THE NOD OF GOD 2014 -------- ©2014 Lawrence A. McFadden all rights reserved


THE NOD OF GOD ©2014 Lawrence A. McFadden all rights reserved



dear god why me
i stand on the shore
and exist no more
it takes my mind
away
and i drift like a long
summers kiss
the real ordeal nothing
more now than the
sea between my ears
only the sea is why i'm
here only the sea could
have done this to me
i search my whole life
give me a reason god
to make me bleed
tell me why you crippled
me why i have the
eternal cry
you showed me your
madness the years of
sadness
may i trouble you for
no more troubles
my lame brain dick in
my hand refrain
yet somehow there is
a strength to all this
a power in my heart
there is grace in my
face a glow in my soul
a mindness deep in
kindness
a longing of belonging
once more when i stand
on the shore
my mind in the open
oceans of devotions
vow to me upon the seas
times seven
plow my bow vow to plow
me to heaven

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think of the sea
fill your thoughts not
with the ought nots but
with every possiblity
you'll know if you want to
go you'll know if you want
your thoughts taught
you'll see when you go
to sea
i believe you'll believe
me i know you'll know
there is a destiny
there is a glory
there is a power
greater than merely
me
i become stronger wiser
able i come here to
become i come here to
become one with every
one every wave every gull
above this is love this
is the sea
i concur the sea is filled
with mystery the deeper
the sweeter
i feel her touch me with
this thought yes we are
all blessed none the
less each wave a
caress
from the bottom of your
soul to the bottom of the
sea
right between your eyes
right between your thighs
you'll know if you want
to go you'll see when you
go to sea

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the truth doesn't fit into
words
takes time to know the
truth
the sea doesn't fit into
words
it'll spit in your eye if
you try
thats why the sailors
have a language of
lies
you can tell by the lie
the truth it tries to
hide
it is not a deciet its a
release
words that chain
link only fools
there is a view clear
through the chaos
and confused
to cross the i and
dot the t
the dark is not the
darkness
the black the blessed
courage a curse
this gift of verse this
sea the voices
the poet has no choice
the sailor has no choice
the truth
we must know we must
be free
only time will tell
when this is heaven
and when this
is hell

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the idea of success
what you have what you
did who you are how many
kids
charm may be 4am in some
ones arms
a blessing to provide
is there a greedy giver a
generous taker
some say one day you'll
meet your maker
these days rage is all
the rage
most no longer want
dharma they crave
drama
goddammit don't you see
one bowl and i am a myth
of the sea
some downtown smile
some uptown frown
i guess the flag i fly of the
poet of the sailor of the
pope of the sea will be
a clown scarred scared
and sacred
are you wit me wit me
wit me please do you have
floppy feet do you have a
hidden honk
pinch my nose pull my
finger watch me fall as i
try to touch my toes
call my bluff
i love you this much
i learned when you wonder
the spitit is at work when you
are in stillness the spirit is
at work and when you laugh
this is perhaps the hardest
task when you laugh the
spirit can mend your
weep
so go out there
and get a pair of floppy feet
be a human toy to help
you weep weep
with joy
the sacred fool is blessed
blessed with laughter
blessed with success


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lets let love show
the way my love lets
let love grow every day
lets let love flow and
smoke this bowl
to honor those on the
road to honor the
wandering soul
of the sea
to honor the spirit
of you and me
to honor the all of one
and the one of all
we will sing your song
with one voice we will
listen with one heart
many say one love
i say one soul
thousands and thousands
of years old
back to the earth
back to the sea
back to the bowl of the
soul reaching reaching
reaching within
for peace

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i've never done that
always wanted to
i'll take my chances
when given the chance
i want more than want
but all you want me
to do is be kind and
rest assured
i laid down my sword
when you showed me
the power of these
words
how my love my hug
can mend a weep
i love the tiny things
the little feats
a nipple a bowl
the release
of the song in my soul
the shine of my eyes
and the art of my
heart

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each wave is her bouquet
every gain of sand is at
her command
to stare at the sea till you
laugh when you see she
is staring back
right between the eyes
aye and aye
a wink
to the beach to the beach
thats about as far as
most reach
to the bottom to the bottom
thats about as far as i can
fathom
a metal womb a metal
tomb fueled by an
atom
these days
god rests my bones
my home is cornfeilds
and soybeans
city life
i'm hiding out in a rock
and roll band and like
jerry says this song it
ain't never gonna
end
haha told you so
i only wrote two poems
about my being being
at sea and now thirty
nine years later
please read
if i can explain it to you
i can explain it to me
i guess thats why they
call it therapy
to see to hear to know
i guess thats why they
call it art
i guess thats why they
call it heart

