TAKES A BRAVE HEART -------- ©2016 Lawrence A. McFadden all rights reserved
 
CHAPTER ONE
 
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please point
me in the direction
of heaven
all anyone could say
it must be some
some where
else
or else you must be
dead
but i am alive
with crave i have so
much lust i have the
smile of joy i have
the strength
the might the light
i have the power
of love i have a great
heart full of spirit
full of art
you're the one with
a false god
go fuck your self
you are truthless
truthless and
truthless
you will impose
your will
i'm glad your devil
keeps you in
hell
you say you know
and do the only
true god
i can only say then
yes its true you are
a foolish foolish
fool
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call her
Wisdom! Wisdom!
Wisdom!
you hate her
because you have
been lied
to
you hate her
because she is
greater
you hate her
because you
fear her
you hate her
because you crave
her touch so much
you will burn
in hell
really? do tell
only those who
try to put out the
fire are burned
by the flames
if you want to stop
the tug of war with
your devil then just
let go of the
rope
she calls to all
and chooses a few
you just won't find
her love sitting
in a pew
you'll just get lied
to
they hate her
because they fear
her
 
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you feel it
in your bones
in your bones
when you're
alone
like the cold
the snow filling
your soul
the only warmth
a memory the only
fire ash
if it was only one
night or only some
nights
not a life
alone
but the darkness
gave me this vision
of light this vision
this insight
but its in my hands
not being touched
gave me the gift
of touch
my caress is very
very precious
i don't know if you
will ever know how
fully you filled an
empty life of empty
nights
i pray you never
know my crave
you may have a million
kisses of fun
but feel me on this
what if
you only had one
you have had a life
of lovers
but feel me on this
what if you had
none
i know you know
exactly what i'm
talking about
all my life i have
been chosen to be
the frozen
one
but you can't
freeze fire
all i have to do
is touch
you
 
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did i mention
the ascension
to rise above through
love
every decision you
make maps your
fate
i can kiss and tell
how to pull you
out of your hell
how to be high
higher than hell
ring that temple
bell
kiss the sky
as you rise
i dig deep to reach
the sun its your
choice to be a chosen
one
to rise above through
love
it all starts when you
open your
heart
and call out to your
god 'i want it all'
pray for the courage
it takes to make
mistakes
pray for the madness
that makes all things
possible
pray for the grace
it takes to face
reality
there is no more
need to hide
step into the light
kiss me as you
fly by
to rise above
through love
instead of finding
the only one for
you
what if you found
two
why would you have
to chose
i know these are only
words but what if
you found a
third
what if i said in your
head there are stairs
to heaven and every
step a dance
every breath and love
is god above
and we all rise
to kiss our god
of the skies
inside
 
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these are the
fundamentals
the thundermentals
the wondermentals
be gentle be
humble be
kind
when you are afraid
just say 'i'm stronger
than that'
just say 'this too shall
pass'
just say thank you
just say i love you
just say please
majickally
close your eyes
and look with your
heart
don't talk
touch
i can hear your heart
from here
its not a trick
its art
my god i know how
you feel oh my god
its real
 
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i must
do three things
wait wait and
wait
to navigate the
madness is my
fate
i always do my
best and i am told
to stay high
i'm told all i need
to do is stay
alive
and let the spirit
do the rest
i know i'm an old
fat lazy hippie
but i have a heart
of gold my caress
is blessed i'm kind
all the time and i
make love
poem
with you my house
is a home
all you need is to
touch me touch me
to see
close your eyes
and see
you can believe
in my kiss
you can believe
in me
 
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please curl up
in my lap like a
cat and take
a nap
i want to feel
heaven and earth
quake when you
awake
i feel my heart
pound pound pound
when you come
around
i know the only way
to keep you is to keep
you free
i just can't wait
for our next
embrace
i feel naked and you
feel sacred
i know there are many
years to come
but in this moment
i stand alone like a
rock like a
stone
in this moment
i can touch your
heart your
soul
in this moment
the hawks come
soaring through
my thoughts
 
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i go from
your lips and tongue
to poem
i speak from the
peaks of all my tiny
feats
i want to be the spark
of the poem in your
heart
i want to bless you
with my i love
yous
bless you with my
endless caress and
share a holy smoke
make little intimate
jokes
and laugh about the
past to touch all day
today
and may i quote
my heart with what
love spoke
 
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being still
is the will
of my
god
but i cannot
just be
i must become
i must lust
i must touch
i must must
this is just
me
being me
happily
 
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tell me
when do we
begin
we will have
more fun than
sin
do tell i'm high
as hell ring that
temple bell
holy smokes
we will have
a holy smoke
and pray
for once and
for all to answer
the call of
god
 
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this is the way
i do it
i dig deep
to reach the
sun
i close my eyes
to see
i pray blessed be
the insanity
what makes a great
heart is a brave
heart
what makes great
art is the way the
spirit sparks
the faith the fate
the grace the face
of god
and goddamn
why is it so hard
why does it take
and take and take
a life of sacrifice
why does it take
the wound of your
very doom
why must i break
and break and break
and break
free
ahhhhhh yes
to be free now i can
open my eyes
i see
 
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how long
is this song
of longing
the beauty
my friend
is it never
ends
one touch
is never enough
why must i
must
i really enjoy
the lust
i can set this
page ablaze
just thinking
about you
the fire makes
me pure and
true
and when i'm
done i am simply
ash
cast me into the
wind and smell
the smoke of me
lighting my bowl
to do it all
over again
 
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i have nothing
to say
i write better
that way
let the words
choose let the
phrase play
find the simple
rhyme
think of the fun
we could have
tongue to
tongue
that my love
is a poem
may i always
ask what more
can i do after
i poem
you
 
