Use Me My Muse 2014 -------- ©2014 Lawrence A. McFadden all rights reserved


Use Me My Muse ©2014 Lawrence A. McFadden all rights reserved

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power off
greed gone
judge not
desire ash
i broke
free
you are the wind that
glows across the coals
i am the embers i am
the burst of flame
i am the flicker i am
the puff
there is always enough
it doesn't take much
just a little lust
a little ache
do you want to
my caress is
endless
i thought i felt a breeze
you are somewhere
near
may i offer my smoke
may i offer my touch
may i offer my tongue
i want to giggle with
you
with my hands i'll take
you to lala land
when you wandered into
my life you wandered
right into my
heart

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do you see me
gleam i want to see
your face in ecstasy
i can taste the grace
i can feel this is
real
i'm ready to be
revealed i'm ready
for god's giggle
i hope you like
the wiggle of tongues
i'm not trying to put
you into words
but here you appear
hi there hi there
hi there
you are one of the ones
i am looking for one of
the ones that found me
one of the ones that
make us a we one of the
ones that make a soul
mate

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i begin again
where the words end
i begin again in my heart
my friend i begin again
guiding you around the
bend i begin again my
friend to mend
i am a crab
i can't go forward
i can only go sideways
and backwards
i am a moonchild
i ride the tide i sail
in the breeze the wind
the wind clears the
clouds so i may beam
delight into your
dreams
so i may beam sight
in your cracks and
seams
lets twirl these clouds
into pearls so i may
beam blessings into
the wound of the
world

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my wisp
a breath of the
morning star
my bliss
the last of the
snows blow
my kiss
is better than
my hug and i give
a great
hug
my wish
granted
how many times
can you say
that
i have been reminded
with love reminded
with kindness
reminded to feel how
it feels when the light
shines on
you
and the shadows all
laugh and say
we'll be back

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god doesn't have to
say a thing
its blowing in the
wind
its more of a let
go let go let go
than it is a gimme
gimme
i was given one word
trust
i was given two words
rest assured
you have given me
your yes
i think of you and the
only two words new
that i know is
lets go
so i say yes
lets
lets let go
and lets go

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in stillness in dusk
i wait to grip the twilight
and take a star home
in a jar
i only want one
i know i must
earn it
i've waited all day
i've waited all week
i've waited all month
i've waited all year
i've waited all my
life
i think its going to be
a dark star i think i'm
gonna like it

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i flee flee flee
into your joy
you give me happy
feet you make my
heart flutter i am
a brother i wear
the robe of many
inner roads
join me in my
stillness
be my quiet
be my flower be
my love power
mend me
again and again
and again
take away my ache
even silence is too
loud a thought
outside this world
of words
please feel me please
feel free please reach
peace please feel you
belong you are in my
songs
do you want to tag
along

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you pour in my
mind a dream
you pour in my
eyes the moon
you pour in my
ears a drum
you pour in my
palms eyes
you pour in my
heart every smile
you pour in my
soul the sea
you pour at my
feet the path

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i study the way
the way the puffs
of smoke play curling
into rings and heart
shaped things curling
into a spin across this
page and then
fades
take my prayers please
these are my words this
is my intent no longer
hell bent the smoke
is heaven bound and
heaven sent
there is no need for
words i open my
heart
and i am hushed
i want to run to you
and i am told no
be still
believe me its just as
hard for me as it is
for you
i have said my amens
i am the most gratefull
to give what i am
given
another day another
page
my love my love
is being a being
of love

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if you're not going
to give don't
don't say you will
when you won't
if you're not going
to please don't
tease
i guess in the end
you have no friends
its easier to do
when its been done
to you
how long will you
take advantage
how long will you
rot
i wish you no ill
will i want no
revenge i can
forgive
all you need is to
see what karma is
going to do
to you

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there is a temple
in my soul
i think we are
neighbors in the
forest of our church
a church of constant
search
down there below
the rainbow
round the bend of
reality at the end
of insanity like a
ray into the twilight
i go
what is the name of
the flame in your
heart
have you passed
through the flame
in the bowl of your
soul
like every poet
out there i say
hello from in
here
all i am asked to do
is be still and be
me
let the temple bells
ring
i see
god is not above
or below me
god is the love
in my heart