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when most my age
were out getting laid
i spent my 21st birthday
400 feet below the
pacific ocean
being in the military
during the vietnam
war well you just didn't
meet ladies you would
like to meet
very short hair in a long
hair world it meant
something back then
and what really sucked
the big if was long distance
relationships
its odd now that almost
all the women i meet
are 18-25 my worst years
i think its because they
are the courious ones and
i am a couriousity
another big if
the ladies will come and
go its the women who
become friends and
lovers
if if and more if
i know you don't see me
unless you're looking
for love
yes life has that big a if
in it
i am very intuitive
i can touch yes what?
where was i? oh yes
russia
if be or if no be
its not the question
its the answer
i laugh now thinking
about when its time i die
i'll be dancing with sea legs
all the way to the
grave

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have you seen
the dream of us the vision
the view of us star
dust
its not a yes or a no
its not an event its
a process a flow
do you want to go
what did you see
some of us with a voice
don't have a choice
i wait for your reply
look at things a hundred
different ways hear things
a thousand different
times
i wait for your reply
what are you able
to bring to the
table
have you learned to
cry
are you ready to fly
inside
i know there is no
reply

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i don't want to tell
anybody what to do
if you're in hell
don't stop
you found your way
in now find your way
out
if you're in love
that brutal tug
a broken heart
is the best start
the best part
this ain't cruel
baby this is reality
each broken piece
will bring you peace
each broken piece
will shine in your
mind you can see
all mine
i will not impose
my will on anyone
not even my cat
all i ask is do you
want to encounter
the sea with me
and all i can say
is please

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some of us are taught
the goddess
she calls to all
she blesses us
none the less
none the wiser
some days she is the
sea some nights she
is all i need
some become angels
guides and allies
we are all one
dream
we all awake in our
own time in our own
place
we are all one
soul
from the other side
of forever to the other
side of forever
we are all one
love
the greatest power
the greatest power
one love
the greatest glory

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the sea has no boundries
i can love her with no
pain no regrets
only you can put my
heart at rest
i want only you to be
able to bring a tear
to my eye
i do not weep for you
i weep for what could
be
you keep saying
if you only knew
if you only knew
and all i can say
is if you would only
let me if you would
only let me
i'll write your name
in the sand
i'll mend my weep
all thats left
is a ache

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everybody does it
but me
everybody does it to
each other
but me
nobody sees it
but me
nobody hears it
but me
none of you are kind
but me
none of you are touched
but me
none of you sees what
i don't do
all you want is to want
i can not pry you off
the barstool
no one cries
but me
no one can love
but me
what??? what are you
saying? you too and
you and you
great then its everyone
but us

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the flame in my
heart
i braid for you
hell has no fire
like lovers desire
it takes a brave man
to love a woman
takes the touch of
a woman to mend
a man
takes a woman to
understand
touch tongues and
speak as one
come
i am an old fool of
the flame i will
want you till
ash
i will love you all
my life you know
that
more true love
at last

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sounds like the chatter
of words the clatter of
swords
you take mine
i'll take yours
no no no no
don't bring your
hell into my
world
i too believe you
don't have a chance
against my
prayers
i too believe you
don't have a chance
against my
love
some know if you have
no enemies within you
your enemies can not
harm you
when you find inner
peace you realize the
sum of all worth
is peace on
earth
when i ask what can
i do i hear let it be
let it be let it
be
i hear everything
is broken your gift
is being spoken
a poem
right between the
eyes

***********************

sitting on the bottom
of a russian bay took
away my sanity
i didn't do anything
crazy i just knew
i was not sane
i could call it unsane
desane consane upsane
or nonsane
you would call it
insane
so what
i've been through
psychosis so many
times i could draw
you a map
yeah imagine
that
i've been clinically
diagnosed seven times
seven different
ways
i may have been blind
but i could see
it took years to find
theres was nothing
wrong with me
being crazy is not
a disease i am not ill
if you took a good look
you would see you are
far more mad than
me
the crazies know who
the crazy are
i have their gift
i have their burden
madness is a monster
that guards a door to
the treasures of the
soul
my mind may be broken
but i am free
you speak of death and
disease i speak of
spiritualality
i speak of learning to
heal inside i speak of
a knowing
you speak psychiatry
i speak spirit
you speak drugs
i speak love
if you're looking to pity
i would pity you
i am not mentally ill
i am spiritually
challenged
if you want to get real
i will help you
heal
my god thank you
thank you for the view
clear through and thank
you for all your thank
yous

