THE BOOK OF LARRY -------- ©2016 Lawrence A. McFadden all rights reserved

i don't know how
but the moon made
love to the
clouds
i don't know why
i can't fly across the
skies
i don't know yet
i know i must
let go
yet i know i must
not touch
yet i know i must
not must
i have a sacred
sacred lust
i have reached a
profound
peace
all are blessed
none the wiser
none the less
one flew east one
flew west
all are blessed
in the cuckoos
nest

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you know what i love
about great jazz
you sit up to listen
and you light a joint
and damn man your
body starts keeping
time and you puff
and listen and like
goddamn man the
music starts talking
to you and after a few
more puffs you start
talking back and damn
man you realize there
are no words yet you
understand you hear
perfectly
you feel the power
of a thought like being
taught a-z you see
the genius you see the
madness it just makes
sense the bebopp
between the oughts and
the ought nots theres no
sense of place anyplace
theres no sense of time
only the phrasing of notes
whirling through your mind
another couple of puffs
and you're there there
right fucking there
where you belong
in the song

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i touch it
or does it touch
me
whose say do i say
when i say please
when the fire sets
me free
your flame nourishes
me
i know you see
me i feel you feel
me
i would say i love
you but you know
i always will i always
do
you've never seen
the wound of a man
like the wound of a
shaman
pray you need not
ever know pray for
their smile pray for
their strength
i've been solo all my
life it takes a lot longer
but you become a lot
stronger
i ask for help and my
friends keep me in
their company
i heal myself and i
am given gifts i have
learned what it takes
i have earned what
it takes to be
a man
i am the man in the
moon i am a man in
lala land
i am a man who will
always give you
a hand

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the book of larry
loves the poems the doves
the dream of the light of
the love of being a being
of love
your eyes say
follow me
your lips say kiss me
once more please
your heart says may
we your tongue says
lets have fun
the ash of another
sun the ray of another
day the beautiful touch
of us
look at my book
there is an open heart
inside
look at my book
there are open skies
inside
look at my book
my love is ten times
too big to fit
inside
may you find joy
in my book may you
find shadow in my book
may you find the color
blue
my book is full of you
and you and you
may my book be your
mirror may i be a window
a door
a feather of forever
once more
may i be the bridge
of earth and sky
may i be the bridge
to where the love of god
lives inside
may the wisdom
be our guide

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the ease is the
tease like in the
breeze free
you say come
with me
may i tend your
fire mend your
desires i will defend
you my friend
join my choir
yes i'm high as hell
yes this is my love
spell yes ring that
temple bell yes my
heart can tell yes my
touch can tell you
too are high as
hell
why does all this
nonsense keep making
so much damn sense
if this is not real then
why do i feel why do
i heal why do i
kneel
i am the petals at
your feet
i cannot take
i must wait and wait
and wait
i must be given
and yes my love my
love makes life
worth living

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the worry the dread
its all in your head
she says
i always hear
have no fear
i've always heard
i must rest
assured
my faith tells me
i'll do what it takes
my heart tells me
i'll do my very
best
my god tells me
let the spirit do
the rest
jesus jesus
we all we all
have the hands
of god

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those that fought
me taught me
those that fought
me i called
nazis
they were ruthless
ruthless and ruthless
they were truthless
they tried to destroy
me with my own
wrath
they demanded i
fight back
but those fools
picked on the wrong
dude
if i knew
they would know
they were in my head
i lost all the battles
but they knew they
lost the war
they did not know
what they could not
control
they had no clue what
to do if i did not fight
they could not harm
me if i did not harm
myself
they could not harm
me if i did not want
to harm them
you may not believe
me but my greatest
might in life was not
to fight