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there is no path
before me there is
no path behind
me
i can not lead
or follow
i'm not allowed
to see into the
future i cannot
tell you about
tomorrow
i can not tell you
why our path is
the steepest when
we are the weakest
i can not tell you
the secrets of your
soul those are for
you and yours
to know
share my bowl
and don't ever
think you walk
alone

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i've always been in
love like the sacred
rains me
love sustains
me
you have to be brave
to love a woman
she is a sister of many
souls
some i knew
some i know
the spiritual ones
the ones with great
hearts
you can feel it in their
eyes hear it with their
tongues
they are kind and
gentle they have become
her children
they are wise
they are unseen
you must be looking
for love to find
them
you will see them in
yourself you'll see
what you need to
believe
and you'll cry
with gladness
you will feel the
power of love
you'll understand
so much you'll know
gods hands have a
woman's touch

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peace your sister
reach deep down
and lift her
to the light
we all must do our
best god demands
no less
let your dread end
where heaven
begins
its the shine
that makes the
universe your
mind
shout out doubt
its your heart
three times bigger
than most twice as
strong as most
and brave
its your heart
that brings you to
where you are
today
its your heart
that leads the
way
its your shine
that brings me
to mind
i wonder if you
know you are
divine

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the park was
amber
clean bright day
crisp
the rest of the winter
has gone drip by
drip
amber at play
her smile can
drive you insane
drive you insane
drive you insane
with possibilities
and goodies
goodies for you
and goodies for
me
my green dream
queen
do you remember
the hawk flew over
our heads
does the hawk still
fly through your
thoughts
do you soar
the sky as wide as
your mind inside
do you soar
two arms flapping
one hand clapping
and one hand
laughing
i see the queen in
you king me
like yesterday
in the park
i still feel
you

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i'm still smoking
you there's been
a cradle or
two
sometimes i hear
a thought
i'm not telling
but i was told
to
peace your sister
as bold as gold
on the tip of my
tongue everyone
peace your sister
you need to feel
the pulse in her
heart you need to
hear the wish on
her lips you need
her to touch
you
you need her
bravery
peace your sister
follow her heart
she needs the power
of two
i need her thats how
i know she needs
me
i'm not in peace
when she is not
within reach
peace i say peace
your sister
give her all your
love give her all
your all
if you are a man
give her all
you can

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i run into the sun
my words walk
when they talk
my hands are at
your command
i hear it through
the spirits
i come and go
with the shadows
say hello in hell
ring the temple
bell
do tell
i am in tune with
the moon i'm blessed
by the goddess
i have an endless
caress
i will rhyme you
the power of two
now you know my
nights are not empty
as given i give i have
plenty
you will find me in
kindness you will
find me in love you
will find me in your
heart
in my mind
you are the one
i want to find
on the tip of my
tongue

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tickle me
with all your
might
i like my wiggle
wiggled every
night
my candy is my
touch my sweetness
is i'll touch you as
much as you love
to be touched
i'll gently rock
you hard
my hands will take
you to lala land
all it takes is a
giggle giggle
to be as free as
fantasy
feel a giggle giggle
to see the view
clear through
our nudity
feel a giggle giggle
hidden somewhere
in our horizontal
hug
sometimes i feel your
giggle giggle from up
above
i love the giggle giggle
share my bowl and lets
wiggle wiggle


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i don't care
what is between
your thighs
i'll look you
right between
your eyes
i judge not i
want not i just
see
the stronger the
sexual vibe the
stronger the
spiritual vibe
in me
like a compass
always pointing
up in the palms
of my hands
then there are
those who are light
years farther than
i'll ever be and i
laugh come see me
look for the old fat
lazy hippie with a
cat asleep on his
lap
share my bowl and
hold my hand
you'll understand
more than i could
ever say hold my
hand and feel the
vibe mend our
lives

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we got it right
a long time ago
it ain't right now
we had to let go
a long time ago
before i could speak
i was told to be still
i was hushed
but i spilled the words
a long time ago
they took root and
have you heard my
love my love is my
power my words
are said to be read
on every leaf and
petal my words are
said to blossom
my soul is root
bound
a long time ago
i'm taught with the
thought of a flower
a purple iris a dandy
lion the white rose
in the snow my life
a long time ago
now fuller moons
now fuller sails
now full circle
i did not fail
my words are the
trees to be free my
words are flowers
of forever my words
are soaring birds
crazy and together
i make love poem
my words have the
powers of the
flowers