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can you focus
can you feel
can you reach
inner peace
there is a knowing
beyond knowing
there is intuition
on the tip of you
tongue
are you kind
to everyone
you can't fake
grace
you will be known
not for your thoughts
but for your walk
may i give you my
affection
may i touch you
may we journey
the seas of
intimacy

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my mom will be a
buddha some day
when shes done
raising children
i hope i can say
she stopped worrying
about me when she
passed away
i know she knows
now what she knew
was true
yes she suffered as
all mothers
do
everytime my mom
comes to mind i tell
her i love you
some say gifts skip a
generation
i could see in her what
was in me
like god's nod her whole
life said yes to me
her art was family and
all she saw was the artist
in me
she always knew
thats how i know
my mom will be a
buddha some
day

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i praise you
you know what
a womans touch
can do
how sweet how deep
all the little helpings
all the little
feats
show me how to
show my affection
without rejection
show me when to
give my love
my love
how honest can
you be when you
speak with your
heart
how can you say
i love you and then
just walk away
how many times have
i seen larry you're the
kindest most loving
man i know but i'm
going to go fuck that
asshole over
there
then i binge on
doughnuts and listen
to black women sing
soul and then i'm
glad once more
i am alone

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yes many die
inside they are the
lucky ones
yes many run and
hide inside they
know what is
to come
we are all doomed
we are all doomed
and what could be
worse than the blessed
curse the brave heart
the courage not to
fight
silence the only weapon
a mirror the only
shield
one brave heart
plunged in darkness
to show you the light
of your soul
plunged in darkness
to know beyond
knowing
plunged in darkness
to find the way to heaven
through hell
plunged in darkness
and stillness and still
reach inner peace
we are all doomed
we are all doomed
when you see bravery
you too become brave
and perhaps one day
you will lead the way
one brave heart
is all we need
thats my god talking
to me thats what
love can do for
you

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all some people do
is build walls
i open myself when
called
i'm taught not to
connect the dots
taught to judge
not taught to go
beyond thoughts
taught its what i do
and what i do
not
i am given so i give
i can see so i'm
shown
i can hear your heart
of stone
the first tear is the
hardest the first smile
is the smallest
to touch here
to finally give up
the clutch of
fear
to face it embrace it
then let it go yo
you can mend your
heart you can turn your
stone into a poem
your heart is the
strongest your song will
be heard when love
my love is the
cure

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i am a mouse
in my house
i am a hawk
in my thoughts
i am a lion in a
cryin crowd
i'm a bear of care
on top of you
my feet follow
the geese
i am the flicker
of the flame
i am a face in the
clouds
i make god laugh
out loud
i could be the ants
in your pants
your mind swimming
in wine i can prove
i'll rid you of the
blues i can prove
i love you
i find time to be
kind and restless
there are mountains
to climb and many
moons above to
love
i feel my desire
a sunset on fire
red sky at night
sailors delight
i got it right

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i want to write
something simple
something free
something your heart
can see something that
will make you giggle
something that will
give my pen the
wiggles
something simple
something free
the healer in you
the healer in me
the buddha verse
crossing all the
way across the
universe
the threshold of prose
to the beauty of
poetry
the beauty of something
so simple something
so free

the sea said hi
and i cried

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i do not say this
jesting the spirit is
manifesting
you can call her to mind
and find the wisedom
come
open your heart
and find bliss on your
lips the intuition on the
tip of your tongue
listen
the word from above is
the real revolution is
love
the world will call your
name some of us don't
have a choice
i will find those who are
looking for me
friendships are the gifts
of the spirit and let me
tell you man i fest i am
god drunk and blessed
i'm not bragging but yes
my tongue is wagging
all i can say is look for
the little things that
make you pause and
wonder
everyone is looking
for the greatest
revelation
i see you in the tinyist
of situations
they are the gestures
of the manifestors
you'll feel the pull of
your life becomes
wonder full and like
a kite