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i want
the love i love
to be our
love
i'll just wait
have faith and
see
i hear the drums
lets dance
i'll tend the fire
of romance and
braid the flames
yes i know i'm
insane
the crazies have all
the gifts of
bliss
all i need
is a kiss on each
eyelid
all i need
is your breath
near my
ear
we can do it
all i want is to
make you laugh
help you love
let you see
majickally
and then just
set you
free
 
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do you hear
what i hear
do you see
what i see
blessed be
the insanity
you just have
to realize there
is nothing wrong
with being
crazy
there is a bliss
to craziness there
is the giggle
the goofy grin
this is not
a sin
it just makes you
love and laugh at
the life you are
living
i have the courage
of crazy i have the
crazy of crazy
why must it always
be called insane
why not nonsane
desane consane
unsane
funny you don't
hear them
complain
from the madness
comes the grace
from the madness
comes the gift
i like to boast
about my pathos
so many of you all
are scared stiff of
madness
but i know you'll
go crazy if you
don't go
crazy
 
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XXX
i don't want
much just a sip
just a puff
i do want
to give you
my touch
to pleasure
you
our sacred lust
to pleasure beyond
measure
is our holy holy
treasure
with hearts
of gold and the kiss
of forever the dance
of now or never
the flicker of the
tongue a mouth
full of love
i hope you believe
how strong this
makes me
how strong our
love quakes
me
how hard i come
on the tip of your
tongue
 
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do you remember
my touch
i want new memories
of you
i want to give you
my love fresh and
new
its been years
but i hope you don't
mind i still make
love to you all the
time in my
mind
you know i lust
you know i must
what i have missed
most is your
kiss
i think of nothing
else but how your
lips and tongue
will melt
i think of nothing
else but the beauty
we once felt
 
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i'll do everything
you want me
to
i won't stop untill
you do
no brag just fact
imagine that
my gift to you
the kindness
the gentleness
the strength
i have the touch
of madness the
touch of gladness
the touch of i just
can't get enough
i know you laugh
at my offer it
giggles me
too
but i am one of
the few who know
what to do
its a gift to open
your heart a kiss
of sacred
bliss
i just want the want
of you it just takes
two
to make this art
art
 
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your touch
is powerfull enough
to touch
i feel naked and you
feel sacred
me and you have
the charm of not
to harm
you are the art
of my spirit
sparks
you are the voice
you are her choice
the real
feel
the bliss
is god's gift
now i know what
forever feels like
i will feel this way
the rest of my
life
 
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kiss me
to death
kill me
with kindness
i open the door
to let every thought
in
i open the door
to let every thought
out
trouble me
my queen
make me feel
your touch
bless me with your
wisdom bless me
with the longing
bless me with your
sacred twists
show me your
tits
another bowlfull
this is good
shit
these are the visions
watch this
this is the love
feel this
this is my poem
this is my bliss
this is my
kiss
 
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i see
the steeple
of the cloud
people
they have given
me visions
they have given
me sights of pure
delight
i am proud to be
called crazy
cloud
if i tried to show
you this tribe
there would only
be clear blue
skies
just pray for a
partly cloudy day
and dance in your
heart dance naked
dance sacred
show the skies your
love is alive tell the
skies you're ready
to fly inside
and be proud
when you find your
self atop a thunder
cloud
 
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of all the women
who say they love
me
there is no one
loving me
the no always hurts
no matter how much
fun it is to chase
skirts
i can make you dance
i can make you giggle
i can turn you into
a puddle
all i ask is to
cuddle
those into me know
the beauty of
intimacy
those into me know
my crazy
those into me know
i broke free
those into me know
all you have to do
is ask
its your decision
i cannot take
i must be given
when i hug you
i won't let go till
you do
you can talk about
true love
you can talk about
pure joy
in this the world
of words
but please come with
me to the palace of
chalice and phallus
please come with me
to where tongues
touch tongues
please come with me
and we will make
our love
loving
 
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all i do is drool
thinking of
you
thank you for making
an old man
happy
you give me love
thoughts that can't be
bought
you give me healing
feelings
i can love you
from here
but get close my love
get closer to my
tongue
i will pleasure
beyond measure
come visit
the beauty of this
fills me with
bliss
my touch is my
gift i will do all you
wish
but these are only
words of grace
i want to kiss
i want to taste
our treasure is when
we will be together
i will touch you
for hours
this is my
power
 
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cup of your breast
to caress and undress
warm oil hot
breath
my lust for you never
rests
i will boldly hold you
and do what i'm told
to
say i'm the one
with the touch of your
tongue
my hands are your
medicine
amen
our love is always
ablaze ablaze i say
every day
our treasure is our
pleasures last
forever
 
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you make me grow
like the sun
like a rose
you make me glow
like the moon
in my soul
i have loved you
long long
ago
 
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a
leaf dropped in
on me and wouldn't
leave
a
feather of forever
flew above me in a
line of geese
they weren't in a
V
these are the signs
of my spirit guides
its up to me to make
sense of these
i sense see
but i've been taught
to wait and
see
if nothing else
they make great
poetry
just you wait
and see
 
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completed
thats how i feel
completed
i have love happiness
and lust
i know you want
my touch my pleasure
you say yes
forever
ring that temple
bell lets get high
as hell and get
naked
i'll always believe
our sex is
sacred
at my age i still love
to crave put your
tongue in my ear
and i will come for
years and years
and years
at least thats what
i hear
its all about the
passion of passion
its all about a really
good tongue
lashing
its all about stroking
the fire and braiding
the flames
i am happy you are
happy and i know
i've heard the thank
you from deep in
your soul
 
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some people think
getting what they want
will make them
happy
nope
the more you get
the more you
want
some people think
doing what they want
will make them
happy
nope
you are only happy
because you chose
to be happy when you
do what you want
to
you chose not to be
happy
this is so easy to say
but very few people
are happy
its only happy time
because of this or
because of that
till satisfaction
but true happiness
is the choice to be
happy no matter
what no matter
when no matter
why
 