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when i enter the
difficult i hum
to the sound of
drums
i hum when i brew
i hum when i bake
i hum when all
is yum yum
hum with me
be my hummie
some chant some
rant some can't
you know you're
in for a show when
the hummingbird
flies at your window
and the robin hears
your heart i hum
when the hawk
flies through my
thoughts i hum
when the geese
speaks i hum till
i'm done
take some of my
hum put some hum
in the bowl of your
soul put some hum
everywhere you go
put some hum up
above and down
below
put some hum in
the snow
the vibe is alive
the vibe is alive
the vibe is alive
the vibe mends
me the vibe turns
my ache into the
blues
i soar a mile high
when i vibe and
think of you

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you can see the sun
you don't have to
stare
when i look into
your eyes i know
the stars are
there
when i look into
your eyes i know
you share you
care
when i look into
your eyes i know
i feel you every
glimpse a poem
every thought a
touch
when i look into
your eyes i offer
my lips i offer
my caress
i close my eyes
with your eyes
inside me
i want to see my
love my love through
your eyes i want to
see through the
windows of your
soul
i want you to see
i want you to feel
i want you to know
the wink of an eye
the twinkle the
insight in the blink
of an eye
i know these jewels
in your eyes are the
gypsy souls you will
come to know

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feel my verb
my spoken herb
a blurb of words
this page the mirror
inside reflects my
soul
the mirror in the sky
reflects my god
we are taught smoke
and mirrors is to
deceive
look at me and tell
me i'm not real look
at me and tell me
you don't believe
look at me and tell
me you don't see
the beauty of your
reflection when you
look at me
do you see what you
see
share my bowl and
we'll talk soul to
soul

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when you
disappear
when i
disappear
in your i love you
in my thank
you
when my my
disappears
when your your
disappears
when we are being
our being we are
one
one love one heart
one soul or so
i am told

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thank you thank
you thank you thank
you thank you thank
you thank you thank you
thank you thank you
thank you thank you
thank you thank you
thank you thank
you thank you thank
you thank you thank
you thank you thank you
thank you thank you
thank you thank you
thank you thank you
thank you thank you
and thank
you

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you command my
hands you commend
my heart i have always
been in love i have always
been a part
you have always been
there i swear the only
way i knew was i was
not dancing alone
in my search i am
shown in ways that
cannot be shown
i feel you watching
you fill me with dread
to show whats in my
head is better said
don't believe everything
you think
i'm taught not to connect
the dots i'm taught stillness
i'm taught thought i'm
taught silence
my quiet
peace and quiet
and if that doesn't scare
the hell out of you then
tag along
we'll bring peace
we'll bring comfort
we'll bring joy
to those who have learned
to cry we will mend your
weep we will find time
there you are
i can see you shine
i can see you shine

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i listen
to your music
in me
every song a muse
every word a love
every hug a tug
of my heart
you are the one
i want on the tip
of my tongue
take what you want
come when you can
keep it up i know you
crave my touch keep
it up cry when you
must keep it up i call
to you keep it up i will
gently rock you hard
keep it up and we'll
dance from star to
star keep it up i have
the best caress keep
it up my kiss is
endless

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how great do you want
to be
i want to be larry
great
you can't be me till you
have sat on the bottom
of the sea
you can't be me
till you lose count
of the psych wards
you can't be me
till you find peace
nope you won't be me
till you heal yourself
you can't be me
till your heart is kind
kind to all
i have written most of
my life you can write
the rest of your life
why be me when you
can be you why be me
when you can be the
best you you can ever
be

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lets explore
our minds our bodies
out temples our souls
lets explore all we
don't know
we could start with the
universe the buddha
verse the earth
we could start with our
hearts i want to know
what love is worth is it
true i've always found
love is worth the inner
search
i want to be mindless
with kindness i want to
weep with joy
i love being a being
of love
the i love you
the i is every i gone by
the you is everytime its
true
when love is not an object
or a want when there is
no no
will you open your heart
must i go alone

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i'm about as delusional
as they come
i worship a woman
with no face no body
yet i know she is the
beauty of god
she gives me her hands
i worship a man
that makes me suffer
makes me strong with
struggle
how every weakness
becomes my strength
how god becomes a
being and i become
a being a being of
love
god gave the nod
and i walk with her
hawks

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why am i
stronger than
strong why do i know
beyond the point
of knowing
why do hawks fly
through my thoughts
i'm not allowed to see
into the future
when i start to dread
i hear with my heart
all that is said
i must trust
everytime the story
will end not with our
destruction my friend
but with our
glory
listen to the poets
listen to the drums
listen to the wisdom
come here comes the
wisdom come

