THE BLACK OCTOBER SKIES -------- ©2013 Lawrence A. McFadden all rights reserved

the universe is
listening the stars
are glistening
your eyes sparkle
my mind
the only cloud in the
twilight sky
my heart my beacon
of love brighter than
the sun when my
beloved is on the tip
of my tongue
sing with joy she says
we have many mountains
to climb and many
moons to bless
get your rest she says
the best is yet
to come

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black cat scats
the tallest trees are
all talking back
the clouds are laughing
out loud
by all means
she says stand and cup
your hands
i give you this dream
the first beam of
halloween the first
call of fall these drums
of autumn need your
poems
i hold dear this time
of year i give you the
orange of my heart under
black october skies
through her eyes she
curves the curves of my
pen and i give to you
my words they flutter
in me like birds

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the wind suddenly
gusts and blows a lust
clear through me
i creak inside
like an old door
opening
to the path the core
i adore to the soul
the bowl the cup of
gods hands
lit by a moonbeam
lit by a beam of
halloween lit by your
dream
the wind my breath
of the mystery my
soul my window
the view of my love
when i poem you the
view of the skies in
your eyes i feel the wind
touch you too

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count me in
the court of the queen
of halloween
show me the dream
of your dreamers
make me the love
of your lovers
grace me please
sacredly
guide me through
the black october
skies to the other
side inside you
i offer a feather
of light i offer a
leaf of peace i offer
the medicine of my
touch
i bring to the table
these things i am
able
may i rejoice in the
harvest of my voice
to leave this world
of words and fly
to poem where the
choirs of our desires
sing her praise the rays
the ways of her
wisdom

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the wiffs of autumn
i smell the earth
like a woman
each sniff of the
rich dank dirt
alerts me as her
fertility steeps me
in arousals to
seek
my nose my god
i can smell every
rose
i am exposed to
every odor of your
body and soul
each scent heaven
sent
i lick the wind
to taste your
autumn

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i write my best
when i have nothing
to say i follow the play
of words i let my love
be heard
lead me my heart
to her stage
tell tell all who will
applaud the summer
will fall into wonder
the change of leaf
the chill that speaks
and spills into wonder
like a night that won't
let you sleep until the
black october sky shows
you your blunders
star to star to star the
wonder
when daylong and night
long are one equal in
the union of shadows
and in the communion
of light
the sacred night when
the harvest moon guides
you through the wonder
between the hallucinations
and halloweens to wander
with me
i follow my feet my path
of words to see when
i can again poem her
in wonder

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october skies
why why why
does this brave
heart cry
why do i stand
so strong when
all goes wrong
why does my love
turn blue
why why why
do songs have
to end why am i
always on the
mend
why must i
pretend why
must i depend

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give me wings
i want to be a man
in the moon
i need to brush your
cheek may my heart
always seek
give me one more
poem please
my anger becomes
my sorrow i need
your kiss to mend
i need your faith
in me i need our
love to never
end
i give you my best
never the less i
am a leaf falling
from the tree
open your heart
once more and
catch me

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raindrop
on my brow
from a cloudless
night sky
i do not know why
it just happens this
time of year
something keeps
knocking on my
door and no one is
there
call me a kook all
i can do is giggle
at being spooked
the wind is still yet
the leaves still rustle
and tumble
and sometimes beneath
the streetlamps i have
no shadow
my favorite time of year
you treat me with tricks
and i know there is
nothing to fear
only my mind screaming
get me the hell out of
here

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my walk talks
i find a leaf and feather
my companions
the leaf is my peace
the feather is to be
sacred together
to ponder the pond
and wander the weather
the drizzle the damp
chill that spills from
the sky
hot summer regret
the heat is now a
treat
i will bundle you and
keep you close to the
fire i keep close to
my heart
the many words and
worlds i walk through
with you when i walk
and listen
to the chattering squirrel
the flocks of robins the
geese the buzzard the
hawk
these are my talks of
love my walks above
the doves
this is where i touch
the earth this is where
the earth touches
me