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it takes a brave heart
to make a great
heart
i'm only a little crazy
from what would drive
you deeply
insane
pray for love to have
mercy on your
soul
to cast the castings
aside to find the healer
inside
i sing this song all night
long all life long for all
the women who made
me strong
i will lead the way
with a poem
a day
be care full my caresss
is endless
be care full my kiss
is full of
bliss
be care full with a
wish
i want to be last
seen leading the way
of a love
parade
 
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a
man
once said
loneliness is
more precious
than life
now i know
i am not
alone
 
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i just need
to be touched
to be stoned
come make my
house a home
i want to be with
you alone
all the ladies run
away its the women
who stay and say
i would love
to
i would love
to touch
you
this is my kind
of kind a man
kind
larry time
my palms are
strong with calm
i want everyone
to see how you
bless me
i want everyone
to know the temple
of my soul
i want everyone
who feels me
to feel a little
healed
 
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CHAPTER TWO
 
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i want to touch
beauty
i want to give you
joy
is it ok if i never go
away
is it ok if i think of
you all day and ache
for you all night
i sense a kiss on your
lips i see my love
in your eyes
everytime we hug
i fall deeper and deeper
in love
hold my hand and i'll
know you under
stand
 
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muse me
be the part of my heart
that makes my art
cry for the joy
of you
i have had years of hard
tears you too
have a deep deep pool
of i love yous
i know you are broken
the pain the blame the
fire the rain
your eyes told me to hold
you to hold you
close
i won't let go
i know i won't let go
ever
you have touched me
sweetly completely
i'm ready to go i'm ready
to start to mend you
you have the gift of a
broken heart
then lets go on tour
first my soul then
yours
 
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its like you pushed
play in my heart
i feel your rhythm
your vibe the
beat
may i play sweetly
deep with my
poetry
seriously to mend
each other's lives
lives of earth wind
and fire
the water that burns
the fire that quenches
damn it why are we
flesh when we could
fire
but when i hold your
hand when i touch
you
i am wet with joy
i stream love
i puddle i pond
i release i bond
i release i bond
i release i bond
i am only human
i am earth wind
and fire
i am the frozen one
you are the flame
yet when we touch
we are not crazy
we are the
same
 
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on the nip of your nose
i will meet you there
at the tip of your toes
i will meet you there
where ever your heart
goes i will meet you
there where ever your
tongue goes i will meet
you there
there is nothing greater
than to feel two hearts
beating beating as one
there is nothing stronger
than our love
all you need is a brave
brave heart all i need is
your hand and touched
lips
i promise i will always
do my best for you
i want a true love
i want a true love
do you
 
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i want to lick off
all your tattoos
i want to put my
tongue in one ear
and out the other
i want to mouth
your mind
may we hold hands
may we touch lips
until you get your
wish a kiss so hard
its simple so soft
it rocks
the whole wide world
knows your name we
all suffer the same
pain
i can mend you with
my touch i can give
you the strength of
my heart i can give
you the power of my
love
hold my hand and i am
at your command
 
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i quit
i surrender
all i want to do
is mend you
i will not fight
i will not argue
all i have is the light
of us all i feel is the love
of us all i do is heal
us
take my hand if you
understand
may i take your hand
and touch lips
too
when we touch
we know how we feel
when we touch we
know our love
is real
 
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you are one of her
doves one of her drums
one of her children
one of her lovers
cover to cover the glory
of our love story
the happy ending the
happily ever after
just a dream within
a dream come true
and we have only just
begun me and you
i want to love all of
you i know you love
all of us so much
i will only do what you
think is best for you
i will not say no
you are my turtle dove
you are love
so far are i so far as
doves fly
i include everyone in
my love of you
even if it takes years
before we make love
i just know we will
then make love for
years and years and
years
please remember
my turtle dove you are
being a being of love
being loved
 
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CHAPTER THREE

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come a little
closer
i will share my
touch my luck
my fire
come a little
closer
my fate is to
radiate
come a little
closer
my heart is open
my hands are at
your command
come a little
closer
show me i'm the
one with the tip
of your tongue
come a little
closer
it is hard to rock
you softly
it is hard to lick
me smooth
it is hard to love
you
 
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may i give you
this page this bouquet
this rage of i love
you's
will i touch you today
will your lips still want
my kiss
will you take away my
ache i offer you my
tongue
you say our time
will come
but my clock is broken
i am not sane my lame
brain dick in my hand
refrain
i want and want and
want till i want
no more
hurry my love
i will turn to ash
hurry my love
thats all i
ask
 
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you are heaven
to touch
i'm going to bust
with lust
please trust me
you think i'm just
like all the rest
you don't see i'm
the best
don't you feel the
love in my endless
caress
its a shame you feel
its a shame
you feel hurt
the pain of always
being blamed
all you can do is
sing the blues
you think my touch
too is sex
thats all everybody
wants from you
you don't see my love
is true you don't feel
my love is true you
just don't know my
love is true
yes i want you
my love is blue
you bless me with
i love yous
take my hand and i'll
know you understand
my gift to you is
my touch
 
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i open the door
for your thought
to come
i open the door
for your thought
to go
please stop telling
me what is wrong
thats just spreading
the disease
please stop telling me
about the past
please get past
that
i can help you enjoy
touch once again
only a false god
would call this
a sin
our nakedness is
scarred scared and
sacred
there are a thousand
kisses on my lips
there is my lick
i know why you cry
you have the biggest
grin when you look
into my eyes
you have the deepest
sigh in reply
i can mend your heart
this is my love this is
my art
this is why we are here
my body reaches for
you my tongue does
too
what is wrong is gone
when we are in each
other's arms
 
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a sip a puff a kiss
of the creative process
the want the need the
bliss of the creative
caress
the weness of my
penis
in the palace of our
chalice and phallus
pink then purple
hard and smooth
this is how i love
you
call me balls blue
may i lick off all
your tattoos
 