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thats all part of it
thats all the heart of
it thats all my words
the art of it
how can i be a mystic
when you always
understand how can
i be alone when you
love me
how great thou art
i make love poem
my love my love i
could not do what
i do if i did not write
about you
use me my muse
all you see in me you
see in your self this
is the wealth of our
selfs this is the
mirror
this is a treasure of
the soul the window
use me my muse
i'm ready to go back
into the madness back
into the gladness
use me my muse
i am the petals at your
feet i have the curse
i have the courage of
a great heart
i close my eyes to see
i hear your smile smile
at me may i touch you
as much as you love to
be touched
we'll see
use me my muse
use me

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so i hear
the word from above
is the real revolution
is love
there is no conflict
no harm i will charm
you in my arms i will
hold you up to the
light
we are the rebels of
thought we are the
brave we have the
courage not to fight
you need a mirror
to see us you need
a heart to hear us
we will guide you
through the hell of
being you
yes count me in
my silence is the
loudest
i keenly feel the wound
of the world
are you against me
healing you have you
ever loved pure and
true did you find peace
or did peace find
you
blessed are the peace
makers blessed are the
healers blessed are her
children
blessed is the revolution
of love

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have a ladle full
a bowl full a soul full
delight full
insight full spiritual
moon full and noon
full
care full mind full
a hand full only a
pocket full of empty
a heart full of
plenty

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how many times
do you need to be
told
how many ways
do you need to be
told
tell me
show me
you will become
what you love
you will become
what you hate
some say i am a
messenger
the message the
message what the
fuck is the message
have you heard its
only one word
in all the universe
in all the buddha
verse all i've ever
heard from those
who have truely
heard is one word
love
love love love love
love love love love
light

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i write you
every day
i feel you
deeply i say
a mirror a
window a
page
my scribble
at play
my words won't
go away my words
won't stay
why must i let go
every word a hug
every word a tug
this song is thousands
of years long its as
old as dirt as old as
love
as old as your last
thank you as old as
my morning coffee
as old as this poem
today
the older it gets the
bolder it gets
the more i can say
the more i can say
the more i can say
it can always be
spoken it can never
be broken

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these words are from
me
she knows my heart
i write to you
those who will listen
the searchers the
dreamers the bond of
every vagabond every
icon
the song of the sea
the mountain the trees
the breeze
song of my heart
song of my soul
this song i know
rhymes with moonglow
do you hear the drums
beat beat with your heart
does the earth tremble
beneath your feet when
you dance and prance
do you feel the emptiness
the sadness the madness
being released with thoughts
of peace is the divine still
in your mind
are you home or do you
roam feel free to tag along
feel free to sing along
feel free to belong feel
free to bond with the
great beyond

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lets go a little further
into the great resolve
take away my ache and
i'll mend your weep
take away my ache and
i'll give you the best
caress
take away my ache
i have your medicine
you have my power
the phallus and chalice
the wing and the wheel
the stillness and the still
the spiritual passengers
our passages
i want to do all the things
that take two i want to see
your face and feel you
tremble with ecstasy
hold me tight when i want
to let go take my hand
and lets do it all over
again
i have always found
i could never find it
on my own

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i am
where you are
going
over there over
here round the
corner under the
stairs
there are mountains
to climb
all you took was a hill
and a pill
i have to keep telling
myself to get the
fuck out of my
way
it happened twenty
four years ago and it
still sustains me to
this day
yeah imagine that
i wear it like a hat
purple heart
i still see the why
in your eyes
thirty eight years of
psychiatry to find theres
nothing wrong with
me when you walk the
wards psychotic and
psychic
brings a whole new
meaning to being
rewarded
blessed be the insanity
i'll see you there
we will giggle
we will shine
sanity is just a shuffle
of papers
they can't keep us in
they can't keep us out
they say i'm paranoid
who ain't scarred and
scared
i'm their mistake i'm
their excuse i'm their
burden
madness is a monster
that guards a door to
the treasures of the
soul
i'm one of the wealthiest
men on earth
when you find peace
you'll know my worth
i learned the monsters
cannot harm you if
you don't harm
yourself