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i am miss guided
i am miss matched
i miss your body
mrs yourbody
i hear your
laugh
i was raised catholic
devout
taught to believe in
his kingdom
come
yet all my life i
followed my heart
i believed in you
my sophia
i believed in love
i know now to seek
to seek the wisdom
the wisdom
come
i know now how
to be a being of love
in love
i know now my sophia
what this stuff love is
made of
i know now the power
the our of love
from from to from
i now seek the wisdom
the wisdom
come

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through your eyes
i see your struggle
through your touch
i feel your strength
through your love
my greatest
hug
i too am challenged
by many things
most people just take
for granted
the only thing fair
in this world is cab
fare bus fare and
the county fair
and life has brought
you happy feet
all you need is
encouragement
all you need is a
friend like me
all you need you
always seem to
have
you renew my faith
in women you are
a life long love
you are one of her
doves

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prayer is like
make believe
a kiss
is like a summers
breeze
a touch is like
just what i
need
a heart is like
my keepsake
place
some say psychotics
build castles in the
air
mine is a temple
a palace of chalice
and phallus
big enough for the
earth the moon and
you
all of you
the mile high piles
of smiles the day
dream drugs of love
and hugs
that little wiggle wiggle
that makes me giggle
giggle
the tip of the tongue
that touches the
sun
i lick the wind
for the want
of you

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good god god
have you seen it
fire that penis
take my hand
if you understand
fire that penis
you can tell by my
hug i am in
love
fire that penis
i want to kiss and
lick the bliss all
over you
fire that penis
smoke the sod
and praise your
god
fire that penis!

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now when you're
on call you can call
yourself healer
not stripper
good god god
if you want to be
a whore then be
a sacred
one
you can take away
a mans burden with
the lightest touch
he can find comfort
when it hurts so
much
you know you're
blessed now you
know why
maybe for only
a moment you give
them their release
you give them their
peace
maybe for only a
moment you give
them what completes
them what heals
them
there is no greater
majick there is no
greater love there
is no greater power
than a womans
touch

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make me
is my plea
create me
be the use
the muse
please seduce
me
i want to come
along i want to
come undone
i want to come
be that some
one maybe the
only one who
wants to come
with me
my lame brain
dick in my hand
refrain
my goofy grin
my sin my shame
my flame
the beauty of my
touch the depth
of my hug
the blessing of
i love you
the blessing of
i love you
the blessing of
i love you
too

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the power
our our
four hands of light
four hands of might
four hands of sight
the power
of two
i always think
what more can i do
after i poem
you
what more can i do
after i talk to the
hawks
what more can i do
when i touch
you
what more can i do
as i give the gifts
i am given
may i provide that
life long feeling
inside
of being at sea
of being that tree
the feeling of being
a soaring love being
being free

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the friction
of skin on skin
how light the
laughter
how deep
the sin
my only want
lets do it all
again
now you know
why i grin
now you know
we can do what
you want
to
now if you want
to lets do what
pleases you
i have this love
this liquid love
this lube
i want to rub
all over
you

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in my life
i've searched every
night and i've found
it finds me it guides
me
with every step every
breath it takes
to hallucinate
or be given
visions
a sip a puff a kiss
grants me this wish
this prayer has come
true
all i really had to do
was wait wait and
wait
i saw it was needed
i just needed to know
when
here comes that hawk
again

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may i blaze
across this page
i bow my head and
cup my hands to
catch your desires
as they catch
fire
my tongue flickers
like the flame every
time your laughter
calls my name
i will never
be the same
its all brand new
everytime i touch
you
its all brand new
everytime you say
i would love
to
its all brand new
see your vision
come true

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i hear the drums
i seek the wisdom
i am one of a million
suns
i come from the other
side of forever to be
here with you like a
leaf and feather
yet you see me
so clearly you laugh
at your self
the hate corrupts
you the love breaks
you in two
have you cried to
your god what what
what do i do
then may you see
this vision of me
and you with drum
and wisdom
too
you must start
with an open heart
follow your feet
and know the spirit
will always keep
you keep you in
its keep