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i still see your smile
i am still in your
arms long after you're
gone
i still will
the crazies know who
the crazies are
we don't get very far
without each other
like lover to
lover
softly larry
softly
kindred sister
kindred brother
a lifelong love
for each other
a lifelong love
like no other
 
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i ache and ache
to penetrate
i make believe
i make do i make
sense of you
i know i make my
ache i know i can
not take i must be
given
thats what makes
it hard thats what
makes it ache thats
what makes it
love
i cannot take
i must be given
i make believe
its you
 
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CHAPTER FOUR

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XXX  SMUTT
 
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good god
i know you are alone
think of me and get
stoned
lets celebrate our
weness may i paint
your body with my
penis
may i stroke your
hair may i stroke
your thighs may i
cum between your
breasts
i will stroke you and
stroke you i will give
you no
rest
i know you are best
at giving oral sex
i get so hard with just
the thought
i get so hard knowing
you would really
enjoy sucking
my cock
i get so hard
all i ask is don't
stop
i get so hard
i get so hard
i get so hard
i cum so hard
 
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come to me
come to me
only you can come
and set my penis
free
you know you could
i'm told i taste
good
creamy with just a
touch of sweet
release
lets find something
fun to do with my
cum
lets find something
fun to do with my
tongue
my treat your sweet
release
i want you to come
i want you to come
and set my penis
free
release me
release me
only a woman's
touch can set
my penis
free
 
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you say
my balls
are like ping
pong balls
and your
tongue
the
paddle
i say please
paddle
paddle
paddle
 
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come with me
come with me
don't think its weird
when i brush your
body with my
beard
come with me
come with me
i keep my finger
tips smooth and
sleek
its your peach
i seek
come with me
come with me
i want you to know
you can always sit
on my nose
and cum fuck
my face
that would be
great
come with me
come with me
to the palace
of chalice and
phallus
there is power
full fun in the
touch of our
tongues
come with me
come with me
i know how hard
you'll suck i know
how hard you'll
rock the fuck
out of my
cock
 
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lets
hip the hop
i always cum too
quick when we
play good ship
lollypop
its your eagerness
its your happiness
its your must
all i can say is
don't stop the
lust
how can i thank
you with only a
word or two
i will lick you
till you turn
blue
its your love
to turn me from
pink to purple
you treasure my
penis
its your sacred
pleasure to give
me your naked
pleasure
beyond measure
your gift
and why you totally
blow me away
is i'll feel this way
forever
 
*******************
 
lay on your belly
i want to jiggle
your butt like
jelly
i'll let the warm
oil trickle down
between your
cheeks
and follow with
a caress of perfect
gentleness a caress
smooth and deep
sleek fingers
and fist
my endless caress
then my hot
breath
you will intimately
know my nose
the only thing
i won't do
is stop
we will just be a pile
of fun going wild
with our tongues
make me guess
where to touch
you next
 
*********************
 
you give me
liberty when you
touch me
you give me
freedom to
come
i give you
my tongue
i want anything
you want every
thing
all i need is the
flick of your
wrist the flick
of your lick
you put the joy
in my joy
stick
i love you like
crazy please
keep pulling
my daisy
 
********************
 
i must look
like a frightened
turtle down
there
a little mouth to
mouth a little hand
to mouth
my deep deep bliss
to grow hard slipped
between your
lips
you suck my little
fury long and hard
my glory
i come so hard
on the tip of your
tongue
knowing you are
having fun
knowing you want
me to come
 
*******************
 
its every young boys
dream to find my own
porno queen
you are in my head
giving me head
you are in my hands
doing what i
command
there are no words
when we go around
the world
every nation
penetration
a ride on route 69
doggie style down the
river nile
butt love up that old
hersey highway
singing the song
i did it my way
and when you're gone
i'll be lying in bed
with your movie in
my head
my lame brain
dick in my hand
refrain
 
*********************
 
think about me
long and hard
all i think about
is your lips and
tits
therapy the nipple
i was once an
emotional cripple
you can do everything
you want with my
penis our
weness
give it a good licking
it will keep on
ticking
i know you love
the taste of
purple
you know i love
the taste of
pink
just because its great
fun to come doesn't
mean its not sacred
to get naked
only a false god would
call our kiss a
sin
i think about you
long and hard
i feel it now
i feel it now
i'm feeling it
wow wow
wow
 
*****************
 
i will not take
you when you're
weak and vulnerable
i want you when
you are strong and
willing
you don't have to
keep saying yes yes
yes
just don't say
no
i will melt you
with each kiss
my tongue one
with your tongue
our bliss
you come and come
and come and we
have just
begun
you bring me to
my knees when you
feel me
good god god
i've had the best of
the best oral
sex
but i get the most
erect just thinking
of your jest knowing
you'll be the best
yet
 
*************
 
i want a little
slut love give me
a little butt
love
nut to butt
love
may we frolic
with your
buttocks
i can make you
come so hard
sleek fingers
and licks
my caress of hot
breaths
yes i know what
to do and so do
you
you will come
so hard i will be
so hard
i am throbbing
at the very thought
of humping your
rump
lets do that
last
i know how bad
you want my
tongue lash
i love butt love
give me the task
to kiss your ass
and i'll make you
come so hard
so often
my caress is endless
my tongue is endless
please enjoy my joy
of giving butt
love
please don't rest
till you've had
my best
 
***************
 
skin on skin
i'll warm the oil
lets let the strokes
begin
let me guess where
to stroke you
next
i'll do what you want
how you want where
you want when you
want my
want
i'll fuck you with my
nose fingers and
toes
i can tell when you
suck my dick you
love it
you moan and groan
i'm as hard as
stone
my cock hard as a
rock
my balls too full
for a mouth full
whoops!
here comes a bucket
full of cum
my fountain of the
lube of love
after the last wave
of crave i'll let you
rest with my gentle
endless caress
you always have the
biggest grin after we
are skin on
skin
 