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spirit wind spirit
rain i hear you
i feel you you know
my name you braid
my flames
i'm not allowed to
look into the future
but my god i feel the
glory
how gratefull i am
to poem your story
the only reason i am
alive is god wants it
that way
a madman deep in
crave i live for the
day the wisdom
comes
i live for the way
we touch tongues
i am one of hers
one of many
a loved one

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into the sea
bright dream
into the madness
sight seen
into the darkness
light beam
i'm out of my mind
in no time
i can see with my
hands i can see with
my heart i can see
and goddamn was i
shown
i'm sorry but i need
to be alone its easier
to stay sane when
no one is home and
all the lights are on
i am a dark star
god's child and the
greatest blessing
of all i am me
out of the sea out of
the madness out of the
darkness
i am right out of
my mind

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my lips quiver
your tongue the
arrow to my
heart
i throb
your touch i'll
treasure for forever
i hum
when the difficult
energies come
to stop the tug of
war just let go of
the rope
you've heard me
snore i fixed that
my dick broke
i fixed that
yes i'm still crazy
nevermind
that
if i make you giggle
may i have a kiss
everywhere i touch
you i feel your heart
in bliss
my beloved tells me
to never think i am
alone
you are not by my
side your choice
you are in my heart
you are in my voice
my choice
you could not find
love if love was not
blind
you could not find
love if love was not
divine
i see with my heart
your kindness
i see with my soul
love is timeless
i see no end
my best lovers are
my true friends
my love is being
in love my love
this is my god talken
to me
may you be in love
and make love until
your whole being
is love
come until god
is done

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i don't want to jump
to any conclusions
inclusions or exclusions
but why is most every
one i know 25 years
old
i don't find very many
women my age
kind
the world is a dark
heart
i can't see it but i can
feel it coming
not a kingdom come
a wisdom come
and i am shown there
is no greater day than
today
everything is broken
till love is spoken
love like a flame licks
me clean
the same flame pure
and true
are you brave enough
to love
stir the ash of time
to see if it is time
to want you
time to pass through
the flame hand in hand
woman and man
this time the same flame
this time its us one love
one spirit one soul
this time i am not alone
this time it feels like
home

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you want to know why
why you
some of us don't have
a choice
you will always find
the strength to find
the truth
the most painfull truths
are our own
in your heart you know
you must forgive
it may take years of tears
it maybe the hardest
thing you ever do but
you're not done until
all is forgiven
one day you'll see why
this was meant to be
why we must kiss the
hand that brings
us pain
why is our path the
steepest when we're
the weakest
why we must be
broke free

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it hurts me more and
more not to love you
not to adore
mend me my love
mend my anger
i am in pain
i am in danger
this is my wound
my cry
this is broken glass
inside
i do my best to keep
this heart alive
you'll be able to mend
me when i tell you
why
the emotional cripple
inside
waiting for the right
word for the right
touch waiting for a
kiss waiting for your
lips

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how do i let go
of this strangle
hold of love
to uncage the dove
of my heart
to make way to let
go to make way to
let go to make way
the old fashioned
way to love and
to hold
there is no death
of true love my love
there is no end my
friend
its you that comes
and goes its you
that refuses its you
that chooses not
to
i know you don't see
me unless your looking
for love
i hope you find what
you're looking for
i hope you get every
thing you want just
so you can see life
is more than want
i will mend my weep
my dove will return
to my heart in
peace
one day you will know
if it was wrong to say
so long
and if so all you need
to do is say hello

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i need no rewards
no award i want no
money honey
my poems are a gift
of grace and madness
a gift of solitude a gift
to make love poem
a gift i am given
to give
yes blessed be the
insanity may you be
touched with my
words may you see
into my world may
i express your loneliness
your willingness your
joy
may i bring you peace
this is what i do this
is who i am
what more can i do
after i poem
you

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i see many views
through you i hear
the music of many
muses the scent
of the sea
when i touch you
when you touch
me the velvet tongue
the heartfelt one
the only thing missing
is you
kiss me before you say
no
kiss me before
you go

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love is wave after wave
after wave love is saying
thank you to every grain
of sand
love is being atop a thunder
cloud love is making god
laugh outloud
love is the moon rise in
your eyes love never says
goodbye
love begins where the poem
bends where the words end
first friends
now you mend me my
love
our touch is honest
promise me you and
i promise you me
love is so simple love
is so free
we are coupled
we are a piece of each
others puzzle
a piece of peace
like no other