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what brings me back
to the page after page
after page
i've done it because i'm
able to do it
i've done it because of
my shyness my slyness
my kindness
i've always done it
because of you my love
don't you want more?
this is the result of being
being blessed by the
goddess
this is the result of lust
you stroke my blood
lust quotes
this is the result of too
much love too big a
heart not enough
touch
you take away my ache
and i make love
poem
this is the result of my
willingness my courage
my nude solitude that
makes me reach for you
with words that can
touch i have the best
caress
this is the result of my
constant search wanting
to find the worth of my
birth i seek
i seek peace on earth
i follow my feet and
i find your grace
every place
the geese call to me
the hawks call to me
the world calls to me
i know when you find
me i will be gone i know
when you kiss me you
will leave a poem on
my lips

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you had better run
here comes the drums
stay i say hear the heart
beat in every one
join us just beyond those
woods
we wait for nightfall
her sign the proper
time
now listen
here comes the thunder
in the quake of your
soul
i know
you are never the same
when the thunder calls
your name
you feel so small and
helpless but you will
grow so tall and
helpfull
you will be taught thoughts
you will walk a brave path
you will do the math you
will see and be shown
the tasks
the thunder awakens
the thunder will call
your name if you have a
belly button then you're
one of us
our work is not done
untill the wisdom
comes
and the wisdom will
come through poem
and drum
the thunder awakens
some of us sounds like
you are one of us

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my mind is like a wind
chime
my eyes are two moons
one for me one for
you
my giggle
you'll hear my laughter
long into the hereafter
my touch loves you so
much my caress is
endless
i long for you rock hard
tongue tied lets do what
you have always wanted
to do
lets come undone
love is our freedom
love is our glory
love is our
jubilee

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when you come
to mind i try to find
if our bond is complete
my sweet
when you come to
mind i think of our
tongues i think of your
scent i feel your
caress
when you come to
mind i must pause i am
in awe of you
my love shows me what
to do for you
when you come to
mind i am mindfull i am
mindless i roar i soar
yet i tumble and fall
every time you
call

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please have lots of
spiritual occurrences
i'll share my pocket
full with you
it ain't the end of any
thing it's the beginings
of every thing
i see moon mother granny
in every nook and cranny
i feel you singing singing
a vibration in my heart
sometimes i feel a
flutter
when i touch i see
when i see i feel
it ain't no big deal
to heal its a job and like
anything else it turns
into work
the hardest part is healing
your heart
when mine shattered into
many shards each shard
as i healed became a bouquet
of flowers each shard became
a feather of forever each shard
a kiss as she put me back
together
when you heal your heart
your heart can heal others
therapy is a nipple
i remember when i was an
emotional cripple when i
was in hell it took a woman's
love from above and my love
of women to heal me body
and soul
i still ache to be touched as
much as i love to be touched
i still ache to kiss you between
the thighs
it occurs to me in every woman
i see i see the love the love
that cures me

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i sit in stillness
and the world
spins around
me
i do not like it
here i need the
flow
my mind is a
ocean always in
motion
my heart is a
wheel i go where
i feel
my soul is a verb
or haven't you
heard
when i sit still
my body rocks
back and forth
with the breath
of my heart
when i am still
i still find ways
to go above and
below
when i am still
i lose the me
such a odd way
to be free
i am totally amazed
at how difficult
something so simple
can be
where do i find
stillness its just not
in me
all i can do is keep
from starting something
new keep from wanting
wanting you
to stay in one spot
a speck to become
thoughtless i
thought
i can't stop the dread
of stopping
i need nothing new
yet the only thing
i can do is still be still
till i bloom
stillness the cocoon

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there is a emptyness
a stillness to
achieve
nay i say
i have too much
desire i love the
fire i braid the flames
of your name
forget ever wanting
to be sane
regret nothing
only you can heal
you take your own
medicine
there is no emptyness
in my heart no stillness
in my soul
the only thing i have
to worry about is
bursting when i finally
let go
lets dance cheek to
cheek in the stillness
and refill the emptyness
with our love

******************

the crazy ways i stay
sane
i do not write with the
darkness i write with
the light
do you follow the curse
of love or do you follow
the course of love
your choice
it makes a world of
difference
are you the sick one
to find fun in my
sincerest misery
is it easier to do when
its been done to you
my focus is those who
can't stop can't stop
loving can't stop caring
can't stop giving can't
stop crying can't stop
dreaming can't stop
seeking
i'm glad i bring you
bliss i'm grateful i
have this gift the touch
of my words from my
lips is heart felt
there are reasons to
reason i've had that
thought before i
thought
words are a magick
art the art of the heart
i write best when i
have nothing to say
i write best to turn
your love my way
i write best when words
are my caress
when you begin with
love words will take
you anywhere you want
to go
words are the wings of
your soul
crazy crazy crazy
her magick
i change the way people
are with simply being
the way i am