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the path of leaf
falling from the tree
of love the aftermath
i hear her singing
as soft and gentle
as the night
i stay tuned and
tuned up for you
like the moon like
the dew
i hear them still
in my heart still
in my head still
in love
the only way i
can hold on is
to let go and follow
the glow back home
to the woods of my
soul and prepare
for the snows

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i sputter and putter
around in my head
around in my heart
around the park
the sun is so warm
the chill is being
born
soon i'll wear the
worn of winter
this does not trouble
me yet there is no ease
like a summer breeze
i prefer the crisp of
apples the lick of
black skies the sip
of smokey leaf
of fire
i know i'm quite
mad i feel the spirits
already they ask me
to dance
they ask me to dance
under the harvest
moon
they ask me to dance
with you

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wind chime in my mind
wood smoke a gentle coax
a new hope
halloween dream i'll save
a beam for you
the colored leaf falls at
my feet
i breathe the breath of
autumn
as the night hums
all around me
as the twilight becomes
my divinity the infinity
again as god opens my
life to you when i smoke
my pipe
the leaf in me always
seems to fall from the
ground to the tree
and thats ok even the
squirrels think i'm
nuts
i just want to share
my love with you
one more day today
and one more night
tonight

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may my face always
gladden your heart
may my words always
ring true
may my heart always
keep you
may your love always
find the path back to
the bowl of my soul

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fix the head
mend the heart
polish the soul

NEXT!

fix the head
mend the heart
polish the soul

NEXT!

fix the head
mend the heart
polish the soul

NEXT!

fix the head
mend the heart
polish the soul

NEXT!

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where is she
i ask every leaf
i meet
there there they say
there in your
heart
i ask the stars
who you are
and they say from
afar she is the beauty
of your touch the
feel of your words
i ask the moon
the mountains
the sea
why are you all
inside of me
i hear we are your
she
you have a heart
big enough for all
of us
be grateful you'll
see she is the spark
there is great art
in your heart

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star shine
in my mind
moon glow down
to the tip of my
toes
gray skies in my
thoughts the bare
trees of my
future
i always do the best
i can do
everytime i think of
love i think of you
everytime i do
i love you
share with me the
warmth of our
bodies
share with me my
calm palms
share with me your
treasures your hidden
pleasures
share with me another
moment of forever
i applaud you
in my heart

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the leaf
gives a tree life
all its life
then falls in four
to five seconds
of flight
to return to the
sod and give it
life
this fate gives me
faith
to love you all my
life till i fall at
your feet
i want to nourish
you tonight
and rise up within
you to the top
of the sky

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i unravel
and am spun into
silk
back on the path
to a love that
lasts
the only true desire
of fire is to be
selfless
another sun
ash
i pour my tears
again pure and
true
how brave i am
to love
how strong i am
to hold on
now i ask for the
strength the courage
to let go


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milk gray skies
brings out my pain
my ache when i am
alone in the rain
where is your
laughter
who too wants my
touch
how can i love you
too much
you left a shine in
my soul you left
a love in my heart
yet you haven't left
my thoughts
today there is alot
and if you want to
know how i feel
i say keep it real
keep it real keep
it real
but please keep it
you'll see

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i fall out of love
into the frights
the delights of the
black october
nights
she touches the tip
of my nose and i
know
she shakes my
fingers and i
know
she taps my knees
and i see
she lets me know
i am not alone
you are the wind
the rain you take
from me my
leaves
you take from me
all that is not
love
you take from me
all that is not
free
you know the beauty
inside of me and i
know you will
never leave


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i am a burnt
marshmellow
with a gooey center
stuck to your fingers
i'm the cinnamin stick
in your cider
i am wood smoke
and fire
i am the last leaf
on the tree
i am an old fool
wiser than you
i am the face on the
pumpkin
i am the flicker
of the flame
i am the letters
of your name
love me with your
body and soul and
i will no longer
roam
put me in your pocket
and take me
home