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i sense you
with my touch with
my kiss with my tongue
i sense you with my
intuition
those that try to put
out the fire are the ones
burned by the flames
may god make your
heart burst may your
heart ache see what
heals your break
feel the glory of god
to have loved
you gotta let the light
in you gotta let the light
out
your heart can't heal
until you heal your
heart
let go of everything
that is not love
try a little kindness and
peace will find us
forgive and you will feel
the power of god
love and you will become
the glory of god
you have the nod find
peace and be the hands
of god

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you put my mind
at rest all i have to do
is do my best and let
you do the rest
i hope you show all
is blessed i hope you
know all are blessed
blessed be the insanity
the view clear through
i'm the happiest just
being myself
people who don't know
peace don't know its
worth
die however you want
to take away all the
would shoulds and
coulds take away all
the must this and must
that
i know the wisdom will
come i know the sum
of all worth is peace
on earth

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there is no greater day
than today and today
is just like any other
day
i praise today today
today hear my roar
my spirit soars
today today today
and tonight
tonight is forever
and the night the night
is always just a day
away

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i have seen days
of rage i have been
punished with my anger
i have been spanked
now i know i give you
many thanks
i am at peace on the sea
in me
anger like a flame licks
me clean
i get angry at my self
when i get angry
i meant you no harm
i do not blame you
i say don't don't don't
and still it happens
another lesson in anger
there aren't many ways
to end the rage to stop
the pain
face it embrace it then
let it go
its only your ego that
says no no no
the fear of it happening
can cause it to
happen

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i love being a being
of love
im lit from within
lit from the light
above
all god wants me
to do is be myself
my genuine
self
a child with the
strength of god
the hands of god
the love of
god
spiritualy we all have
the nod i know you
are being called to be
yourself your genuine
self
with the joy of a child
with the love of love
shining in the light
above
open your eyes
of god

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we all have a little
sadness in us
a ache
we all have a little
madness in us
a grace
i am witness to the
greatest bliss the
sacredness of
love
the kindness that
reminds us we are
only human
i live in the shadow
of god
i will be in the history
of the mystery i know
you will be
too
sing for your king of
diamonds beam like
your queen of hearts
ask to be blessed by
the goddess ask to be
given your vision
find your way back
to your god thats your
hardest path of
all
god is not in a building
god is not in some
made up place
when you're ready to
start look for god in
your heart

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do what makes the blue
sky blue
shine your light all day
and all night
keep your heart open
mend your weep
till you weep
with joy
once more
look for love and when
there is none put some
there
puff puff pass
throw away your computer
brain i'm taught to stop
connecting the dots
don't believe everything
you thought
start by listening to your
heart you need to feel
with your eyes you need
to see with your touch
are you being your
being
don't just do something
sit there empty your
head
be mindfull and mindless
have you ever been shown
kindness has there ever
been peace
i ask this question
do you quest then go with
the geese you'll find
peace
i'm told all are blessed
none the wiser none
the less
i hope these words bring
you closer to your god
i give you my wink i give
you my nod

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i need your wisdom
i am the petals at your
feet
make me
i need your love my love
too many have said
no
mend me
i need to be touched
i am on bended
knee
grace me
i need to dance
slow blues close
embrace me

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i've been to the bottom
of the sea
king me
i am a feather of forever
king me
sanity is just a shuffle
of papers
king me
kiss me my queen
king me
write a poem about me
king me
if you've felt my hug
king me
when i make you giggle
king me
point me in the direction
of heaven
and king me
i weep with joy
king me
i found peace
king me
i can make god laugh
outloud
king me
get off my cloud
king me
only a fool would wear
a crown and only a fool
would wear it for free
king me

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in stillness
i want to see your
face in ecstasy
i am a mongrel poet
woof woof
wag my tail
i shake and play dead
haha
i am shown in ways
that cannot be shown
i am taught in ways
that can't be taught
the universe wrote
in verse god gave the
nod all gave some and
some gave all
why do we suffer why
do we bleed
do we still dream do
we still listen to our
hearts
the courage not to fight
the only way you'll know
is to go beyond the point
of knowing beyond the
want of wanting beyond
this time and beyond
that time
in time to wander in
wonder beyond
yonder
with the divine
still in our minds