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stardust
i know where you get
your lust
lets all say it at once
i must
my ache a ache that
would break a lesser
man a ache i
hate
lets all say it at once
i must
a knowing to see what
is showing to go and
know where your
going
lets all say it at once
i must
damn i love you
i want you all night
and all day long my
touch is my song
lets all say it at once
i must
lets go on tour first
my heart then yours
to be sure
lets all say it at once
i must
what drives you right
out of your mind
i must
when you've had too
much must you learn
the only thing you
must do is you must
trust
lets all say it at once
i must trust

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there is no closure
to spirituality
the closure is the
psychology to put
the mind at ease
balance is the key
to go back as far
as you go forward
you need to go
really deep if you
want to go really
high
those who have
trembled with joy
have trembled with
dread
you must weep weep
till you weep with
bliss
the deeper the roots
through your boots
the further you can fly
the skies as wide as
your mind
you have to be crazy
to stay sane
give thanks for the
sacrifice the fire the
ice the rain the flames
give thanks to the hand
that brings the pain
you are not done till
all is forgiven
close your eyes to see
listen to the silence
roar you must be willing
to be still you must want
no wants there must be
no more musts
be the naked mystery
the story that can not
be sold the song of the
soul thousands of years
old waiting to be sung
waiting waiting to be
told
as free as a tree
take my hand and walk
with me

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they come to me
the people i see in the
mind of me
i am very grateful
they are the watchers
they look at me and
i see
they don't say a word
and i hear their wisdom
visible and visceral
they bring me no harm
they want me to know
i am not alone they want
me to know they know
spirit beings who come
to me so i see
i am honored when
they appear to me
i'm being thanked
and all i can do is
welcome you
when i talk to them the
words are talking to
me
i have seen many
they are medicine people
they come to help
when i see one i take a
good long look at
myself
they are like the hawks
they come and go
silently through my
thoughts with no words
i am told i must trust
i am told you are one
of us

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i've lived on a
mountain i've lived
in the sea
i've drank from the
fountain i am one
of the trees
sing to me my mother
mother may i
please
the tracks of my tears
of sorrow have become
many paths of
joy
i am totally insane
and totally free
you say i'm free to do
no i say i'm free to be
i am a human being
being a being of love
being a being of
kindness being a being
of peace
whats so crazy about
that
i go where time does
not go beyond this
world of words
yet i still dread
the future still fills
me with fear
i'd rather be crazy
than be afraid
one day closer closer
closer closer each day
i say the bravest thing
you've got to do is be
yourself
i'm just so afraid i'll
make a mistake
i'm still in a place where
the slightest error could
be death
its a hard way to live
but its the only way to
survive
lets break this spell
help me out of this hell
help me help me make
a mistake

********************

it's coming
it's coming
it's coming
it's coming
it's coming
it's coming
it's coming
it's coming
it's coming
it's coming
it's coming
it's coming
it's coming

***********************

everybody knows two plus
two everybody knows the
sky is blue everybody knows
i love you
mother may i
i was where time does not
go and was asked about
my father
and i realized i have no
issues with my dad
and i thought about his
issues and i heard his
voice he spoke to me
"well, neither do i"
and i am glad we can
rest in peace
he gave me the nod
and i'm closer to him
now than i ever was
i feel his hand
in mine

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love is just a word
to those who feel its
cool to say
ask them to give
see if they care
watch what they do
they are selfish and
rude
i reach out to love
and you look at me
like i am insane
i feel its a shame
when your word love
is empty and i am
left to blame
how can you be real
if you don't feel the
same
i love you i love you
i love you and all you
really want is for me
to remember your
name and you're cool
so cool i don't know
which one of us is
the biggest fool

********************

i braid your flames
do you feel the
same
may i knock on your
door will you open
your heart to my
world
all i want to do
takes two
may i wake you
to the night my
light
do you feel your
quake in my soul
thats how i know
this is no mistake
may i touch you
as much as you
love to be touched
can you bare a bear
that cares on top
of you
i'm not asking for
a yes or no
you need not reply
i just no longer want
solitude when i have
been with you