*******************
 
 
CHAPTER FIVE

#########
 
 
i shine
where the sun don't
shine
a life of empty nights
gave me light gave me
sight gave me
might
i am gratefull
for the sacrifice
took me all my life
to heal
i found the healer
in me lets find the
healer in
you
to mend all your
boo boos
i stand with you
shoulder to shoulder
like boulders to boulders
we are bolder and
bolder
i am dragging the world
kicking and screaming
towards sanity with my
insanity
i love you so much
may i give you my gift
of touch
if you knew why
you would only cry
but shed no tear for
me that is not
happy
may we cry no more
may we weep
for joy
 
****************
 
i have the medicine
of the drum
i have the medicine
of the bow
i have the medicine
of the dream
i have the medicine
of love
i have the medicine
i must touch
i have the medicine
amen
the medicine in me
is the medicine
in you
feel me feel you
our hearts beat as
one
i have licked
the sun
but your fire
is hotter sweeter
and more
fun
may i braid our
flames
you won't find me
without joy
you won't feel me
without love
you won't find me
out there you will
only find me in
here in bliss
inside of a
kiss
 
***************
 
brother bear
the earth will not
harm you
do your best
all you have to do
is stay alive and let
the spirit do the
rest
i needed to get
what i got
taught
the geese speak
the robins teach
the hawks soar
through my
thoughts
my mind is just
a point in time
a monument to this
moment then gone
all you need is the
seed
the rupture then
free broke
free
ring that temple
bell lets get high as
hell
we will puff freely
we will feel really
goddamn i know
what you mean
to me
i am not allowed
into the future
but today today is
loud and clear
and yesterday
yesterday is a
million miles
away
these words are
my medicine
a paper path a
talking trail
a single thread
i tread through
my head
whats different about
me is i walk the talk
it takes a brave heart
to be a great
heart
it takes a life of empty
nights to see loves
lights
what are you able
to bring to the
table
do you have the courage
to heal you do you have
the strength to ask
for help
the strength to open
your heart and make
love an
art
i don't want to spoil
the ending of the story
but you'll find our
glory of god
is love
may i be the bridge
to your heart to where
god lives
jesus called it heaven
i call it earth
the cross that i bear
is a medicine
square
are you already ready
to do your
share
thank you brother
bear
 
**************
 
i see how you care
you too are a brother
bear
my gift is giving
i will lead the way
with a poem a
day
you have to be looking
for love to find
me
i am a being of love
being a human being
being a hawk being a
dove being a loving
being of love
i cannot just be
i must be being
i must become
 
**********************
 
all good things
rhyme in all good
time
blessed be the space
and place
its a every day
goodness its a every
night gladness
its my grace and
madness
you feel good you
taste good are you
good and ready
i am good and
plenty
are you the kind
of kind that comes
to mind when you
are always kind
i am
i have the strength
of god and the gentlest
touch
i have the love of god
a thousand blissess
deep
but most of all i am
kind all the time
you don't know my
worth till you realize
the kind will inherit
the earth
 
******************
 
i sit
next to the fire
next to my
heart
i pulse with the
rhythms of the
night
i beat as
one
i twirl this world
on the tip of my
tongue
i ask you
to come
i am glad i am
mad
i know the power
of a kiss
you are the very
gift i give
i have happy
thoughts that fill
my want with the
want of you
i have happy hands
to do with what you
wish
i'm glad i'm mad
there is no greater
bliss than being
a lunatic
 
*************
 
i'm afraid
i'm not afraid
the farther you are
away from me the
closer i am
to you
i know you hear
my heart i know
you see the spirit
spark
i know you know
the divinity the
infinity the insanity
of my
art
guess what word is
on the tip of my
tongue
would you like
a lick
call me sir ilickalot
but these are only
thoughts
to give you the beauty
of laughter to give you
the joy of the here
after
to give you my love
my love of tongue
and fun
to make love
loving
 
**************
 
i am out loud
you'll see me atop
a thunder
cloud
i stand proud
with might
i shine my love
my love i shine
i have no
doubt
i know this is real
because of how
i feel
how i am touched
the words make
sense my hands
make sense the
voices make
sense
everything you see
in the goddess
is in you
everything you see
in me is in
you
the mirror in the sky
the mirror of the
soul
everybody is looking
for the greatest
revelations
i see you in the tinyest
of situations
lets make love make
love my love
please say i would
love to because i love
you
 
***************
 
why must you
attach your ego
to your
spirituality
why must you
impose your
will
your intent is
hell bent
you do not have
an open mind
you do not have
an open heart
all you have
is brag all you
have is ego
you talk with no
reason you do not
walk with spirit
you are not
kind
you are ego
you will fight
everything you
will pray for things
to only go your
way
just know you'll
never know your
soul until you have
no ego
you have to get
your self out of the
way if you want to
follow your
heart
this ain't no big
secret its only the
start
please stop telling
me whats wrong
you are only spreading
the disease
all the guys say
i'm a shaman
all the ladies say
i'm a witch
bullshit bullshit
bullshit
thats only your
imagination
i know you by your
walk not your
talk
i don't care what
you say just do
what you
say
those who are
truely who they truely
are don't have to say
a fucking word
you would know
you would just
know
because they have
no ego
 
***************
 
keep it coming
we are the flutes
and drums when we
love someone
our song miles and
miles long just like
our smile to smile
bong
keep it coming
my weakness has
become my
greatness
i want to go deeper
sweeter i want to
soar i want to roar
once more
please stay the night
is just a day
away
keep it coming
my heart flutters
with the wings
of love
you make me glad
i'm mad
keep it coming
the joy of lover
to lover when we
are just us
the joy of touch
the joy of we must
keep it going
 
***************
 
i don't attract
weak people to
manipulate
i attract free
thinkers fierce
women and open
hearts
i welcome the
wounded i cheer
for the weird i fear
i have no fear
its your kiss on my
cheek without saying
a word
its the song of my
tongue having
fun
save me from reality
i can see clear
through
take me back to lala
land i want to melt
back into
you
i love our
goo
 