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yep
this happens
to me i just happened
to be walking and a
leaf swirled up off
the ground and flew
back up to the
trees
yep
this happens
to me i just happened
to be walking nightly
when splat a raindrop
lands on my forehead
with a plop
i stopped looked up
and saw a cloudless
sky
yep
that why
and now some how
i see the face of buddha
in a pile of dirty clothes
smiling up at
me
yep
do i happen to be crazy
it happens a lot it gives
me both a perseverance
and an annoyance in my
thoughts
good god god
at least tell me
why me
the only answers i have
to these riddles is just
a lot of little
giggles

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lotus bed buddha
head was it something
i said
did you hear that stadium
cheer can you math
the path
do you have the search
for some one on the tip
of your tongue
i've seen you smile
for miles with just one
sip
yes this is it my gift
may you read the true
me
may you be the true
you
you may ask
what did you do today
and all i can say is
i thought of
you

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i go down
stream in my dreams
may i river bank
my thanks
i hope hope
floats
may you fly by
may i see you on
down the road
i'll help carry
the load
may i walk you
home
all i do
is my yearning
my yearning
for you

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i want to know
where the crows
go
why am i taught
with hawks in my
thoughts
with open eyes
i seem to dream
with an open
heart you come
to me
now you see what
i see when i say
lets build a monument
to this moment
how can this sunset be
more beautiful
than you
my god the sky
is your canvas
the geese are your
wings
this is your day
today
lets ride the wind
on our grins

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mind if i be
pesky
may i deepen
my touch
lengthen my kiss
grant me your
wish
its so sweet to
take a peek
make me my love
make me leap
leap for your
treats
and when i do
find a new way
to love you
all i hear is a
really big
cheer
thats how i know
the route of our
pursuit of happiness
thats how i know
your love
all i hear is your
really big
cheer

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24/7
i'm hard at work
working on the courage
i'm going to need
to heal me
the bravery the
willingness to break
free
i must face it i must
embrace it then i can
let it go
my first love my first
no forty four years
ago
i still cry in my soul
i'm so afraid of the
pain
you can still see
the why in my
eyes
i can still feel her
no cripple my
soul
my first love
my first wound
the deepest
it sounds insanely
insane but i know
i am not healed
until i feel i can
kiss the hand
and taste the rain
that brought me
this pain

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let me see
your visions of
me
let me hear
you whisper i would
love to
take away your
blues too
yes i have eyes
full a mind full
a gray sky full
a mouth full
of blues
please dance with
me slow blues
close
if only for a song
long put me back
where i belong
in a true heart
a heart full of
you
rid me my love
rid me of these
blues

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jesus jesus
good god god
what have you
went and done
i am in love with
everyone
you shower me
with endless
ecstasy
yet you tear me
the fuck up
you have destroyed
the boy
you have given me
the greatest lovers
i can't have
damn you double
damn you
jesus jesus tell me
how that is right
tell me how i am
going to live without
you
jesus jesus i hate
the way you make
me lonely
damn you double
damn you
good god god
do you know
what you have
done

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i would if you
could i could if you
would
we share our shoulds
i want to say a thousand
times a day i love you
but you know i do
you know its
true
i would much rather
show you with my
touch with my tongue
with simply being
your companion
all i want to do is my
very best for you
i just can't wait
to love you
forever
holy mother of sacred
lovers what a brother
i want to be
to you

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i wish
you would kiss
me before you
say no
god i love
making you
laugh
i know
lets giggle off
all those clothes
i know
lets put on a
show
i know
i'm in the mood
to kiss all over
you

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i mind watch
i sense see
i believe
in me
these are the powers
the powers that be
have given
me
my love my love
is my faith to
navigate my fate
now i must do three
things i must wait
wait and wait
at best
inside my head
the voices said
to stay alive stay
alive and the spirit
will do the rest
it is my greatest
joy when my friends
see the spirit work
through me
all i need to be
is a hollow
reed

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end