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i almost forgot
how peacefull i am
alone
how quiet these days
are before the
snows
how my nights
become velvet
how i must keep
the silence
how i am moved
in stillness
how my beard
becomes cloud
my boots become
roots
and the only trace
of tears on my face
is the joy god
makes

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i see how
i am at peace with
you now
i know now what not
to do to stay close
to you
the only thing i can't
undo is when i miss
you
i've let go of my want
of you
i stand strong with my
love for you
you will always be a
flame in my heart
you have drenched me
with desire you have
quenched me with
fire
those that don't know
call this hell but i have
never been higher
as the moon you have
seen the ash of a sun
in me
i am the sum of a
million suns in me
lets fire up another
one

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i wish you were
in my head when
i write you
i am in yours
i wish you were
in my bed when
i want you
i am in yours
i wish i could
dance with you
in your heart
we are in mine


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i love to see the curve
of your body
lend me your scent
i can keep your smile
in my heart for
days
i interpret every word
you say a thousand
ways
i'm not going to take
but i'm not going to
stop loving you
i'm not going to stop
dreaming
i'm not going to stop
giving
i'm not going to stop
my poems for you
i'm not going to stop
sharing with you
every day
i'm not going to stop
i pray

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i'm here to tell you
have you ever felt
the night rain hit
you like a night
train
yet what drives me
insane with little or
no pain is a gentle
rain
a warm wet like the
vapor of your breath
on my chest
october is as bold
as it is old and i'm
glad i know what
only the crazies
know
but the gentleness
is my lesson my
caress i am gifted
my hands touch
like lips
and i know these
words can carry the
strength of this
the warm rain is
naked and fills me
with thirst
my tongue can do
what you crave all
day and my words
can touch you where
you're human
but its the night at
the height of my
struggle that makes
me feel alive
when i know i've
touched you
inside

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i wanted to hug her
and she had no arms
i wanted to dance with
her and she had no feet
i wanted to sing to her
and she had no ears
i wanted to kiss her and
she had no lips
i wanted to love her
and she was all
heart

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you taught me
there is no place
i must go
when i joined the
navy i had to realize
before i left i could
circle the world a
hundred times and
all i would find i
could find in my own
backyard
and i have searched
all my life for love
and found it was there
there in my heart
now we are both blessed
to live life so simply
its like i never left
and none the less this
is the best we can do

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my heart
is my drum
the earth my
drumhead
your love is the
beat my song
is complete
a kiss on the
cheek peace
the loudest sound
the leaf the snow
flake hitting the
ground
the drums of
autumn my poems
my answer the
world trembles
with dancers

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every crazy i've met
was a poem
i call them expressions
of love
i call to them
manifestations
of spirit
hear what i hear
see what i see
yes its called insanity
but if you know this
its not an illness
its not a weakness
you just have to be
fearless you have to be
selfless you have to be
timeless in your
love
there is a grace even
the blind can see
there is a song even
the deaf can hear
there is a trust within
all of us a view clear
through what appears
to be reality
the next time you meet
a crazy just know that
blessed be the insanity
you have to be brave
and you'll be totally
amazed
i've been through this
for years and know
you can only feel this
beauty through
tears

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i want to write
on every leaf
rest in peace
i want to fly with
the geese into the
black october
light
i am at the threshold
christ i am a threshold
into the mystery with
an open says a me
what do you need
what is your intent
does your heart
speak is your life
bent what have you
spent for love
are we there yet
i may be an old fat
lazy hippie but i know
the sum of all worth
is peace on earth

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halloween is all about
seeing the unseen its
like looking into a
dream or so it seems
it just beams
be prepared for
laughter lets frolick
in the leaves lets carve
the pumpkin its
halloween
let your spirit roam
these nights soar to
new heights there is
a trick but the treats
are so nice if this is
not real then why
do i feel so right
all i can say is all ye
all ye in come free
meet the spirit in you
meet the spirit in me
we might be together
for eternity
yes how do you do
happy to meet you
when you can't explain
what just happened
and you wonder for days
perhaps years the feeling
you get when you've
seen halloween

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its over