*********************
 
i sharpen my focus
a little hocus
pocus
i know this poem
it ain't never gonna
end
i know this poem
here it comes round
again
i know this poem
my hands my heart
my love a spirit
blend
my god do you know
what you have done
i am in love with
everyone
why must we suffer
why must we bleed
when you say love
is all we
need
ring that temple
bell those of us who
have found heaven
have been through
hell
 
******************
 
if i had stopped
at perfection i
would never have
gotten this
far
now i have reached
peace a quiet mind
a soul shine
its not a time or place
its divine grace
its a pure pleasure
its a feeling i'll have
forever
i am so glad i'm mad
i ask do you want a
task then point me
point me in the
direction of
heaven
 
***************
 
people who insist
on calling themselves
shaman don't know
shit
they say they did this
and they did that
imagine that
i cringe
its just their ego
putting on a
show
the truth is its not
you you you
you have to get
your self the fuck
out of the way
please let the spirit
work through you
like a hollow
reed
you are only the
vessel don't attach
anything to the work
of the spirit
you need to be a
hollow reed
its not about you
don't you
see
 
******************
 
we each are a piece
of a puzzle billions
of years old
a multi million
dimensional puzzle
of infinite pieces
the puzzle of infinite
peace
and i found exactly
where my piece fits
ain't that the
shits
how odd are those
long odds
i am strong i know
i'm right here where
i belong
i don't mind being
reminded i am a tool
my love is a fuel
i am the lube
this puzzle makes
me preach
may the church of
constant search show
you the sum of all
worth is peace on
earth
 
*****************
 
nothing will free me
like my love for the
sea
a history of mental
illness long hard winters
a life of empty nights
alone to the
bone
whats left of me just
toss me into the
sea
i'm going to get the
rest of my life
right
the sea is a blessing
to me
i hear the gulls of
love cry
i know my soul has
to go
i hear her call
after all
 
**********************
 
so many words
have wings
when you sing
the temple bell
rings
the choice the
choice is your
voice
to speak it is to
own it
yes there are words
that are yours
we are all given a
song to sing
our life song an all
your life long
song
you need to learn
it you need to earn
it
its your prayer
from god
a song to make you
strong a song to know
where you belong a
song to tell the glory
of your story
when you always sing
your best you will
always be
blessed
 
******************
 
may i make you
a meal may i feed
you whats real
from soup to are
you fucking
nuts
i'll cook it up
i've made love
before
i'll say grace
then we'll take
a taste
this is food from
god the spiritual
glue of me and
you
when we eat our
lives meet
the only thing i'm
hungry for is
more
i thank god i can
provide i thank god
for the love in our
lives
please eat all your
wishes
i will do the
dishes
 
***************
 
i'm taught to stop
structuring my thoughts
i've got to get out of
my head
i'm just not free with
all these thoughts
clinging to me
worry is a disease
stress just makes the
biggest mess
everything is doom
doom doom
kaboom
its god's test
not to know what
comes next
i'm not allowed to
peek into the future
when i'm afraid i just
say "i'm stronger than
that"
but its where thoughts
end that life
begins
 
*****************
 
jot this down
light this up
right this way
this is my
day
that is my
night
imagine that
but this is not
my fantasy
but this is not
my imagination
that is my
journey
that is my
love
that is my
path
 
****************
 
so i'm smoking and its cashed
so i strike the pipe against my
lighter and the burnt bud flies
out onto the sidewalk
and i see where it falls and its
still burning and this huge plume
of smoke starts pouring off this
itty bitty burnt bud and it keeps
smoking and smoking and smoking
this huge plume just pouring off
this bit of charcoal for like five
minutes
and i just watched the plume
dance entranced
i must say i walked away
amazed
 
********************
 
we become what we love
we become what we hate
what you choose becomes
a part of you
i cannot just be
i must become
the mystery
i want to know why
the hawks visit
me
why the buzzards
circle me
why the feather
gives me
sight
if i don't know
may i see
if i don't see
may i know
your message
to me
i've spent years
in thought of the
hawks
and i hear only
one word
i must
trust
 
***************
 
you have to stretch
reality or it just
won't fit
its not love
without a touch
of insanity
i am so glad
i'm mad
it makes me happy
to be happy
i'll bet i can get
you to giggle
its your turn to turn
you into a puddle
there is no struggle
in my cuddle
we have the power
of two
one plus one
in every i love
you
count me in
you need me for
my courage
you need me for
my crazy
i'm so glad you
appreciate the old
the fat the lazy
they say spirituality
is an infantile regression
yep i'm just one big
baby
and i can be a man
on demand
i hope you can see
clear through
i do
 
***************
 
all it takes
is one brave
heart
brave enough
to be broke
brave enough
to be ash
brave enough
to be loved
doom doom doom
the wound of the
healer
moon moon moon
the word of the
poet
soon soon soon
the work of the
beloved
its all about how
bravery gives every
one courage
its all about how
peace is within
reach
its all about how
love is given and
forgiven
and please please
its all about being
kind all the
time
 
*****************
 
CHAPTER SIX
 
######

death is a sad sad
muse
anger is a two dollar
whore
you have to crack
the prose and open
your heart
to the beauty of
poetry
the threshold
the entrance
the journey
the talking trail
the paper path
imagine that
you say its not real
but its the way i
feel when i feel
my way
i'm the third most
stubborn person i
have ever met
i'll wait all my life
i know i'm
right
i don't have to say
anything i don't have
to do anything
but i am a bridge
to your heart to
where god
lives
my job is to write
what more can i
do after i poem
you
 