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some days you'll see
i can feel it coming
coming after me
the glory
some nights you'll
need me i have always
loved you
the story
life is full of dread
i'm a frayed knot
the worry
i worry about the future
i get angry about the past
to fall on either side of
the straight and narrow
path
the journey is within
and there ain't no map
all god wants me to do
is be myself my genuine
self i rest assured i'll be
guided once more
i follow my feet
with a leaf of peace
and with a feather of
forever

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it ain't all puppies and
kittens try blood and
pepper spray
the uglyiest energies
the rage dwelling in
many hells in many
spells can you tell
i was patriotic i was
psychotic oh no don't
tell me i know here comes
another episode
the emotional cripple
the therapy like a nipple
blessed be the insanity
there is madness
there is sadness
there is horror
there is pain
my lame brain dick in
my hand refrain
the guts of whats left of my
heart the eternal cry the
ache inside
i try today to feel alive
to hope in the sorrow
of today i become brave
brave enough to become
myself to become the me
of tomorrow

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still
i am still still
i quiet my will
i empty my head
there is only one word
still in my heart
i am no longer in motion
i've stopped
i don't mind the rest
but what do i do with the
willingness when my wants
start to haunt me and i
hear things like whats the
rush like rest assured
and i know i must let go
i know i must be still and
still there must be no
more musts
a time for the ashes of
all desire a time of spiritual
passage
i don't like to feel that
way but i bare witness
i know its the way to crack
open prose i know its the
way a greater love grows
the times the divine is still
in our minds
the times we wait naked in
our hearts for yet another
spirit spark

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i see you dance
and my eyes start
dancing
i hear your heart sing
and my heart starts
singing
i watch the tear roll
down your cheek
a tear of joy
i listen to your song
and i ask may i tag
along
may i journey through
your drum
may i verse the wisdom
come
let our song be sung
with touching
tongues
lets sleep cheek to
cheek
in peace

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i hope these words
bring you closer
to your god
closer to your
beloved
i hope these words
are heartfelt
perhaps you have
knelt to have a
dialog with god
a song a hyme
a her a nod
i think true belief
is having a belief in
all beliefs
my way only works
when i find my own
way my own voice
my own vision
the possession
let go of everything
that is not love
let go of everything
that is not free
have no doom
the future is not
our destruction
the future is our
glory
thats my god
talking to me

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all you see in me
you see in your
self
mirror morrow
eye to eye
my love my love
judge not
your path is on
the tip of your
tongue in the palm
of your hand follow
your feet
the intuition
the sacred touch
the knowing
the must
some say just be
i cannot just be
i must become
i seek the nod of
god i'll give this land
a hand i'll build the
church of constant
search i have been
blessed by the
goddess
for what its worth
this gift of verse
this page a window
these thoughts alight
into the night this page
a mirror this page a
ramble a ramble of
words rambling
rambling on
inside

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if i do everything
possible i won't have
to do the impossible
if i had stopped at
perfection i never would
of gotten this far
if you don't drink alcohol
you can afford really
good ganja
for every two women that
won't there are three that
will
don't paint your rainbow
black
we are all blessed
none the wiser none the
less
blessed be the insanity
the view clear through
what appears to be
reality
helpfully hopefull and
hopefully helpfull
don't plant your chickens
head first
madness is a monster
that guards a door to
the treasures of the
soul
do you want in
or out
god drunk no doubt
no touching tongues
no breaths as one
no pearl of the world
under your tongue
haha
the intuition
going through life
without a woman is
like going through
china with only one
chopstick
while no great cup of
coffee ever goes
unpunished
when the divine is
still in our minds
learn to cry weep
weep until you weep
with joy then weep
some more
those that don't know
peace don't know its
worth those that don't
know peace don't know
the sum of all worth
is peace on earth
this is the nod
of god

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i was never 46
when i turned 46 i
thought i was 47
all year i thought i was
47 then my dad asked
me at my next birthday
how old i was i said 48
he thought for awhile
then said no you'll be
47 so i was 47 for another
year i was 47 twice i was
never 46

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sky why
so blue
atop the clouds
god laughs out loud
always the last
laugh
why do we bleed
why do we suffer
point me in the direction
of heaven show me
a sign
i know you're not
dead i know you're
in my head
sky why
so high
the crazy ways to stay
sane the spirit
rains
count me in
i want to do it again
one more time
through the oceans
through the insanity
through the flame
through the sorrow
through the joy
through my
heart
matter of fact through
the past through
eternity at last
one more time
sky why
can i fly
i am not a man of
power i am a man
of love
love the greatest
power