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you are a breath
of fresh air
so sweet so rare
you are the wind
of my chime
you are the love
in my rhyme
i write best when
my words are my
caress when my
heart gives me no
rest when the moon
rises in the west i
dance on the crest
i will share with
you my nest
you'll see my dreams
feel so real
you'll know my soul
won't let go
you are the art of my
heart
we are chalice and
phallus
we are kind and
kindred
we are each other
may we be
lovers
perhaps we were
perhaps we are
perhaps we will
still

********************

when i begin
with love words take
me anywhere i want
to go
when i think of you
i follow the words
anywhere they take
me
i want to draw you
now with my tongue
i want to paint you
with my penis
to squirm all firm
when i see you
to ache and ache
and ache
goddamn this feels
good when my love
my muse and my
beloved all join hands
to raise our voice
to lift our hearts
to join in spirit spark
to join in the glory of
love
this time i feel your
hand in mine
and i know your smile
waits for me

***********************

i bring you no harm
i just want to share
with you these words
of charm
i can love you from
here here in my heart
this time i hear you
in my mind
two tin cans ear to ear
joined with spirit spirit
thread spirit said
i am completely out of
my head i am in my
heart being a being
of love
i know there's no need
but do you want
want indeed the same
as me
a hug full of our
love

*******************

just enjoy
damn man i have no
plan i have no wrath
on my path i have no
self imposed halos
if you can't see me
i am open and honest
if you can't see me
this is my dharma
this is my karma
if you can't see why
touch me
may i give you a
glimpse
may i give you a
scent a taste
i know you feel my
vibe come alive
will you return my
whispers my sister
will you return
my wink

*****************

i choose not to drink
from the cup of self
destruct
i choose not to drink
from the cup of lady
luck
i choose to clink with
you a drink from the
cup of kindness
a chalice so timeless
mindfull and
mindless
my word love is not
empty my love
try it on for size and
realize there is the
whole wide world
the sun and moon
and you in my heart
it's a good
start
my words are not
empty they are full of
feeling full of healing
full and revealing
my words are alive
my love is a verb
you may hear but have
you heard how my heart
beats between each word
each poem a star that
falls from the sky each
letter a ache i can not
hide
i am poet i am one of
a million suns with love
my medicine
i am a forever man
forever in love forever
in peace forever
i seek

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i like to think of you
a poem is the least
i can do my words
are few a puddle
a pool a pond to
ponder and rule
a moon beam dream
or so it seems
i love you
simple and true
i go through hell in
love but every weakness
becomes my greatest
strength
every piece of broken
heart is now gold in
the treasures of my
soul
i am the petals at your
feet
if this is not real then
why do i feel so alive
the ecstasy drives me
to tears
goddamn
love has no fear
and you gotta be crazy
fucking crazy to be
here
but my being my love
my being is love
you may think i don't
know you and may i
reply
if you have a belly button
if your heart beats for me
i can see the who of you
by how you treat me with
your smile
how you are the why
in the woods of
these words
how you are the what
when and where
there is the heaven of
hell there is the hell
of heaven
the fire and ice the ache
a hate
goddamn
love has no fear
the ecstasy drives me
to tears

******************

thank you
for returning
my love
i still hear your
words in my
head
i still feel the tug
of your hug
i know you struggle
struggle with
love
i see you are so
pleased when you
see me
we shy knowing
why
peace my sister
may our lips
bring us
joy
may our tongues
seek
may our touch
release us teach
us complete
us

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i hear a cheer
when you come
near
fondness a pond
your laugh a splash
a plop my head
bobs yes
now you know how
i feel
don't tell anybody
i'm living the poets'
dream
my breakfast every
day is special
k
what a great way
to spend the day
just wave if i wander
by if you see me in
the trees don't mind
me
say hi to the cloud
people for me
sometimes you won't
like it at all but that's
how its done
like the hoop you learn
to get better and
better
to be willing
to be able
i bring my verse
to the table a poem
for dessert perhaps
with coffee and
cream
yep i'm living the
poets' dream
don't tell anybody

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ancient scenes
of the pipe
dream
love beams
of the pipe
dream
honey and cream
of the pipe
dream
time is the seam
of the pipe
dream
she is the waves
of the sea
waves waving at me
she is the trees she
is a moon beam
she is my love
my love
of the pipe
dream