*******************
 
if you walk my path
you will lose your
mind
you will step through
time
you will be blessed
with rhyme
i am tethered to the
wings and feathers
yes i want company
alone i could get
there quick
with all you
we would get there
together
please don't follow
me if you want
sanity
i just want to tag
along with
you
its true
i have nothing better
to do than love
you
i'm not going to
attach anything to
our love
not even
me
 
*****************
 
if you are not
totally amazed at
the end of every
day
then you are just
not paying attention
did i mention the
ascension the part
about a open
heart
how the deepest
roots soar through
the roof of the
sky
how every one you
know is now a unity
of community
a loven coven of those
you found looking
for you
may your life be the
truth
may your love be the
root
don't be afraid
the greatest nights
are only a day
away
 
*******************
 
i almost didn't
write but i can sit
with flute and drum
and poem some
one
my morning dew
the bliss a cup of
coffee a puff then
the creative process
makes this so please
take this to
heart
i want to go to the
sea and ask for the
reason i must have
to leave and go back
home
for the oceans rock
me still
my devotion
all i need is some sand
in my shoes to be
completely
free
how can i kiss
the sea
how can i
leave
 
*****************
 
i keep waiting
for the clouds to part
and this big booming
voice to say
and they lived happily
everafter
it all starts with the
queen of hearts
a love that just tears
you all apart
you break and break
and break till you have
the grace of
god
she says you must
destroy the boy
to be a man
and now i hold the
queen of diamonds
in my hands
she makes my love
shine all the time
i see her sparkle
inside
i give her all i want
and all i take is
my time
its a total win win
we make love
genuine
i'll see your smile
and raise you two
i love yous
 
 
*******************
 
there is a knowing
beyond the point
of knowing
beyond the point
of all thought
it can't be bought
it is only taught
in ways that can't
be taught
its just the school
of hard knocks
you need to talk
to the rocks
you need the hawks
soaring through
your thoughts
you need a mission
ring that temple
bell you need
intuition
a woman knows it
from the tips of her
toes to her nose
zit
its the only thing
i know to hold on
to
through away your
brain keep a little
crazy
you may not know
where you're going
but you'll know when
you get there
you'll find a sign
will come to mind
just in time
 
****************
 
i want to sit
on a cliff and see
the sea before
me
i want my emotions
to be in motion with
the ocean
i'll call it my rock
bottom
top
i keep crying
knowing the waves
are waving at
me
i'm not there yet
this is happening
to me
i have never felt
this strong for this
long
i want to know
what crippled my
soul
why was i doomed
why do i have this
wound
i feel her undying
love come alive
inside
i need to make
the past the past
at last
sealed with a kiss
please give me a
hand
i go deeper and
deeper
let me weep
keep me in your
keep
help me release
a life of grief
i am ready for
peace
with your love
and the sea
lets heal
me
 
***************
 
i wonder
if there is some
of me still beneath
the sea
i wonder if i'll know
when the sea is
beneath
me
i can't be sure
on the shore
i cannot see it from
here
i'll just feel
if its real
you would cry too
if you knew what
i've been through
i'm not going back
and i'm not going
to stop
i just want
completion
i want to say
you're welcome
for once and for
all for taking the
deepest fall
of all
and the sea is the
biggest thing inside
me
i have the strength
of what i've done
what i do and my
love for you
i know my life will
begin again anew
when i lose these
old sea blues
 
**************
 
 
i am a seeker
a sense seer
is there a man
amongst you who
can see clear
through
is there a woman
amongst you whose
love is from
above
this is our crew
we found you
they used to call
it group therapy
how our lives got
wrecked
now its all hands
on deck
our lives have met
to the sea we are
swept
 
**************
 
may we align
our minds
just in time just
in case just you
wait and
see
when we are in the
same place we are
in the same
place
and that is where
i want to be that
is where i
see
this is when this
is bliss
your place is in my
heart some
place
we will be happily
i must say every
day with you is a
rhyme that starts
with once upon
a time
 
**************
 
you gave me
my greatest hug
you hugged me
with all your
love
love is the root
of our pursuit
our search is our
church
our love is
loving
we are happy
because we live
life happily
i just want to
write this down
i love to find the
words to our story
we are glory
bound
 
***************
 
fake friends
they all say i'm the
greatest guy in the
world
yet i've always slept
outside their
door
i like just a little
love i don't need
to have it
all
but i can't give
just a little love
i must give
it all
people say they
love me i say show
me and they
flee
why do they make
love a disease
love is not an empty
word to me
all you have to say
is please please
me
they only want
to want
it drives me crazy
it makes me mad
it makes me sad
to be told i love
you and know
it isn't
true
 
*******************
 
you encourage me
with your powers
your medicine
with three
i do my very best
with the power
of two
and i am one on
one blessed to be
with you
my hands my heart
my love is ready
for you
may i encourage
you may i assure
you may i light
the way
i am the wiz
you are the lover
of lovers
together like sisters
and brothers
we are chalice and
phallus
we are everything
possible
all we need to do
is touch to feel
yes this is
real
 
*****************
 
lets not be something
lets be everything
if i say we and you don't
please say no no
just a little no no
to me and i'll
see
i just want to put poems
together when we are
together about being
together
your love is my mirror
i hope she is pleased
when she sees your love
is deeper deeper than
her sea
she will help me
keep you
free
 
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tell me
i seek the secret
its ok if you don't
i know its a
secret
how do you get
so far so soon
how do you love
so fiercely
where are my lovers
i guess they must
have the wrong
address to the palace
of my heart
they are few and
in between here
comes you
a sexual fire
so precise so exact
so ready to
explode
all i can do is wonder
why all i do is burn
out of control out of
bounds out of this
world
hell be damned
there is no greater
fire than love
and my love is on
fire
 
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today
is tomorrows
yesterday
when the night
is always just
a day away
sometimes it takes
a puff sometimes
i just totally
miss sometimes it
takes a kiss
when my poem is
scribbled in
bliss
when there is a poem
on your lips when my
words are a bridge
to your heart where
god lives
whats the most i can
do whats the most
i can say
but mostly what do
i want to do the
most
most of all i want
to love
its true i have
nothing better to do
than love
you
 
