly
through the flame
the eye of the
other side
candle to candle to
candle the light lives
the love gives the
might is his to heal
is hers
the oneness tears me
all apart the twoness
the plural heart the
sacred threeness
our weness

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another hawk in the tree
above me
i thank you deeply
i am in awe of this call
may i make the sign
of the cross
my god is this from my
father or my mother
my beloved
you return up above
with your eternal
love
guide me please
through your eyes
through your skies
i feel so all
alive
looks like i'll be
providing the words
for this song of sacred
feather this song that
brings us together this
song that lasts
forever

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mr crow in your soul
what is the cargo
of your caw
i could tell by your
tone you're flying
home i can tell by
your flap you'll be
back
once you called to
me as a contrary
and we flew beyond
right and wrong
now you show me
how morning's light
lasts all day
and why there is no
rush in the loss of
light at dusk
and where does the
light of the day
always play
i see you fly way
down deep inside
first sign of spring
you melt me from
within

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to see through a
warriors eyes
the cloud people the
geese speak the melting
snow the robin the
crow
to see through the
threshold of prose the
poets soul the poems
home rambling on
inside alone
another night another
snow miles deep
and years ago
please give winter my
love my deepest regards
to the moon and
stars
i see through the past
what lasts may i see
please like a hawk
through bare trees
what my future
will be

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come to us
wingspread
be with us
life said
talk with us
word wed
sing with us
spirit led
cry with us
heart bled
laugh with us
soul fed
dance with us
instead

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i am one of a sum
of a million suns
a oneness of the flame
you ask
i am fission and fusion
i am ash
one by one the task
of each sun the
completion
where ash is just the
beginning where the
rays of light unite
the source the flame
of the heart sacred
and eternal pure and
true selfless clear
through
and if you're not afraid
to burst into flames
as most hearts do
may you ignite the night
with the love of your
light
and may this sun take
its place amongst
the stars

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there are rainbows
in your tears to
come joyfull the hush
here comes dusk
the snowflakes fill
my beard in a flurry
and like all winter
nights there brings
a worry and a wonder
the crack and pop of
the embers the song
of the wind the moon
rise the crack and pop
of the skies crunch
of boot as hard as
solitude as hard as
winters are
i asked to be left alone
easiest way to stay sane
but i have the warmest
hands and may you
have needy feet i
give good foot
just so you know
i'm not alone when
you are thinking of
me
come see where
winter sleeps next
to me

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that hawk flew
so close to me
in a flash i could
of caught him
in my hat
to be a part of it
and apart from
it healing and dying
to have roots
to soar
what does it mean
i'm not sure though
i know i saw you
once more
i have a large hat
all of some and
none
the dread of the
mystery the bliss
hidden
in darkness and
creation the
bliss
the burden the
bliss the struggle
the bliss the love
of this the bliss

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make peace make peace
make peace
who is this
then i heard john
laugh he took my hand
and we walked this
land dreamers
when i write every day
i write about every day
things
when i write to you
i hear the whole world
sing
i open you and i am
every snowflake every
star afar i am the man
in the moon or have i
spoke too soon
i think i'll make me
some peace put it right
here in my heart and
watch as spirit becomes
art

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thaw me
in half
pour his and hers
into yours
raise your glass
the chalice of your
heart
drink this ink with me
savor the flavor of
paper taste grace
be your tongue
of intuition
i was told by a crow
i'm back in the day
twilight says to fill
my head with daylight
to witness the day as i
have embraced the night
help me i'm one of the
frozen help me its
supposed to snow help
me back in the day

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lift your head
hear what is said
free me
with the keys of
kisses across the
thresholds of tongues
in the hands of every
heart
keep me
deeply in touch deeply
in lust deeply in must
only you can keep me
free tethered to this
earth like a tree

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i bring you
a giving heart
i miss you
a grieving heart
i love you
a living heart
pure and true
you'll see
keep an open heart
and believe

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outside
a hard winters night
and there you are inside
my closed eyes
every time i open my eyes
please open my mind
to see please open my
heart to speak please
open me like you did
when i was at sea
open me like you do
when i go crazy open
me please like you have
done with the joy of
many loves with the
flutter of many doves
with every hug
open me

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i am deeply in luck
with you blessed be
i believe
there is a charm to
your chime i hear
the rings and the dongs
and every ding of
your breath
when i walk i always
walk towards you
when i talk i wonder
if you're on the tip
of my tongue and there
you are within the
tug of my hug
you love me so much
you taught me touch
i love you so much
my poems touch
and i recall your call
your whisper
my child
poem
me

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the mend