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i float my boat
with hope with joy
with dope
i sail my thoughts
all the oughts and
all the ought
nots
i have no fins
to swim
i have no reason
to cry when i wonder
why
i'll put a little extra
love in our hug
i'll touch the sun
with my tongue
when i am afraid
i say i'm stronger
than that
do you like my new
hat
imagine that
may i lead the way
with a poem a
day
i have no doubt
our love will sprout
a divine vine
i laugh
yes i am out of my
mind all of the
time
and no
i am not crazy
 
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i miss you
my kiss
you give me all
in all i give
you give me the
bliss of your nibble
the bliss of your
giggle the bliss
of your nipple
the lick of your
tongue
the harder i come
the harder i
fall
i still feel your body
reach for
me
i still feel your touch
preach to
me
i still feel your tongue
teach to
me
i am happy to say
i feel this way
for days
and every night
i remember your
light
 
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i will help you
see me
your lover is
strength
my love my love
is kindness my love
is timeless
my greatest strength
is gentleness zen
mentleness a forever
kiss
my love is touch
my love is caress
i am one of the
best
tell me if i pass
the taste test if we
can be a fest test
may i go down
test
may i teach the
teacher a test
of quest
may i give you
crazy may i give
you beauty may i
give you my
word
welcome
welcome
welcome
to my world
 
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holy shit
i felt a cosmic
shift my life
is rattling like
swords battling
oh no why did i
have to let
go
did my simple
want of a kiss
cause this
holy shit
all i know is
i'm going to love
this
a holy weness
has rocked my
penis
holy shit
why did the
universe have
to go and do
this
 
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you are heart
shaped smoke rings
they sing
i wear them like
bling
i can't get no higher
than that
beat me my heart
complete me my
art
the taste of
birth
i want to make love
through you with you
to you for
you
i give my all in all
i give
come
might as well
get high as hell
and ring that temple
bell
we are gods of the
sod and we have
the nod
 
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i get a thousand
things done a day
yet i have nothing
to do or
say
i rhyme a thousand
times kind sometimes
i make love
poem
my pen is my penis
my word is my
tattoo
my page lasts all day
today and all i can
think of is a kiss
between your
legs
may i come tongue
i am a very very hard
bard
i know when we're done
our souls will rest
as one
 
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are you not right
i am not wrong
lets go beyond
conflict
lets go beyond
knowing
lets go beyond
a kiss
lets go beyond
foreverness
i've been there and
back i've been there
and back i've been
there and
back
i don't need to come
to have fun
i just want to show
you i love you
my hands throb
i love the taste
of pink you love
the taste of
purple
we are circles and
circles and
circles
i keep finding time
and time again
i keep finding larry
after larry after
larry
and my shoes take
me to you
and my heart makes
this true
and my love is to
pleasure
you
i know you know
this
the greatest lovers
have the greatest
kiss
 
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i felt
a huge collective
sigh of relief from
those with
belief
this new path
i seek
i know i'm last
i'm past the past
at last
a million miles back
back there some
where
i taste the
birth
my come is a fountain
of love come with me
and set my penis
free
we my wee wee
we my pee pee
rock my rock hard
cock
i let you go a long
long time ago and
you're still
here
theres nothing
to fear
all i want to do
is pleasure you
any way you
choose
 
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the sage smoke
melts my mind
every time
a puff to the higher
realm
the spirit has my
pen
time to poem you
again
you are the star
atop my tree
you are the roots
through my
boots
i am the man
in the moon
loving you
i watch you dance
from afar star to
star to
star
to your spirit
i speak
to your love
i seek
in your heart
i peek
please whisper
in my ear have no
fear have no fear
have no
fear
please touch me
the way my words
touch you
i am naked
i am broken
i am high
the spirit of is
spoken of through
love
all i need is this
kiss for this to be
pure pure
bliss
 
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they took me away
today i was loving so
loud they had to hide
me in the
clouds
i had such a great day
they threatened to put
me away on some back
ward at the VA
i am sorry i can't
instantly gratify
it will take years to
truely touch truely lust
truely kiss truely
fuck
practice practice
practice
we've gotten it right
right from the start
of the spark in my
heart
this flame that
licks me
clean
this love is it only
a dream
this ache to never
make a mistake
this pleasure beyond
measure
fills my want with
the want of the want
to want
you
i know i must be
crazy to be this happy
happy to be happily
happily ever
after
 
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i no longer look
i sense see
in my book of life
my life is a
contradiction
its not what i have
done its what i didn't
do
the sweetest revenge
my long and happy
life
i am not the dramatic
i am the ecstatic i am
the blessed i am the
sacred i am the naked
i am the holy i am the
damned i just won't
quit
these are my gifts
i am the dynamic
i am the
shit
 
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i revisit
every inch of my
life
i get this taste
in my mouth
the taste of
birth
i get this hawk
soaring through
my thoughts
i get these visions
of indians that do
not talk
i have a whole
committee of insanity
guiding me
i make god laugh
i make the buddha
smile
i am touched
by my beloved every
once in awhile
i can make you giggle
i can tell i know hell
really well
i have the time to be
with you through
my mind
i'll let my shoes
take me to
you
i'll let my love
empower you
shower you
and devour
you
 
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the power
in our hands
the power
in our kiss
the power
in our lives
tells me why
power is a flower
yes this old hippie
remembers the fun
reaching for the
sun
knowing the bloom
will save us all from
doom
the bud the bud the
kind i love
for what its worth
the kind shall inherit
the earth
the sum of all worth
peace on earth
theres a flower bed
in my head where i
make love to
you
where does your
dream come
true
ask the flowers
to gift you their
powers
learn how they take
turns see their visions
in your decisions
hear them say
bloom with us today
its time to shower
every one with the
power of
love
 
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